Love Aint Always Pretty

Lítost

- regret and remorse and repentance; a state of agony and torment; or sorrow said to be "created by the sudden sight of one's own misery"

Origin: Czech

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I just glued my eyes at his name while it was appearing on my screen. I didn't answer his call. I couldn't answer his call. I don't want to answer his call then it went off. My heart feels heavy.

Why on earth is he still calling? Will he want to ask about what he saw? Will he ask about my kiss with Aries? Why would he act like he care when he knows he shouldn't act this way?

My phone rings again.

Nick calling...

I answer it.

He exhales. "Where did you go?"

I walked out of the elevator and walked to my dorm. I entered the room and I still didn't answer Nick. He's waiting for my answer too. Tracy wasn't around, I'm sure she's with Clyde. I leaned my back against the door and I feel my heart beating faster.

"Where in hell did you go with Aries, Savannah?" He asked again. He sounds mad at me.

I exhale. "Why do you act like you're concerned about where I went to with Aries? I can go anywhere with any guy I want Nick. I don't need your permission."

I hang up.

My phone rings again.

Damn it Nick!

Nick calling...

I rejected his call but then my phone rings once again just in a split second.

Nick calling...

I answered it. "What do you want from me? I need to sleep Nick!"

"Open your goddamn door Savannah."

My brows creasing.

"Open your fucking door!" He demands while there was a slam on my door that made me flinch.

I exhale. He's outside.

I turned to face the door and took a deep breath in before I opened it. He's here. He's really right outside my room. I hang up on him and he barged his way inside.

"Didn't you leave already?" I asked as my eyebrow arching.

"I came back. I need to talk to you about what I saw." He says.

I looked away. He really saw it. He really saw me kissing Aries. Good. He saw it. I wanted Nick to see it too, cos it'll make me realize if he actually cared or not. If it actually make him jealous or not.

"Where did you go with him?" He asks. Sounded as if he's demanding an answer from me.

My head moves back to Nick and he's looking at me angrily as if I did something really unforgivable. His eyes are piercing into me and he's actually mad. I know he is. It wasn't the same face he had when he saw me with Dustin. His brows are furrowing and his jaw is clenched.

"Answer me." He says.

"I don't have to explain anything to you. You don't have the right to know where I went to with Aries." I defended myself.

really? So you mean to say I can also fuck any woman I want cos you're

crossed my arms together against my breasts. "Go. Be free. Fuck a lot of

can't do that cos I only

is melting. Don't give

you just admit to yourself that you're fucking jealous?! You get freaking jealous when I'm with another man. You're jealous

you kissed Aries! Now where

the right to know Nick. You and I are not

He laughs humorlessly.

fuck?" He asked

My eyes widened.

you good? Was he better when he ate you? Was he bigger than I am? Did he

hard. My tears are brimming out from my eyes and it falls down on my cheeks. His face looking over to

that kind of woman?! You think I could go around

a while ago and now they look soft. He licks

label, but Nick I've never had sex with another man aside from you! How can you think of me that

He's hurting me and it's too much already. I always say it's too much but right now it is ready too much that I can't seem to handle

for me but I pull myself away from him. "Don't you dare think about touching

out. I'm sorry. I didn't mean

say as I looked

"Savannah please."

fuck out!" I yelled at

but I wanted him to leave. I'm hurt. I've never imagined he could tell me that. I never imagined

saw Tracy standing by the doorway. Nick was shocked too. We didn't notice the door opening. We didn't notice that someone came in. She looked at us confused and troubled. I wonder how long she has been standing there. I wonder

You two..." Tracy seemed surprised

humorlessly but I know she couldn't believe the

I thought you trust me?! Why

"I'm sorry." I say.

it. I told you to stay away from Nick cos he'll only hurt you. But you didn't listen.

I closed my eyes.

that Savannah."

going to court her Nick?" She asked

"No." Nick answers.

quickly. Still no

I sigh.

unbelievable Nick. You're just the same as Aries. You use women. I never thought you could do

from my eyes like a

Nick eagerly. "You're just

Yes. This is all he could

me. I felt so stupid now after all those times we were together. God Nick are you really going to keep on treating Savannah this cheap? She deserves more than just to be your fuck girl!" Tracy raises her

please. It's okay." I

He's my brother. You're my roommate. You're a close friend now. I can't let him do this to you! You're an innocent girl. You're too innocent for him. It's like he's

I cut her off and my tears are still falling and

parted

to and as long as he needs me cos I love

that he knows about how I feel and his stares seemed to answer her question. Tracy shakes her head. I feel so low of

this to yourself? You should be mad that he's using you for his own pleasure. You should be

head and cried cos

get tired of you,

sigh. "I don't know."

I ruined

should've known better Nick. She's only eighteen and you're

I didn't even stop you from getting into a relationship with Clyde

don't want them to fight because of me. I don't want to hear those words coming from their mouths. I feel so

It's not yours. It's ours! We can

hope and women will always fall first as you see now. You

I'm sobbing.

I'm crying.