Love Aint Always Pretty

Lítost

- regret and remorse and repentance; a state of agony and torment; or sorrow said to be "created by the sudden sight of one's own misery"

Origin: Czech

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I just glued my eyes at his name while it was appearing on my screen. I didn't answer his call. I couldn't answer his call. I don't want to answer his call then it went off. My heart feels heavy.

Why on earth is he still calling? Will he want to ask about what he saw? Will he ask about my kiss with Aries? Why would he act like he care when he knows he shouldn't act this way?

My phone rings again.

Nick calling...

I answer it.

He exhales. "Where did you go?"

I walked out of the elevator and walked to my dorm. I entered the room and I still didn't answer Nick. He's waiting for my answer too. Tracy wasn't around, I'm sure she's with Clyde. I leaned my back against the door and I feel my heart beating faster.

"Where in hell did you go with Aries, Savannah?" He asked again. He sounds mad at me.

I exhale. "Why do you act like you're concerned about where I went to with Aries? I can go anywhere with any guy I want Nick. I don't need your permission."

I hang up.

My phone rings again.

Damn it Nick!

Nick calling...

I rejected his call but then my phone rings once again just in a split second.

Nick calling...

I answered it. "What do you want from me? I need to sleep Nick!"

"Open your goddamn door Savannah."

My brows creasing.

"Open your fucking door!" He demands while there was a slam on my door that made me flinch.

I exhale. He's outside.

I turned to face the door and took a deep breath in before I opened it. He's here. He's really right outside my room. I hang up on him and he barged his way inside.

"Didn't you leave already?" I asked as my eyebrow arching.

"I came back. I need to talk to you about what I saw." He says.

I looked away. He really saw it. He really saw me kissing Aries. Good. He saw it. I wanted Nick to see it too, cos it'll make me realize if he actually cared or not. If it actually make him jealous or not.

"Where did you go with him?" He asks. Sounded as if he's demanding an answer from me.

My head moves back to Nick and he's looking at me angrily as if I did something really unforgivable. His eyes are piercing into me and he's actually mad. I know he is. It wasn't the same face he had when he saw me with Dustin. His brows are furrowing and his jaw is clenched.

"Answer me." He says.

"I don't have to explain anything to you. You don't have the right to know where I went to with Aries." I defended myself.

to say I can also fuck any woman I

crossed my arms together against my breasts. "Go. Be free. Fuck a lot of women

I can't do that cos I only want you." He

give

man. You're jealous when you

am! Maybe I am jealous cos you kissed

the right to know Nick. You

He laughs humorlessly.

you go fuck?"

My eyes widened.

he fuck you good? Was he better when he ate you? Was he bigger than

brimming

woman?! You think I could go

ago and now they look soft. He licks his lips and looks confused as hell. I think he just

together, we may not be in a relationship and we may not have a label, but Nick I've never had sex

always say it's

from him. "Don't you dare think about touching me." I

came out. I'm sorry. I

out." I say as I

"Savannah please."

the fuck out!" I yelled

were hearing us fight but I wanted him to leave. I'm hurt. I've never imagined he could tell me that. I never imagined he could say that to me so straight into my face. I

door and my jaw dropped when I saw Tracy standing by the doorway. Nick was shocked too. We didn't notice the door opening. We didn't notice that someone came

two..." Tracy seemed surprised

but I know she couldn't believe the

Behind me?! Savannah I thought you trust me?! Why didn't you even tell me anything about this?!"

"I'm sorry." I say.

hurt you. But you didn't listen. Now how long has this thing been going on?"

I closed my eyes.

answer that Savannah."

to court her

"No." Nick answers.

quickly. Still no hesitation

I sigh.

the same as Aries. You use women. I

tears are escaping from my eyes

just fucking her?

Tracy. Yes. This is all he could

lied to me. I felt so stupid now after all those times we were together. God Nick are you really going to keep on treating Savannah this cheap? She deserves more

It's okay." I

yourself? He's my brother. You're my roommate. You're a close friend now. I can't let him do this to you! You're an innocent girl.

cut her off and

parted

and as long as he needs me cos I

stares seemed to answer her question. Tracy shakes her head. I feel so low of myself.

doing this to yourself? You should be mad that he's using you for his own pleasure. You should be stopping this. You shouldn't

my head and cried cos it's

when he'll get

don't know."

know I ruined

will. You should've known better Nick. She's only eighteen and you're twenty four years

me do it anyways. I didn't even stop you from getting into

to fight because of me. I don't want to hear those words coming from their mouths. I feel so embarrassed

Savannah's sex life. It's not yours. It's ours! We can do what we want cos

hurt her Nick. You will give her false hope and women will always fall first as you see now. You will

I'm sobbing.

I'm crying.