Love Aint Always Pretty

Lítost

- regret and remorse and repentance; a state of agony and torment; or sorrow said to be "created by the sudden sight of one's own misery"

Origin: Czech

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I just glued my eyes at his name while it was appearing on my screen. I didn't answer his call. I couldn't answer his call. I don't want to answer his call then it went off. My heart feels heavy.

Why on earth is he still calling? Will he want to ask about what he saw? Will he ask about my kiss with Aries? Why would he act like he care when he knows he shouldn't act this way?

My phone rings again.

Nick calling...

I answer it.

He exhales. "Where did you go?"

I walked out of the elevator and walked to my dorm. I entered the room and I still didn't answer Nick. He's waiting for my answer too. Tracy wasn't around, I'm sure she's with Clyde. I leaned my back against the door and I feel my heart beating faster.

"Where in hell did you go with Aries, Savannah?" He asked again. He sounds mad at me.

I exhale. "Why do you act like you're concerned about where I went to with Aries? I can go anywhere with any guy I want Nick. I don't need your permission."

I hang up.

My phone rings again.

Damn it Nick!

Nick calling...

I rejected his call but then my phone rings once again just in a split second.

Nick calling...

I answered it. "What do you want from me? I need to sleep Nick!"

"Open your goddamn door Savannah."

My brows creasing.

"Open your fucking door!" He demands while there was a slam on my door that made me flinch.

I exhale. He's outside.

I turned to face the door and took a deep breath in before I opened it. He's here. He's really right outside my room. I hang up on him and he barged his way inside.

"Didn't you leave already?" I asked as my eyebrow arching.

"I came back. I need to talk to you about what I saw." He says.

I looked away. He really saw it. He really saw me kissing Aries. Good. He saw it. I wanted Nick to see it too, cos it'll make me realize if he actually cared or not. If it actually make him jealous or not.

"Where did you go with him?" He asks. Sounded as if he's demanding an answer from me.

My head moves back to Nick and he's looking at me angrily as if I did something really unforgivable. His eyes are piercing into me and he's actually mad. I know he is. It wasn't the same face he had when he saw me with Dustin. His brows are furrowing and his jaw is clenched.

"Answer me." He says.

"I don't have to explain anything to you. You don't have the right to know where I went to with Aries." I defended myself.

So you mean to say I can also fuck any woman

crossed my arms together against my breasts. "Go. Be free. Fuck a lot of women as much

do that cos

Don't give

jealous when I'm with another man. You're jealous when you see me with someone else. You get jealous but you don't admit

maybe I am! Maybe I am jealous cos you kissed Aries! Now where

You and I are not

He laughs humorlessly.

fuck?" He

My eyes widened.

he better when he ate you? Was he

his cheek. I slapped Nick. I slapped him hard. My tears are brimming out from my eyes and it falls down on my cheeks. His face looking over to another direction and his

woman?! You think I

they look soft. He licks his lips and looks confused as hell. I think he just

be together, we may not be in a relationship and we may not have a label, but Nick I've never had sex with another man aside from you! How can

and it's too much already. I always say it's too much but right now it is ready too much that I can't seem to handle

from him. "Don't you dare think

out. I'm sorry. I didn't mean

I say as

"Savannah please."

fuck out!" I yelled at

me that. I never imagined he could say that to me so straight into my face. I

too. We didn't notice the door opening. We didn't notice that someone came in. She looked at us confused and troubled. I

You two..." Tracy seemed surprised like

she couldn't believe the things she

Savannah I thought you trust me?!

"I'm sorry." I say.

only hurt you. But you didn't listen. Now how long has this thing been

I closed my eyes.

answer that Savannah."

you at least going to court her Nick?" She asked

"No." Nick answers.

He answered so quickly. Still no hesitation on his

I sigh.

just the same as Aries. You use

escaping from my eyes like

"You're just

is all he

those times we were together. God Nick are you really going to keep on treating Savannah this cheap? She deserves more than

please. It's

friend now. I can't let him do this to you! You're an innocent girl. You're too innocent for him. It's like

love him Tracy." I cut her off and my tears

lip parted

let him use me as much as he wants to and as long as he needs me cos I love him."

answer her question. Tracy shakes her head. I feel so low of myself. I tell myself I don't deserve this

that he's using you for his own pleasure. You should be stopping this.

head and cried

that day will come when he'll get tired of you, what's next?" She asks

"I don't know." I

ruined her

should've known better Nick. She's only eighteen and you're

so mad at us? As if we did something wrong. If I fuck Savannah as much as I want to, it's our choice. She's letting me do it anyways. I didn't even stop you from

I don't want to hear those words coming from their mouths. I feel so embarrassed cos

yours. It's ours! We can do

hurt her Nick. You will give her false hope and women will always fall first as you see now. You will not

I'm sobbing.

I'm crying.