Love Aint Always Pretty

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- regret and remorse and repentance; a state of agony and torment; or sorrow said to be "created by the sudden sight of one's own misery"

Origin: Czech

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I just glued my eyes at his name while it was appearing on my screen. I didn't answer his call. I couldn't answer his call. I don't want to answer his call then it went off. My heart feels heavy.

Why on earth is he still calling? Will he want to ask about what he saw? Will he ask about my kiss with Aries? Why would he act like he care when he knows he shouldn't act this way?

My phone rings again.

Nick calling...

I answer it.

He exhales. "Where did you go?"

I walked out of the elevator and walked to my dorm. I entered the room and I still didn't answer Nick. He's waiting for my answer too. Tracy wasn't around, I'm sure she's with Clyde. I leaned my back against the door and I feel my heart beating faster.

"Where in hell did you go with Aries, Savannah?" He asked again. He sounds mad at me.

I exhale. "Why do you act like you're concerned about where I went to with Aries? I can go anywhere with any guy I want Nick. I don't need your permission."

I hang up.

My phone rings again.

Damn it Nick!

Nick calling...

I rejected his call but then my phone rings once again just in a split second.

Nick calling...

I answered it. "What do you want from me? I need to sleep Nick!"

"Open your goddamn door Savannah."

My brows creasing.

"Open your fucking door!" He demands while there was a slam on my door that made me flinch.

I exhale. He's outside.

I turned to face the door and took a deep breath in before I opened it. He's here. He's really right outside my room. I hang up on him and he barged his way inside.

"Didn't you leave already?" I asked as my eyebrow arching.

"I came back. I need to talk to you about what I saw." He says.

I looked away. He really saw it. He really saw me kissing Aries. Good. He saw it. I wanted Nick to see it too, cos it'll make me realize if he actually cared or not. If it actually make him jealous or not.

"Where did you go with him?" He asks. Sounded as if he's demanding an answer from me.

My head moves back to Nick and he's looking at me angrily as if I did something really unforgivable. His eyes are piercing into me and he's actually mad. I know he is. It wasn't the same face he had when he saw me with Dustin. His brows are furrowing and his jaw is clenched.

"Answer me." He says.

"I don't have to explain anything to you. You don't have the right to know where I went to with Aries." I defended myself.

really? So you mean to say I can also fuck any woman

my arms together against my breasts. "Go. Be free. Fuck a lot of women as much as you

do that cos

heart is melting. Don't give in Savannah. You're stronger

fucking jealous?! You get freaking jealous when I'm with another man. You're jealous

you kissed Aries! Now

don't have the right to know Nick. You and I are not in a commitment."

He laughs humorlessly.

go fuck?" He

My eyes widened.

Was he better when he ate you? Was

him hard. My tears are brimming out from my eyes and it falls down on

think I'm that kind of woman?! You think I could go around

His eyes looked angry a while ago and now they look soft. He licks his lips and looks confused

not have a label, but Nick I've never had sex with another man aside from you!

and it's too much already. I always say it's too much but right now it is ready too much that I can't seem to handle

for me but I pull myself away from him. "Don't

It just came out. I'm sorry. I didn't mean that.

say

"Savannah please."

the fuck out!" I yelled at

were hearing us fight but I wanted him to leave. I'm hurt. I've never imagined he could tell me that. I never

Nick was shocked too. We didn't notice the door opening. We didn't notice

did... You two..." Tracy seemed surprised like

humorlessly but I know she couldn't believe the things she

backs? Behind me?! Savannah I thought you trust me?! Why didn't you even tell

"I'm sorry." I say.

Nick cos he'll only hurt you. But you didn't

I closed my eyes.

answer that

you at least going to court her Nick?" She

"No." Nick answers.

so quickly. Still no

I sigh.

unbelievable Nick. You're just the same as Aries. You

tears are escaping from

Nick eagerly. "You're just fucking her? Just like

This is all he could give

after all those times we were together. God Nick are you really going to

It's okay."

He's my brother. You're my roommate. You're a close friend now. I can't let him do this to you! You're an

cut her off and my

parted

to and as long as he needs me cos I

Tracy shakes her head. I feel so low of myself. I tell myself I don't

You should be stopping this. You shouldn't agree to this kind of

head and cried cos

day will come when he'll get tired of you, what's

don't know."

ruined her Tracy." Nick

known better Nick. She's

letting me do it anyways. I didn't even stop you from getting into a relationship with Clyde and you know I don't like him for you

because of me. I don't want to hear those words coming from their mouths.

It's Savannah's sex life. It's not yours. It's ours! We can do what we want cos we're

hurt her Nick. You will give her false hope and women will always fall first as you

I'm sobbing.

I'm crying.