Love Aint Always Pretty

Chapter 50: 50 Panimalos

Panimalos

Translation: revenge

Origin: Cebuano

50

"Trace?" I called out to her.

She sits on her bed as she looks back at me. Tracy was busy putting on her ankle boots, getting ready for another night out.

"You haven't talked to me for three days now since that night. I'm really sorry." I say.

She exhales. "I'm not mad at you Savannah. I'm mad at Nick."

I walked to Tracy and sat down right next to her. "You still haven't talked to him?"

"I did. The other day. I'm hurting for you too. When you told me you loved my brother, I just wanted to hold you cos he will only hurt you Savannah. He could never be giving you back that kind of love you feel for him." Tracy tells me.

I sigh.

"But I know that no matter how I tell you to stop with whatever you have with him, you won't listen to me." She added.

I smiled at her ruefully.

"Do you really love him?" She asks.

"Yeah." I answered softly.

Tracy hugs me tight right away as if she knows my pain. As if she had felt this kind of pain before. She rubs my back slowly and I wrapped my arms around her. Tracy was like an older sister to me and she treats me well.

"I love him so much Tracy... that I would do anything for him. I'll sacrifice everything for him even though it already hurts. I'll try to deal with the pain. I'll try to be strong for myself." I cried on her shoulder.

"Oh Savannah. I just couldn't stand seeing you getting hurt over Nick. I told you he's not capable of loving someone new anymore. The best advice I could give you is to give up what you feel for Nick. I'm sorry for being so blunt but I'm your friend. I need to tell it straight to your face that what you have with him will lead to nowhere. Why'd you even allow yourself to get involve?" She asks.

"I thought I could handle it. But it's gotten out of control. And right now I.." I answered.

I sigh heavily.

"I just need him. He makes me feel special." I said weakly.

She pulled herself away from me and wiped my tears. "Come with me. I'm going out and you need to party. At least have fun just for one night."

"Where?"

"The frat house."

I shake my head. "After that night, I haven't talked to Nick. I don't think I'm ready to face him."

"Don't worry. Nick isn't around today. He said he left for the weekend."

My brows creasing. "Where he went to?"

"I don't know. He didn't say."

I exhale. Here I go again, looking for him when he's not around. Here I go again, wondering where he might could've been by now. And here I go again, thinking that he's with Catherine by now, spending his weekend with her.

"So he's not gonna be there?" I asked.

She nods.

"Why are you avoiding Nick?" She asked.

"I don't know. I just feel the need to avoid him cos I thought you were so mad at me." I say.

Tracy smiled. "I'm not. I really wanna help you with Nick cos--"

"Don't. I know he's not gonna fall for me. I couldn't compete with Catherine and for the past eight years she's all he thinks about. I couldn't change that." I say.

She pushes my hair behind my ear.

"When are you gonna stop?" She asks.

"Once I've had enough." I say.

Tracy stands and pulls me up. "Let's stop being so melodramatic and head to the party. Shall we?"

I smile.

Romeo's car. I was just quiet while the others were singing to this Drake song on the stereo. My mind is still thinking about where Nick could be. We haven't had a formal conversation after we fought that night and I haven't

I hear

at

huh?" He

I'm just tired. I need to party. I need to

a massive

it all. I know it was a Margarita cos it was what I drank when Nick snatched it from my hand

you take margaritas now too. You know what, let's take it

coughed. "God I needed

about we dance?" He

I nod.

this wicked beat being played by the DJ. The streaks of red and blue were hitting on our faces. I feel Aries' hand holding onto my waist while I was grinding on him. I don't care who was watching. I don't care who will

people around me that is close to Nick tells me to give him up. I know for myself I should give him up. I just don't know when and how to give him up. I don't know how to let

pain but for how long am

having fun. I'm forgetting a little bit. Though Nick sometimes crosses my mind. The margarita is getting into my system. I'm feeling a little bit free and wild. I sprawled my arms

so wild tonight."

side

cheek. "I love it

at the couch where we'd usually sit and everyone was getting ready

gazed at

I say down right next to Tracy while Aries was sitting down

to play as

dare." Penny says to

playing?" I asked

Nick told

"Okay. I'm

everyone's attention who'd still want to join

and I accepted it then took a

"I'll play."

Holy shit no.

and I stared at

here?" I whisper to Tracy

know. I have no idea why he's here. He said he's

you weren't around today." Penny

Nick didn't answer her.

game shall

"How about...." Penny trails.

moved

I Never." She

game? I asked

haven't played that game. It's gonna be so

don't play with them."

Savannah

couches and they all

not playing." Nick

Nick come on it's gonna be fun. Don't be a party

exhale. "I'm gonna play." I

play it?" I stared

her

Romeo calls out my attention so I

who's giving me a death stare now for entering the

never ever done before, and if any other person in the circle has done it, they take off a layer of clothing. If you refuse to take off a

This is childish

little bit of a mixture of spin

Tracy told me not to join and

pussy Jamie Sullivan."

stared at her. "I'm not.

then." Nick

I'm nervous as fuck. I've never tried this game. I've never

goes this way. Alright?" Romeo says as he motions

Everyone cheers and agrees.

never fucked in a community shower before." Romeo says as

it was some kind of ritual needed

Shit.

off my blazer and Nick started taking off his black leather jacket. I glanced at Alec and he was smiling at himself. Aries took off something from

consecutive players said their confessions that saved me from being naked while the others were

this week."

my belt alongside with the

never licked a pussy this week." One

Nick is starting to pull off his shirt from his head and all the other females were squealing. Ugh, I know he's hot. Stop drooling over what's mine. I stared at Penny, who

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