Love Aint Always Pretty

Lítost

- regret and remorse and repentance; a state of agony and torment; or sorrow said to be "created by the sudden sight of one's own misery"

Origin: Czech

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I just glued my eyes at his name while it was appearing on my screen. I didn't answer his call. I couldn't answer his call. I don't want to answer his call then it went off. My heart feels heavy.

Why on earth is he still calling? Will he want to ask about what he saw? Will he ask about my kiss with Aries? Why would he act like he care when he knows he shouldn't act this way?

My phone rings again.

Nick calling...

I answer it.

He exhales. "Where did you go?"

I walked out of the elevator and walked to my dorm. I entered the room and I still didn't answer Nick. He's waiting for my answer too. Tracy wasn't around, I'm sure she's with Clyde. I leaned my back against the door and I feel my heart beating faster.

"Where in hell did you go with Aries, Savannah?" He asked again. He sounds mad at me.

I exhale. "Why do you act like you're concerned about where I went to with Aries? I can go anywhere with any guy I want Nick. I don't need your permission."

I hang up.

My phone rings again.

Damn it Nick!

Nick calling...

I rejected his call but then my phone rings once again just in a split second.

Nick calling...

I answered it. "What do you want from me? I need to sleep Nick!"

"Open your goddamn door Savannah."

My brows creasing.

"Open your fucking door!" He demands while there was a slam on my door that made me flinch.

I exhale. He's outside.

I turned to face the door and took a deep breath in before I opened it. He's here. He's really right outside my room. I hang up on him and he barged his way inside.

"Didn't you leave already?" I asked as my eyebrow arching.

"I came back. I need to talk to you about what I saw." He says.

I looked away. He really saw it. He really saw me kissing Aries. Good. He saw it. I wanted Nick to see it too, cos it'll make me realize if he actually cared or not. If it actually make him jealous or not.

"Where did you go with him?" He asks. Sounded as if he's demanding an answer from me.

My head moves back to Nick and he's looking at me angrily as if I did something really unforgivable. His eyes are piercing into me and he's actually mad. I know he is. It wasn't the same face he had when he saw me with Dustin. His brows are furrowing and his jaw is clenched.

"Answer me." He says.

"I don't have to explain anything to you. You don't have the right to know where I went to with Aries." I defended myself.

you mean to say I can also fuck any woman I want cos

together against my breasts. "Go. Be free. Fuck a lot of women as

I can't do that cos I only

give in Savannah.

I'm with another man. You're jealous when you see me with someone else. You get jealous but you don't admit it

jealous cos you kissed Aries!

right to know Nick. You and I are not in a

He laughs humorlessly.

go fuck?" He asked

My eyes widened.

he better when he ate you? Was he bigger than I am?

tears are brimming out from my eyes

think I'm that kind of woman?! You think I could go around sleep with

now they look soft. He licks his lips and looks confused as hell. I think he just

not have a label, but Nick I've never had sex with another man aside from you! How can you

crumpling my heart. He's hurting me and it's too much already. I always say it's too much but right now it is ready too much that I can't seem to handle it. It's out of

but I pull myself away from him. "Don't you dare

sorry.

say as I

"Savannah please."

the fuck out!"

were hearing us fight but I wanted him to leave. I'm hurt. I've never imagined he could tell me that. I never imagined he could say that to me so straight into my face. I never thought he could

dropped when I saw Tracy standing by the doorway. Nick was shocked too. We didn't notice the door opening. We didn't notice that someone came in. She looked at us confused and

You two..." Tracy seemed surprised

but I know she couldn't believe the

two have been fucking each other around behind our backs? Behind me?! Savannah I thought you trust me?! Why didn't you even

"I'm sorry." I say.

stay away from Nick cos he'll only hurt you. But you didn't listen. Now how long has

I closed my eyes.

that Savannah."

to court her Nick?" She

"No." Nick answers.

answered so quickly. Still no

I sigh.

You're just the same as Aries. You

are escaping from my eyes like

"You're just fucking her?

This is all

God Nick are you really going to keep on treating Savannah this cheap? She deserves more than just to be your fuck girl!" Tracy

It's okay."

my roommate. You're a close friend now. I can't let him do this to you! You're an innocent girl.

her off and my tears are still falling and

parted in

and as long as he needs

question. Tracy shakes her head. I feel so low of myself. I tell myself I don't deserve

his own pleasure. You should

shake my head and cried cos it's

when he'll get tired of you,

don't know." I

ruined

Nick. She's only eighteen

choice. She's letting me do it anyways. I didn't even stop you from getting into a relationship

so embarrassed. I don't want them to fight because of me. I

life, Tracy. It's Savannah's sex life. It's not yours.

and women will always fall first as you see now. You will not only

I'm sobbing.

I'm crying.