Love Aint Always Pretty

Lítost

- regret and remorse and repentance; a state of agony and torment; or sorrow said to be "created by the sudden sight of one's own misery"

Origin: Czech

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I just glued my eyes at his name while it was appearing on my screen. I didn't answer his call. I couldn't answer his call. I don't want to answer his call then it went off. My heart feels heavy.

Why on earth is he still calling? Will he want to ask about what he saw? Will he ask about my kiss with Aries? Why would he act like he care when he knows he shouldn't act this way?

My phone rings again.

Nick calling...

I answer it.

He exhales. "Where did you go?"

I walked out of the elevator and walked to my dorm. I entered the room and I still didn't answer Nick. He's waiting for my answer too. Tracy wasn't around, I'm sure she's with Clyde. I leaned my back against the door and I feel my heart beating faster.

"Where in hell did you go with Aries, Savannah?" He asked again. He sounds mad at me.

I exhale. "Why do you act like you're concerned about where I went to with Aries? I can go anywhere with any guy I want Nick. I don't need your permission."

I hang up.

My phone rings again.

Damn it Nick!

Nick calling...

I rejected his call but then my phone rings once again just in a split second.

Nick calling...

I answered it. "What do you want from me? I need to sleep Nick!"

"Open your goddamn door Savannah."

My brows creasing.

"Open your fucking door!" He demands while there was a slam on my door that made me flinch.

I exhale. He's outside.

I turned to face the door and took a deep breath in before I opened it. He's here. He's really right outside my room. I hang up on him and he barged his way inside.

"Didn't you leave already?" I asked as my eyebrow arching.

"I came back. I need to talk to you about what I saw." He says.

I looked away. He really saw it. He really saw me kissing Aries. Good. He saw it. I wanted Nick to see it too, cos it'll make me realize if he actually cared or not. If it actually make him jealous or not.

"Where did you go with him?" He asks. Sounded as if he's demanding an answer from me.

My head moves back to Nick and he's looking at me angrily as if I did something really unforgivable. His eyes are piercing into me and he's actually mad. I know he is. It wasn't the same face he had when he saw me with Dustin. His brows are furrowing and his jaw is clenched.

"Answer me." He says.

"I don't have to explain anything to you. You don't have the right to know where I went to with Aries." I defended myself.

also fuck any woman I want cos

a lot of women as much as you want to. I

do that cos I only want you."

heart is melting. Don't give in Savannah. You're stronger

jealous?! You get freaking jealous when I'm with another man. You're jealous when you

you kissed Aries! Now where did you go?!"

to know Nick. You and I are not in a commitment." I

He laughs humorlessly.

fuck?"

My eyes widened.

he ate you? Was he bigger

slapped Nick. I slapped him hard. My tears are brimming out from my

fucking think I'm that kind of woman?! You think I could go around sleep

eyes looked angry a while ago and now they look soft. He licks his lips and looks confused as hell. I think he just realized what

I've never had

it's too much already. I always say it's too much but right now

from him. "Don't

sorry. It just came out. I'm sorry. I didn't mean

I say as I

"Savannah please."

out!" I yelled

him to leave. I'm hurt. I've never imagined he could tell me

door and my jaw dropped when I saw Tracy standing by the doorway. Nick was shocked too. We didn't notice the door opening. We didn't notice that someone came in. She looked at us

You two..." Tracy seemed surprised like

know she couldn't believe the

Behind me?! Savannah I thought you trust me?! Why didn't you even tell me anything about this?!" Tracy's voice raising

"I'm sorry." I say.

it. I told you to stay away from Nick cos he'll only hurt you. But you didn't listen. Now how long has this thing been going on?"

I closed my eyes.

answer that Savannah." Nick

you at least going to court

"No." Nick answers.

quickly. Still no hesitation

I sigh.

Nick. You're just the same as Aries. You use

escaping from

"You're just fucking her? Just like

This is all he could

Nick are

It's

He's my brother. You're my roommate. You're a close friend now. I can't let him do this to you! You're an innocent girl. You're too innocent for him. It's like he's treating you

her off and my tears are still falling

lip parted in

as he wants to and as long as he needs me cos I love him."

his stares seemed to answer her question. Tracy shakes her head. I feel so low

own pleasure. You should be stopping this. You shouldn't agree to this kind of thing you

and cried cos it's

get tired of you, what's next?"

don't know."

ruined her

She's only eighteen and

fuck Savannah as much as I want to, it's our choice. She's letting me do it anyways. I didn't even stop you from getting into a relationship with Clyde and you know I don't like him for you but you still said yes to him. So don't get involve with our shit. It's not your goddamn business. " Nick

face with my hands. I'm so embarrassed. I don't want them to fight because of me. I don't want to hear those words coming from their mouths. I

life, Tracy. It's Savannah's sex life. It's not yours. It's ours! We

false hope and women will always fall first

I'm sobbing.

I'm crying.