Love Aint Always Pretty

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- regret and remorse and repentance; a state of agony and torment; or sorrow said to be "created by the sudden sight of one's own misery"

Origin: Czech

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I just glued my eyes at his name while it was appearing on my screen. I didn't answer his call. I couldn't answer his call. I don't want to answer his call then it went off. My heart feels heavy.

Why on earth is he still calling? Will he want to ask about what he saw? Will he ask about my kiss with Aries? Why would he act like he care when he knows he shouldn't act this way?

My phone rings again.

Nick calling...

I answer it.

He exhales. "Where did you go?"

I walked out of the elevator and walked to my dorm. I entered the room and I still didn't answer Nick. He's waiting for my answer too. Tracy wasn't around, I'm sure she's with Clyde. I leaned my back against the door and I feel my heart beating faster.

"Where in hell did you go with Aries, Savannah?" He asked again. He sounds mad at me.

I exhale. "Why do you act like you're concerned about where I went to with Aries? I can go anywhere with any guy I want Nick. I don't need your permission."

I hang up.

My phone rings again.

Damn it Nick!

Nick calling...

I rejected his call but then my phone rings once again just in a split second.

Nick calling...

I answered it. "What do you want from me? I need to sleep Nick!"

"Open your goddamn door Savannah."

My brows creasing.

"Open your fucking door!" He demands while there was a slam on my door that made me flinch.

I exhale. He's outside.

I turned to face the door and took a deep breath in before I opened it. He's here. He's really right outside my room. I hang up on him and he barged his way inside.

"Didn't you leave already?" I asked as my eyebrow arching.

"I came back. I need to talk to you about what I saw." He says.

I looked away. He really saw it. He really saw me kissing Aries. Good. He saw it. I wanted Nick to see it too, cos it'll make me realize if he actually cared or not. If it actually make him jealous or not.

"Where did you go with him?" He asks. Sounded as if he's demanding an answer from me.

My head moves back to Nick and he's looking at me angrily as if I did something really unforgivable. His eyes are piercing into me and he's actually mad. I know he is. It wasn't the same face he had when he saw me with Dustin. His brows are furrowing and his jaw is clenched.

"Answer me." He says.

"I don't have to explain anything to you. You don't have the right to know where I went to with Aries." I defended myself.

you mean to say I can also fuck any woman I want cos you're also doing the same

Fuck a lot of women as much as you want to. I

I can't do that cos I only want

melting. Don't give in Savannah. You're stronger than

that you're fucking jealous?! You get freaking jealous when I'm with another man. You're jealous when you see me with someone else. You get jealous but you don't admit it

am jealous cos you kissed

have the right to know Nick. You and I are not in a commitment." I

He laughs humorlessly.

fuck?"

My eyes widened.

when he ate you? Was

hand up and palm landed on his cheek. I slapped Nick. I slapped him hard. My tears are brimming out from my eyes and it falls down on my cheeks. His face looking over to another direction and his jaws

I

angry a while ago and now they look soft. He licks his lips and looks confused as hell. I think he just

Nick I've never had sex

too much already. I always say it's too much but right now it is ready too much that I can't seem to handle it.

me but I pull myself away from him.

just came out. I'm sorry. I

say

"Savannah please."

out!"

students were hearing us fight but I wanted him to leave. I'm hurt. I've never imagined he could tell me that. I never imagined he could say

by the doorway. Nick was shocked too. We didn't notice the door opening. We didn't notice that someone

did... You two..." Tracy seemed surprised like

humorlessly but I know she couldn't believe

thought you trust me?! Why didn't you

"I'm sorry." I say.

it. I told you to stay away from Nick cos he'll only hurt you.

I closed my eyes.

that Savannah."

to court her Nick?" She asked

"No." Nick answers.

Still no hesitation on his

I sigh.

You're just the same as Aries. You use

tears are escaping from my eyes like

Nick eagerly. "You're just fucking her? Just

This is all he could give

now after all those times we were together. God Nick are you really going to keep on treating Savannah

It's okay."

now. I can't let him do this to you! You're an innocent girl. You're too innocent for him.

her off

lip parted

and as long as he needs me cos I

as if she's asking him that he knows about how I feel and his stares seemed to answer her question. Tracy shakes her head. I feel so low of myself. I tell

that he's using you for his own pleasure. You should be stopping this. You shouldn't agree to this kind of

shake my head and cried cos it's

day will come when he'll get tired of you, what's

sigh. "I don't know."

I ruined

known better Nick. She's only eighteen and you're twenty four years

I fuck Savannah as much as I want to, it's our choice. She's letting me do it anyways. I didn't even stop you from getting into a relationship with Clyde and you know I don't like him for you but you still said yes to him. So don't get

I don't want to

sex life, Tracy. It's Savannah's sex life. It's not yours. It's ours! We can do what

her Nick. You will give her false hope and women will always fall first as you see now. You will

I'm sobbing.

I'm crying.