Love Aint Always Pretty

Lítost

- regret and remorse and repentance; a state of agony and torment; or sorrow said to be "created by the sudden sight of one's own misery"

Origin: Czech

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I just glued my eyes at his name while it was appearing on my screen. I didn't answer his call. I couldn't answer his call. I don't want to answer his call then it went off. My heart feels heavy.

Why on earth is he still calling? Will he want to ask about what he saw? Will he ask about my kiss with Aries? Why would he act like he care when he knows he shouldn't act this way?

My phone rings again.

Nick calling...

I answer it.

He exhales. "Where did you go?"

I walked out of the elevator and walked to my dorm. I entered the room and I still didn't answer Nick. He's waiting for my answer too. Tracy wasn't around, I'm sure she's with Clyde. I leaned my back against the door and I feel my heart beating faster.

"Where in hell did you go with Aries, Savannah?" He asked again. He sounds mad at me.

I exhale. "Why do you act like you're concerned about where I went to with Aries? I can go anywhere with any guy I want Nick. I don't need your permission."

I hang up.

My phone rings again.

Damn it Nick!

Nick calling...

I rejected his call but then my phone rings once again just in a split second.

Nick calling...

I answered it. "What do you want from me? I need to sleep Nick!"

"Open your goddamn door Savannah."

My brows creasing.

"Open your fucking door!" He demands while there was a slam on my door that made me flinch.

I exhale. He's outside.

I turned to face the door and took a deep breath in before I opened it. He's here. He's really right outside my room. I hang up on him and he barged his way inside.

"Didn't you leave already?" I asked as my eyebrow arching.

"I came back. I need to talk to you about what I saw." He says.

I looked away. He really saw it. He really saw me kissing Aries. Good. He saw it. I wanted Nick to see it too, cos it'll make me realize if he actually cared or not. If it actually make him jealous or not.

"Where did you go with him?" He asks. Sounded as if he's demanding an answer from me.

My head moves back to Nick and he's looking at me angrily as if I did something really unforgivable. His eyes are piercing into me and he's actually mad. I know he is. It wasn't the same face he had when he saw me with Dustin. His brows are furrowing and his jaw is clenched.

"Answer me." He says.

"I don't have to explain anything to you. You don't have the right to know where I went to with Aries." I defended myself.

fuck any woman I want cos you're

against my breasts. "Go. Be free. Fuck a lot of women as much as you want to. I won't tell you to

that cos

is melting. Don't give

another man. You're jealous when you see me with someone else. You get jealous but you

I am! Maybe I am jealous cos you

the right to know Nick. You and

He laughs humorlessly.

go fuck?" He

My eyes widened.

better when he ate you? Was he bigger than I am? Did he

tears are brimming out from my eyes and

You think I could go around sleep with other men?!" I

looked angry a while ago and now they look soft. He licks his lips and

relationship and we may not have a label, but Nick I've never had sex with

it's too much but right now it is ready too much that I can't

for me but I pull myself away from him. "Don't you dare

out. I'm sorry. I didn't mean that. I'm really

I say as

"Savannah please."

fuck out!"

students were hearing us fight but I wanted him to leave. I'm hurt. I've never imagined he could tell me that. I never imagined he could say that

and my jaw dropped when I saw Tracy standing by the doorway. Nick was shocked too. We didn't notice the door opening. We didn't notice that someone came in. She looked at us confused

did... You two..."

know she couldn't

have been fucking each other around behind our backs? Behind me?! Savannah I thought you trust me?! Why didn't you

"I'm sorry." I say.

Nick cos he'll only hurt you.

I closed my eyes.

that Savannah."

going to court her

"No." Nick answers.

quickly. Still

I sigh.

unbelievable Nick. You're just the same as Aries. You use women. I never thought you

from my

"You're just fucking her? Just

Tracy. Yes. This is

so stupid now after all those times we were together. God Nick are you really going to keep on treating Savannah this cheap? She deserves more than just to be your fuck

please. It's okay." I

it's not okay Savannah! Do you hear yourself? He's my brother. You're my roommate. You're a close friend now. I can't let him do this to you! You're an innocent girl. You're too innocent for him. It's like he's treating you garbage

her off and my

lip parted

as much as he wants to and as

question. Tracy shakes her head. I feel so low of myself. I tell myself I don't deserve this but I love Nick. I'm still too in

be mad that he's using you for his own pleasure. You should be stopping this. You shouldn't agree

and cried cos it's

that day will come when he'll get tired of you, what's next?" She

sigh. "I don't

I ruined her Tracy." Nick

Nick. She's only eighteen and you're twenty four

we did something wrong. If I fuck Savannah as much as I want to, it's our choice. She's letting me do it anyways. I didn't even stop you from getting into a

embarrassed. I don't want them to fight because of me. I don't want

sex life, Tracy. It's Savannah's sex life. It's not yours. It's ours! We

will hurt her Nick. You will give her false hope and women will always fall first as you see now. You will

I'm sobbing.

I'm crying.