Love Aint Always Pretty

Lítost

- regret and remorse and repentance; a state of agony and torment; or sorrow said to be "created by the sudden sight of one's own misery"

Origin: Czech

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I just glued my eyes at his name while it was appearing on my screen. I didn't answer his call. I couldn't answer his call. I don't want to answer his call then it went off. My heart feels heavy.

Why on earth is he still calling? Will he want to ask about what he saw? Will he ask about my kiss with Aries? Why would he act like he care when he knows he shouldn't act this way?

My phone rings again.

Nick calling...

I answer it.

He exhales. "Where did you go?"

I walked out of the elevator and walked to my dorm. I entered the room and I still didn't answer Nick. He's waiting for my answer too. Tracy wasn't around, I'm sure she's with Clyde. I leaned my back against the door and I feel my heart beating faster.

"Where in hell did you go with Aries, Savannah?" He asked again. He sounds mad at me.

I exhale. "Why do you act like you're concerned about where I went to with Aries? I can go anywhere with any guy I want Nick. I don't need your permission."

I hang up.

My phone rings again.

Damn it Nick!

Nick calling...

I rejected his call but then my phone rings once again just in a split second.

Nick calling...

I answered it. "What do you want from me? I need to sleep Nick!"

"Open your goddamn door Savannah."

My brows creasing.

"Open your fucking door!" He demands while there was a slam on my door that made me flinch.

I exhale. He's outside.

I turned to face the door and took a deep breath in before I opened it. He's here. He's really right outside my room. I hang up on him and he barged his way inside.

"Didn't you leave already?" I asked as my eyebrow arching.

"I came back. I need to talk to you about what I saw." He says.

I looked away. He really saw it. He really saw me kissing Aries. Good. He saw it. I wanted Nick to see it too, cos it'll make me realize if he actually cared or not. If it actually make him jealous or not.

"Where did you go with him?" He asks. Sounded as if he's demanding an answer from me.

My head moves back to Nick and he's looking at me angrily as if I did something really unforgivable. His eyes are piercing into me and he's actually mad. I know he is. It wasn't the same face he had when he saw me with Dustin. His brows are furrowing and his jaw is clenched.

"Answer me." He says.

"I don't have to explain anything to you. You don't have the right to know where I went to with Aries." I defended myself.

really? So you mean to say I can also fuck any woman I want

together against my breasts. "Go. Be free. Fuck a lot of women as much as you want to. I

I can't do that cos I only want you."

is melting. Don't give in Savannah.

You get freaking jealous when I'm with another man. You're jealous when you see me with someone

you kissed Aries! Now where did you go?!" His voice

know Nick. You and I are not in a

He laughs humorlessly.

you go fuck?" He

My eyes widened.

you?

are brimming out from my eyes and it falls down on my cheeks. His face looking

kind of woman?! You think I could go around

He licks his lips and looks confused as hell. I think

not have a label, but Nick I've never had sex with another man aside from you! How

crumpling my heart. He's hurting me and it's too much already. I always say it's too much but right now

reaches for me but I pull myself away from him. "Don't you dare think about touching me."

It just came out. I'm sorry. I didn't mean

out." I say as

"Savannah please."

the fuck out!" I yelled

wanted him to leave. I'm hurt. I've never imagined he could tell me that. I never

too. We didn't notice the door opening. We didn't notice that someone came in. She looked at us confused and troubled. I

long did... You two..." Tracy seemed surprised

laughs humorlessly but I know she couldn't believe

thought you trust me?! Why didn't

"I'm sorry." I say.

stay away from Nick cos he'll only hurt you. But you didn't

I closed my eyes.

answer that Savannah."

at least going to court her

"No." Nick answers.

Still no hesitation on

I sigh.

just the same as Aries. You use women. I never thought

from my eyes like a

eyes Nick eagerly. "You're just fucking

Yes. This is all

we were together. God Nick are you really going to

please. It's okay."

not okay Savannah! Do you hear yourself? He's my brother. You're my roommate. You're a close friend now. I can't let him do this to you! You're an innocent girl. You're too innocent for him. It's like he's

off and my tears are

lip parted in

me as much as he wants to and as long as he needs me cos I love him."

how I feel and his stares seemed to answer her question. Tracy shakes her head. I feel so low of myself. I tell myself I don't deserve this but I love Nick. I'm

he's using you for his own pleasure. You should be

and cried

if that day will come when he'll get tired of you, what's next?" She asks

"I don't know."

know I ruined

You will. You should've known better Nick. She's only eighteen and you're twenty

our choice. She's letting me do it anyways. I didn't even stop you from getting into a relationship with Clyde and you know I don't like him for you but you still said yes to him. So don't get involve with our shit. It's not your goddamn business. " Nick

fight because of me. I don't want to hear those words coming from their mouths. I

my sex life, Tracy. It's Savannah's sex life. It's not yours. It's ours! We can do what we want

her false hope and women will always fall first as you see now. You will not only ruin her but you'll emotionally

I'm sobbing.

I'm crying.