Love Aint Always Pretty

Sehnsucht

- a painful desire for something or for someone particularly if there's no hope to attain the desire or when its attainment is uncertain; wistful longing

Origin: German

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It was still drizzling outside but not as heavy as a while ago and it was right on time when Nick and Alec were done eating dinner. I was just quiet the entire time when the two of them were eating and Aries were talking to them too, joining Nick and Alec's conversation. They were talking about the foods that Tracy likes and the things they need to prepare for her. Nick's hand has finally left my thigh and I was just finishing on my glass of water.

"We better go before the rain pours hard down again." Alec says.

The four of us starts standing up, Nick stands while finishing his glass of orange juice as I stood right next to him.

"I'll just drive Savannah back to her dorm then I'll catch up with you guys on buying the foods for Saturday and--" Aries said.

"I'll drive her." Nick cut him off.

Alec and Aries glanced at me, but I think I looked guilty in front of them and then they stared at Nick. He looked at them impassively. He's so good at hiding his emotions all to himself. I just stared at my feet while we were both heading to the door. Nick gazed at me and I don't know why he wants to drive me back to the dorm. But I want him to instead of Aries. I want to spend some time with him.

Just me and Nick.

"I need to get the borrowed book from her." Nick added.

"Oh. Yeah." I snapped.

I'm glad he remembered cos I totally forgot the moment I saw him.

He glanced at me. "Then I'll catch up with you guys. Text me."

Alec stares at Nick then looks over at me then back at Nick before smiling at himself. Aries just stares at Nick the entire time. I don't know what Alec is thinking but I hope he's not sensing something between me and his best friend. Alec pulled his head up still smiling at us.

"Alright. Let's go Aries." Alec starts heading out of the door and ran towards his car.

I stared at Aries but he's still looking at Nick eagerly belter moving his eyes to me. He smiled. "Bye angel. See you tomorrow."

"Yeah. See you. Drive safely." I said.

Aries heads out of the door and ran towards his car under the rain. He followed Alec's tracks right away and the next second I feel Nick's piercing gaze shot at me. I looked up to him. "What?"

I was expecting him to at least get a little bit jealous or mad cos I was with Aries. I was expecting him to fire me questions. I was expecting him to ask me why I was with Aries, or why we were having dinner together, or how many times have I had dinner alone with Aries. But then I'm sure he won't give a damn about it. I'm sure he won't care at all.

"I've been wanting to tell you since a while ago that you look beautiful tonight but I just didn't have the chance." He smiled.

It was the first time I've seen Nick smile since the time he sat down on the table with us. I smiled sheepishly. Well that was a lot better than what I expected.

"You look beautiful tonight Savannah." He said sexily.

He starts taking off his black leather jacket and suddenly placing it over me my shoulders. He stands close in front of me and his height is towering over me while he was busy fixing the collar of his jacket.

"Wouldn't want you to get sick. If you're sick I may not be able to kiss you." He said.

Im smiling shyly. My head looking up at his face then his eyes resting down at me. All of a sudden he winked at me.

Holy.

Nick just winked at me.

He heads to the door and I just sheepishly follow him. He gestured his hand to let me pass first. "After you."

followed me. We hurriedly ran towards his car under the rain and we were soaked the moment we climbed inside and my hair was wet. I moved my eyes to him and his white shirt was sticking on his body. I could see his muscles even on the dark,

I'm wearing white

said as I take off his black

I looked back at him.

such a dirty mind?" I ask

at him while he was driving seriously. I was expecting him to kiss me here in his car and we'd make out right on top of his driver's seat. I wanted to ask him where he was for tv past three days. I wanted to ask him who he was with. But I'm not allowed to ask. So I

couldn't hold it in anymore. I need to

while his eyes were straight

you for

things. And I went to visit

Someone?

Who?

Could it be Catherine?

looking for a company

you that?" He cocked

I nod.

as well but mostly it was visiting

feeling a little pinch every time he's saying he visited someone? Why am I thinking of that someone is as a woman? It could possibly be a guy. But why am I thinking that it's Catherine? It could be

Don't get affected Savannah. You can't get affected by what he's telling you. Whoever Catherine is to him, you're not allowed to care or know

to get affected.

was pouring harder and harder like how

Aries today." He blurted. Oh god I didn't expect him to say that. He's asking.

couldn't tell if he was jealous or he just really wanted to say that. Why? To get me to think that he's

me out for dinner and

Aries. I wanted him to show that he's concerned for me. I wanted him to tell me to stay away from Aries cos he's a goddamn womanizer and

I sighed inwardly.

We were quiet again.

Awkward quiet. For me.

him pulling over.

at him. "I'll just...

reached for the door. "Savannah." I hear

faced him again.

know I didn't come here with you to get the book." He

My. Heart. Just. Accelerated.

you said

"Come here." He instructs.

I startle. "W-what?"

"Get on

spread to his sides while my feet were locked onto his inner thigh and I sat down on his lap. He looks up to me while his hand was cupping my cheek and brushing his thumb

under his spell. One touch from

knows what he's doing to me. He knows what to do. He knows really well. My arms splayed around

bottom of my spine and inserts them both into the garter of my shorts and my underwear then squeezes my ass. He bites my lower lip and pulls it back then kisses my chin before landing on my neck. His hands pulling down my shorts and I

If ever we'll get caught by the

foil from his pocket and pulls down his pants along with his boxer

Wow.

miss that

rubbing my sex. I moan on his mouth and I know he's busy putting the condom on him. I slowly push myself down on him, feeling his entire length sliding inside me. Slowly. Carefully moving myself down.

soft moan escapes

says before cupping my cheeks again and pressing his lips

single time I move down, his tip reaches my spot which causes me to moan even louder. I hold onto his shoulder for support and since the rain is too hard and he parked his car in a dark portion of the parking lot, nobody will notice. I kept moaning onto his mouth while his

I feel him pulling my shirt up and grabs my boobs off from my bra. I was letting him do it until

says