Love Aint Always Pretty

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- regret and remorse and repentance; a state of agony and torment; or sorrow said to be "created by the sudden sight of one's own misery"

Origin: Czech

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I just glued my eyes at his name while it was appearing on my screen. I didn't answer his call. I couldn't answer his call. I don't want to answer his call then it went off. My heart feels heavy.

Why on earth is he still calling? Will he want to ask about what he saw? Will he ask about my kiss with Aries? Why would he act like he care when he knows he shouldn't act this way?

My phone rings again.

Nick calling...

I answer it.

He exhales. "Where did you go?"

I walked out of the elevator and walked to my dorm. I entered the room and I still didn't answer Nick. He's waiting for my answer too. Tracy wasn't around, I'm sure she's with Clyde. I leaned my back against the door and I feel my heart beating faster.

"Where in hell did you go with Aries, Savannah?" He asked again. He sounds mad at me.

I exhale. "Why do you act like you're concerned about where I went to with Aries? I can go anywhere with any guy I want Nick. I don't need your permission."

I hang up.

My phone rings again.

Damn it Nick!

Nick calling...

I rejected his call but then my phone rings once again just in a split second.

Nick calling...

I answered it. "What do you want from me? I need to sleep Nick!"

"Open your goddamn door Savannah."

My brows creasing.

"Open your fucking door!" He demands while there was a slam on my door that made me flinch.

I exhale. He's outside.

I turned to face the door and took a deep breath in before I opened it. He's here. He's really right outside my room. I hang up on him and he barged his way inside.

"Didn't you leave already?" I asked as my eyebrow arching.

"I came back. I need to talk to you about what I saw." He says.

I looked away. He really saw it. He really saw me kissing Aries. Good. He saw it. I wanted Nick to see it too, cos it'll make me realize if he actually cared or not. If it actually make him jealous or not.

"Where did you go with him?" He asks. Sounded as if he's demanding an answer from me.

My head moves back to Nick and he's looking at me angrily as if I did something really unforgivable. His eyes are piercing into me and he's actually mad. I know he is. It wasn't the same face he had when he saw me with Dustin. His brows are furrowing and his jaw is clenched.

"Answer me." He says.

"I don't have to explain anything to you. You don't have the right to know where I went to with Aries." I defended myself.

to say I can also fuck any woman I want cos you're also doing

free. Fuck a lot of women as much as you want to.

do that cos I only want you."

is melting. Don't give in Savannah. You're stronger

fucking jealous?! You get freaking jealous when I'm with another man. You're jealous when you see me with someone else. You get

you kissed Aries! Now where did you go?!"

right to know Nick. You and I are not in a

He laughs humorlessly.

go fuck?" He

My eyes widened.

good? Was he better when he ate you? Was he bigger than I am?

on his cheek. I slapped Nick. I slapped him hard. My tears are brimming out from my eyes and it falls down on

I could go

and looks at me as if he was sorry. His eyes are rueful. His eyes looked angry a while ago and now they look soft. He licks his lips and looks confused as hell. I think he just realized what

not have a label, but Nick I've never had sex with another man aside from you!

it's too much already. I always say it's too much but

for me but I pull myself away from him. "Don't you dare think about touching

out. I'm sorry. I didn't mean that.

out." I say

"Savannah please."

the fuck out!" I yelled at

to leave. I'm hurt. I've never imagined he could tell me that. I never imagined he could say that to me so straight into my face. I never

shocked too. We didn't notice the door opening. We didn't notice that someone came in. She looked at us confused and troubled. I wonder how long she has been standing there. I

long did... You two..." Tracy seemed

humorlessly but I know she couldn't believe

around behind our backs? Behind me?! Savannah I thought you trust me?!

"I'm sorry." I say.

from Nick cos he'll only hurt you. But you didn't listen. Now how long has

I closed my eyes.

answer that Savannah."

going to court

"No." Nick answers.

He answered so quickly. Still no hesitation on his

I sigh.

just the same as Aries. You use women. I never thought you

from my eyes

eyes Nick eagerly. "You're just

Yes. This is

are you really going to keep on treating Savannah this cheap? She deserves more than just to be your fuck

please. It's okay."

can't let him do this to

love him Tracy." I cut her off and

parted

he wants to and as long as he needs me

about how I feel and his stares seemed to answer her question. Tracy shakes her head. I feel so low of myself. I tell

doing this to yourself? You should be mad that he's using you for his own pleasure. You should be stopping this. You shouldn't agree to this kind of thing you have with

shake my head and cried cos

he'll get

don't know." I

I ruined her Tracy." Nick

known better Nick. She's only eighteen and you're twenty four

from getting into a relationship with Clyde and you know I don't like him for you but you still said yes to him. So

I'm so embarrassed. I don't want them to fight because of me. I don't want to hear

yours. It's ours! We can do what we want

her Nick. You will give her false hope and women will always fall first as you see now. You will

I'm sobbing.

I'm crying.