Love Aint Always Pretty

Chapter 50: 50 Panimalos

Panimalos

Translation: revenge

Origin: Cebuano

50

"Trace?" I called out to her.

She sits on her bed as she looks back at me. Tracy was busy putting on her ankle boots, getting ready for another night out.

"You haven't talked to me for three days now since that night. I'm really sorry." I say.

She exhales. "I'm not mad at you Savannah. I'm mad at Nick."

I walked to Tracy and sat down right next to her. "You still haven't talked to him?"

"I did. The other day. I'm hurting for you too. When you told me you loved my brother, I just wanted to hold you cos he will only hurt you Savannah. He could never be giving you back that kind of love you feel for him." Tracy tells me.

I sigh.

"But I know that no matter how I tell you to stop with whatever you have with him, you won't listen to me." She added.

I smiled at her ruefully.

"Do you really love him?" She asks.

"Yeah." I answered softly.

Tracy hugs me tight right away as if she knows my pain. As if she had felt this kind of pain before. She rubs my back slowly and I wrapped my arms around her. Tracy was like an older sister to me and she treats me well.

"I love him so much Tracy... that I would do anything for him. I'll sacrifice everything for him even though it already hurts. I'll try to deal with the pain. I'll try to be strong for myself." I cried on her shoulder.

"Oh Savannah. I just couldn't stand seeing you getting hurt over Nick. I told you he's not capable of loving someone new anymore. The best advice I could give you is to give up what you feel for Nick. I'm sorry for being so blunt but I'm your friend. I need to tell it straight to your face that what you have with him will lead to nowhere. Why'd you even allow yourself to get involve?" She asks.

"I thought I could handle it. But it's gotten out of control. And right now I.." I answered.

I sigh heavily.

"I just need him. He makes me feel special." I said weakly.

She pulled herself away from me and wiped my tears. "Come with me. I'm going out and you need to party. At least have fun just for one night."

"Where?"

"The frat house."

I shake my head. "After that night, I haven't talked to Nick. I don't think I'm ready to face him."

"Don't worry. Nick isn't around today. He said he left for the weekend."

My brows creasing. "Where he went to?"

"I don't know. He didn't say."

I exhale. Here I go again, looking for him when he's not around. Here I go again, wondering where he might could've been by now. And here I go again, thinking that he's with Catherine by now, spending his weekend with her.

"So he's not gonna be there?" I asked.

She nods.

"Why are you avoiding Nick?" She asked.

"I don't know. I just feel the need to avoid him cos I thought you were so mad at me." I say.

Tracy smiled. "I'm not. I really wanna help you with Nick cos--"

"Don't. I know he's not gonna fall for me. I couldn't compete with Catherine and for the past eight years she's all he thinks about. I couldn't change that." I say.

She pushes my hair behind my ear.

"When are you gonna stop?" She asks.

"Once I've had enough." I say.

Tracy stands and pulls me up. "Let's stop being so melodramatic and head to the party. Shall we?"

I smile.

the stereo. My mind is still thinking about where Nick could be. We haven't had a formal conversation after we fought that night and I haven't seen him

hear

smiled at him. "Hey

look huh?" He

I need to party.

a massive drinker

I know it was a Margarita cos it was what I drank when

know what, let's take it easy. The

"God I needed

we

I nod.

my waist while I was grinding on him. I don't care who was watching. I don't care who will catch us. I don't care if his millions of admirers will get mad at me. I need

people around me that is close to Nick tells me to give him up. I know for myself I should give him up. I just don't know when and how to give him up.

for how long am I gonna

Aries. I'm enjoying. I'm having fun. I'm forgetting a little bit. Though Nick sometimes crosses my mind. The margarita is getting into my system. I'm feeling a little

wild

a side of me nobody

my cheek. "I love it

the couch where we'd usually sit and everyone was

at

of us headed to where everyone was. I say down right next to Tracy while Aries

going to play

truth or dare." Penny

playing?"

told him to

"Okay. I'm

calls out everyone's attention who'd still want to

drink and I accepted it then took a quick drink

"I'll play."

Holy shit no.

joining us on the couch. Tracy and I stared at each other eagerly in synch. He was sitting down right across me.

whisper to Tracy who

no idea why he's here.

you

Nick didn't answer her.

start the game shall we?" Romeo asked

"How about...." Penny trails.

moved

play I Never." She

that game?

played that game. It's gonna

don't play with them." Tracy

Savannah already joined." Penny arched her

stares at everyone on the couches and they all seemed to agree to

playing." Nick

on it's gonna be fun. Don't

play."

do you play it?" I stared at Nick for

her head

Romeo calls out my

who's giving me a death stare now for entering

done before, and if any other person in the circle has done it, they take off a layer of clothing. If you refuse to take off a clothing, you'll kiss someone

gulped. This is childish

of a

to join and Nick was giving me

pussy Jamie

at her. "I'm not.

then."

drink from my cup. I'm nervous as fuck. I've

rotation goes this way. Alright?"

Everyone cheers and agrees.

never fucked in a community shower before."

laughing and teasing Romeo like it was some kind of

Shit.

off my blazer and Nick started taking off his black leather jacket. I glanced at Alec and

players said their confessions that saved me from being naked while the others were already on their way

this week." One girl

my belt alongside

licked a pussy this week." One

at the wimpy looking man while the other males started taking off another layer from their clothing. Some were already shirtless and were left with their boxers on. From the corner of my eye, Nick is starting to pull off his shirt from his head and all

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