Love Aint Always Pretty

Lítost

- regret and remorse and repentance; a state of agony and torment; or sorrow said to be "created by the sudden sight of one's own misery"

Origin: Czech

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I just glued my eyes at his name while it was appearing on my screen. I didn't answer his call. I couldn't answer his call. I don't want to answer his call then it went off. My heart feels heavy.

Why on earth is he still calling? Will he want to ask about what he saw? Will he ask about my kiss with Aries? Why would he act like he care when he knows he shouldn't act this way?

My phone rings again.

Nick calling...

I answer it.

He exhales. "Where did you go?"

I walked out of the elevator and walked to my dorm. I entered the room and I still didn't answer Nick. He's waiting for my answer too. Tracy wasn't around, I'm sure she's with Clyde. I leaned my back against the door and I feel my heart beating faster.

"Where in hell did you go with Aries, Savannah?" He asked again. He sounds mad at me.

I exhale. "Why do you act like you're concerned about where I went to with Aries? I can go anywhere with any guy I want Nick. I don't need your permission."

I hang up.

My phone rings again.

Damn it Nick!

Nick calling...

I rejected his call but then my phone rings once again just in a split second.

Nick calling...

I answered it. "What do you want from me? I need to sleep Nick!"

"Open your goddamn door Savannah."

My brows creasing.

"Open your fucking door!" He demands while there was a slam on my door that made me flinch.

I exhale. He's outside.

I turned to face the door and took a deep breath in before I opened it. He's here. He's really right outside my room. I hang up on him and he barged his way inside.

"Didn't you leave already?" I asked as my eyebrow arching.

"I came back. I need to talk to you about what I saw." He says.

I looked away. He really saw it. He really saw me kissing Aries. Good. He saw it. I wanted Nick to see it too, cos it'll make me realize if he actually cared or not. If it actually make him jealous or not.

"Where did you go with him?" He asks. Sounded as if he's demanding an answer from me.

My head moves back to Nick and he's looking at me angrily as if I did something really unforgivable. His eyes are piercing into me and he's actually mad. I know he is. It wasn't the same face he had when he saw me with Dustin. His brows are furrowing and his jaw is clenched.

"Answer me." He says.

"I don't have to explain anything to you. You don't have the right to know where I went to with Aries." I defended myself.

say I can also fuck any woman I want cos you're

Fuck a lot of women as much as you want to. I won't tell you

cos I only want you."

melting. Don't give in Savannah.

admit to yourself that you're fucking jealous?! You get freaking jealous when I'm with another man. You're jealous when you see me with someone else. You get jealous but you don't admit it to yourself!" I yelled at

cos you kissed Aries! Now where did you go?!" His

have the right to know Nick. You

He laughs humorlessly.

you go fuck?" He

My eyes widened.

he fuck you good? Was he better when he ate you?

My tears are brimming out from my eyes and

You think I could go around sleep with other

and now they look soft. He licks his lips

a relationship and we may not have a label, but Nick I've never had

say it's too much but right now

but I pull myself away from him. "Don't

came out. I'm sorry. I didn't mean that.

say as I

"Savannah please."

out!" I yelled

him to leave. I'm hurt. I've never imagined he could tell me that. I never imagined he could say that to me

was shocked too. We didn't notice the door opening. We didn't notice that someone came in. She looked at us confused and troubled. I wonder

long did... You two..." Tracy

she couldn't believe the

thought you trust

"I'm sorry." I say.

to stay away from Nick cos he'll only hurt you. But you

I closed my eyes.

that Savannah." Nick

at least going to

"No." Nick answers.

quickly. Still no

I sigh.

as Aries. You use

are escaping from my eyes like a

"You're just fucking her?

This is all he could give

you lied to me. I felt so stupid now after all those times we were together. God Nick are you really going to keep

It's

my brother. You're my roommate. You're a close friend now. I can't let him do this to you! You're an innocent girl. You're too innocent for him. It's like he's treating you garbage

her off and

parted

to and as long as

to answer her question. Tracy shakes her head. I feel so low of

be mad that he's using you for his own pleasure. You should be stopping this. You shouldn't agree to this kind of thing you have with Nick.

shake my head and cried cos

will come when he'll get tired of you,

"I don't know." I

I ruined

should've known better Nick. She's only eighteen and you're twenty four

want to, it's our choice. She's letting me do it anyways. I didn't even stop you from getting into a relationship with Clyde and you know I don't like him for you but you still said yes to him. So don't get involve with our shit. It's not

don't want them to fight because of me. I don't want to hear those words coming from their mouths. I feel so embarrassed cos it's because

Tracy. It's Savannah's sex life. It's not yours. It's ours! We can do what we want

will hurt her Nick. You will give her false hope and women will always fall first as you see now. You will not

I'm sobbing.

I'm crying.