Love Aint Always Pretty

Lítost

- regret and remorse and repentance; a state of agony and torment; or sorrow said to be "created by the sudden sight of one's own misery"

Origin: Czech

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I just glued my eyes at his name while it was appearing on my screen. I didn't answer his call. I couldn't answer his call. I don't want to answer his call then it went off. My heart feels heavy.

Why on earth is he still calling? Will he want to ask about what he saw? Will he ask about my kiss with Aries? Why would he act like he care when he knows he shouldn't act this way?

My phone rings again.

Nick calling...

I answer it.

He exhales. "Where did you go?"

I walked out of the elevator and walked to my dorm. I entered the room and I still didn't answer Nick. He's waiting for my answer too. Tracy wasn't around, I'm sure she's with Clyde. I leaned my back against the door and I feel my heart beating faster.

"Where in hell did you go with Aries, Savannah?" He asked again. He sounds mad at me.

I exhale. "Why do you act like you're concerned about where I went to with Aries? I can go anywhere with any guy I want Nick. I don't need your permission."

I hang up.

My phone rings again.

Damn it Nick!

Nick calling...

I rejected his call but then my phone rings once again just in a split second.

Nick calling...

I answered it. "What do you want from me? I need to sleep Nick!"

"Open your goddamn door Savannah."

My brows creasing.

"Open your fucking door!" He demands while there was a slam on my door that made me flinch.

I exhale. He's outside.

I turned to face the door and took a deep breath in before I opened it. He's here. He's really right outside my room. I hang up on him and he barged his way inside.

"Didn't you leave already?" I asked as my eyebrow arching.

"I came back. I need to talk to you about what I saw." He says.

I looked away. He really saw it. He really saw me kissing Aries. Good. He saw it. I wanted Nick to see it too, cos it'll make me realize if he actually cared or not. If it actually make him jealous or not.

"Where did you go with him?" He asks. Sounded as if he's demanding an answer from me.

My head moves back to Nick and he's looking at me angrily as if I did something really unforgivable. His eyes are piercing into me and he's actually mad. I know he is. It wasn't the same face he had when he saw me with Dustin. His brows are furrowing and his jaw is clenched.

"Answer me." He says.

"I don't have to explain anything to you. You don't have the right to know where I went to with Aries." I defended myself.

So you mean to say I can also fuck any woman I want cos

"Go. Be free. Fuck a lot of women as

do that cos

Don't give in Savannah. You're stronger

You get freaking jealous when I'm with another man. You're jealous when you see me with someone else. You get

I am jealous cos you kissed

right to know Nick. You and

He laughs humorlessly.

fuck?" He

My eyes widened.

you? Was he bigger than I am? Did

hard. My tears are brimming out from my eyes and it falls down on my cheeks. His face

fucking think I'm that kind of woman?! You think I could go

ago and now they look soft. He licks his

but Nick I've never had

already. I always say it's too much but right now it is ready

me but I pull myself away from him. "Don't you dare think about

I'm sorry. I didn't

out." I say

"Savannah please."

fuck out!"

I've never imagined he could tell me that. I never imagined he

notice the door opening. We didn't notice that someone came in. She looked at

You two..."

laughs humorlessly but I know she couldn't believe

Behind me?! Savannah I thought you trust me?! Why didn't you even tell me anything about this?!" Tracy's

"I'm sorry." I say.

it. I told you to stay away from Nick cos he'll only hurt you. But you didn't listen. Now how long has this thing

I closed my eyes.

answer that Savannah."

going to court her Nick?" She asked

"No." Nick answers.

quickly. Still no hesitation

I sigh.

You use women.

are escaping from my eyes

"You're just fucking her? Just like

Tracy. Yes. This is all he could give

me. I felt so stupid now after all those times we were together. God Nick are you really going to keep on treating

It's

He's my brother. You're my roommate. You're a close friend now. I can't let him do

cut her off

parted in

wants to and as long

feel and his stares seemed to answer her question. Tracy shakes her head. I feel so low of myself. I tell myself I don't deserve this but I love Nick. I'm still too in love

you for his own pleasure. You should be stopping this. You shouldn't agree

shake my head and

when he'll get tired of you, what's next?"

sigh. "I don't know." I

I ruined

known better Nick. She's only eighteen and you're

anyways. I didn't even stop you from getting into a relationship with Clyde and you know I don't like him for you but you still

face with my hands. I'm so embarrassed. I don't want them to fight because of me. I don't

Tracy. It's Savannah's sex life. It's not yours. It's ours! We can do what

You will give her false hope and women will always fall first as you see now. You will not only ruin her

I'm sobbing.

I'm crying.