Love Aint Always Pretty

Lítost

- regret and remorse and repentance; a state of agony and torment; or sorrow said to be "created by the sudden sight of one's own misery"

Origin: Czech

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I just glued my eyes at his name while it was appearing on my screen. I didn't answer his call. I couldn't answer his call. I don't want to answer his call then it went off. My heart feels heavy.

Why on earth is he still calling? Will he want to ask about what he saw? Will he ask about my kiss with Aries? Why would he act like he care when he knows he shouldn't act this way?

My phone rings again.

Nick calling...

I answer it.

He exhales. "Where did you go?"

I walked out of the elevator and walked to my dorm. I entered the room and I still didn't answer Nick. He's waiting for my answer too. Tracy wasn't around, I'm sure she's with Clyde. I leaned my back against the door and I feel my heart beating faster.

"Where in hell did you go with Aries, Savannah?" He asked again. He sounds mad at me.

I exhale. "Why do you act like you're concerned about where I went to with Aries? I can go anywhere with any guy I want Nick. I don't need your permission."

I hang up.

My phone rings again.

Damn it Nick!

Nick calling...

I rejected his call but then my phone rings once again just in a split second.

Nick calling...

I answered it. "What do you want from me? I need to sleep Nick!"

"Open your goddamn door Savannah."

My brows creasing.

"Open your fucking door!" He demands while there was a slam on my door that made me flinch.

I exhale. He's outside.

I turned to face the door and took a deep breath in before I opened it. He's here. He's really right outside my room. I hang up on him and he barged his way inside.

"Didn't you leave already?" I asked as my eyebrow arching.

"I came back. I need to talk to you about what I saw." He says.

I looked away. He really saw it. He really saw me kissing Aries. Good. He saw it. I wanted Nick to see it too, cos it'll make me realize if he actually cared or not. If it actually make him jealous or not.

"Where did you go with him?" He asks. Sounded as if he's demanding an answer from me.

My head moves back to Nick and he's looking at me angrily as if I did something really unforgivable. His eyes are piercing into me and he's actually mad. I know he is. It wasn't the same face he had when he saw me with Dustin. His brows are furrowing and his jaw is clenched.

"Answer me." He says.

"I don't have to explain anything to you. You don't have the right to know where I went to with Aries." I defended myself.

can also fuck

my arms together against my breasts. "Go. Be free. Fuck a lot of women as much as you want to.

know I can't do that cos I only want you." He

give in Savannah. You're stronger

jealous when I'm with another man. You're jealous when you see me with

Maybe I am jealous cos you kissed Aries! Now where did you

don't have the right to know Nick. You and I

He laughs humorlessly.

go fuck?" He

My eyes widened.

good? Was he better when he ate you? Was he bigger than I am? Did he make you scream?

brimming out from my eyes and it falls down

think I'm that kind of woman?! You think I could go around sleep

eyes looked angry a while ago and now they look soft. He licks his lips and looks confused as hell. I think he just realized what he just said to me. He just realized that he said too

label, but Nick I've never had sex with another man aside

already. I always say it's

for me but I pull myself away from him. "Don't you dare

out. I'm sorry. I didn't mean that. I'm really

out." I say

"Savannah please."

the fuck out!" I yelled at

hurt. I've never imagined he could tell me that. I never

We didn't

long did... You two..."

laughs humorlessly but I know she couldn't believe the things she

have been fucking each other around behind our backs? Behind me?! Savannah I thought you trust me?! Why

"I'm sorry." I say.

it. I told you to stay away from Nick cos he'll only hurt you. But you

I closed my eyes.

that Savannah." Nick

going to

"No." Nick answers.

answered so quickly. Still

I sigh.

Aries. You use women. I never

from my eyes like a

"You're just fucking her? Just like

Tracy. Yes. This is all he could give

me. I felt so stupid now after all those times we were together. God Nick are you really going to keep on treating Savannah this cheap? She deserves

please. It's

you hear yourself? He's my brother. You're my roommate. You're a close friend now. I can't let him do

off and my tears

parted

wants to and as long as

as if she's asking him that he knows about how I feel and his stares seemed to answer her question. Tracy shakes her head. I feel so

this to yourself? You should be mad that he's using you for his own pleasure. You should be stopping this. You shouldn't agree to this kind of thing you have

my head and cried cos it's

that day will come when he'll get tired of you, what's next?" She

"I don't

I ruined her Tracy." Nick

better Nick. She's only eighteen and you're twenty four years

choice. She's letting me do it anyways. I didn't even stop you from getting into a relationship with Clyde and you know I don't like him for you but you still said yes to him. So don't get involve with our shit. It's not

I'm so embarrassed. I don't want them to fight because of me. I don't want to hear those words coming from their mouths. I

sex life. It's not yours.

hurt her Nick. You will give her false hope and women will always fall first as you see now. You will not only ruin

I'm sobbing.

I'm crying.