Love Aint Always Pretty

Abditory

- a place in which you can disappear: a hiding place

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Another semester comes in a new university I am in. I don't know how to adjust to the people in this institution but since I need to get away from WSU to forget everything about Nick, I'm sure NYU is a great place. I haven't heard from Nick since then and I just hate him to the bones but I still end up missing him so bad. No matter how hard I say that I don't want to see him anymore, I always end up crying about him at night.

Im so mad at him too cos of what my dad told me. He said he offered Nick money before to stay away from me, dad admitted it to me before I could find out about it from another person and I'm so sure Nick said no to it. But to my surprise, he said Nick accepted the money. He said Nick agreed to it and he knows that Nick is avoiding me. I'm so mad at Nick but I still love him after all he did and I hate myself for loving him.

Dad bought me my own apartment here in New York which was just close by NYU and I told him I wanted to live alone and not in a dormitory cos I have learned my lesson. My own apartment was amazing and I'm happy my parents allowed me to live alone on my own. I tried my hardest persuading them that I can do it on my own now. And since I passed my license a month ago, he bought me a car too, it was a white Volvo XC90.

Since my own father had connections in this institution and other huge publishing companies, he said I could have my internship later this semester then I'll be off taking a few classes while I'm having my internship. That will be amazing cos I'll graduate as soon as possible if I pass my classes. My mom and dad believes in me so much. Dad always had laid out plans for me and even though I hate it that he's helping me cos he's backing me up, I need to grab this opportunity cos I wanna forget about Nick like how he seemed to forget about me so easily.

I parked my car and grabbed my workbooks as I headed inside the institution. I looked over the university map that the school staff handed me before so I wold know where I need to go and I won't get lost. My mind set was all for graduating fast. I told myself I didn't want to get involve with any fraternities in here or any other men. I wanted it to be me and my studies and nobody and nothing else anymore.

"Excuse me? Perhaps you know where this room is?" I asked the female student.

"Oh yeah. That way then take a turn right then take the stairs and then first room on the left." She says.

"Thank you." I said.

I followed her instructions and I finally found me room. I entered and marched my way to the middle seat that was available. I placed my stuff down and I was sitting right next to this tall guy with a tousled brown hair with green eyes. He's a looker and he chews a gum that makes his jawline even more sharp looking. I blamed myself for sitting down next to this handsome guy cos he's one of the distractions I'm avoiding. If he only doesn't recognize that I even exist then my game plan is perfect until I finish here.

The teacher walks inside and my eyes just widened out from my sockets. I literally was shocked to see him. He stands before the entire class and he has gotten even manlier and really handsome. He was wearing a white polo that was tucked inside his black skinny jeans paired with his shiny black leather shoes. He looks at us and I'm sure he spotted me cos his eyebrows shoot up.

"Good morning everyone." He says.

He moved his eyes to me. "I'm Prof. Kingsgrove and I'm your subject teacher for this semester and it's a pleasure to see new faces."

I smiled.

I noticed that all of the other girls were giggly and smiling so happily as they stare at Prof. Kingsgrove. Now I know why most of the students in this class are women cos they know it was a handsomely hot teacher and I bet they still don't know that Kurt is super gay. I chuckled to myself as he starts talking.

When the class was done, I intentionally waited for everyone to leave the room and I ran towards Kurt right away when we were alone and I hugged him. He did the same thing too.

"I missed you so bad!!" I exclaimed.

He laughs. "I missed you too baby cakes!"

I pulled myself away and stared at his eyes. Every time I see him, I always tells myself why Kurt had to be gay. He's too good looking to be gay. "They don't know you're gay huh?"

He smiles at me. "Shhh. You're the only one who knows I'm super gay in here."

I laughed. "I missed you Kurt. And I'm so happy to see you again."

"Same here. And I thought you were in WSU? Why are you here?" He arched an eyebrow at me.

I sigh. "Oh it's a long story. My dad wanted this for me and since the offer was good and I also needed to get away from WSU cos of something that I needed to forget about. That's why I came here."

He laughs. "Is it about Channing?"

I shake my head.

"No. I'm so over him and you know that. It's about this new guy and... I don't want to talk about him."

me his name."

"Nick." I sigh.

grabs my hand. "Hmm. Wanna have lunch together baby

it's your treat this time cos last time we had dinner together I was the one who paid for it cos you left

worry. I have my wallet with me now.

and I didn't really care how people would say about what they're seeing but I know

Where we

this Nick guy. You need to talk it out

I smiled.

of us headed to the parking lot and I got into his car while all female eyes were on me. I climbed inside the passenger seat and Kurt climbs inside

lots of college women adoring you here." I

cos there are other students who pushes their breasts on me and Im like mentally saying get off of me sister. But you know, since they see me as I guy, I act like I

I'm sure

He laughs.

tell me all about this

about Nick. I told Kurt about everything and he even stopped the car cos I was telling me about what happened to me and Nick. He hugged me tight and I was just holding onto

you have a boyfriend?" I asked Kurt as we

I need to stay single cos if I get caught being with a man, my reputation in school will down grade. I'm one of the best professors

the

don't ask cos I know what you're going

I laughed.

deep and you obviously look manly enough to be gay.

this way. I don't really want to act all total gay cos you know how I was bullied

Billy will be mad about it. We continued having lunch together and just talked about how he was doing all these years. I didn't expect Kurt would become

hardest to control myself. For example, that handsome guy

green eyed

shit he has

I nod.

didn't know. That is totally hot. Anyways, as I was saying, that guy next to you a while ago in my class was Damon Dennison.

"He is

say he's straight like super straight. Straighter than a

laughed again at what he

been in a relationship. But he's not." Kurt pouts. "Which gave me

off from the craziest relationship I have

Nick baby cakes.

It's true anyways. He left

about him anymore. Guys can be really hard to read sometimes. They're there one day and then leaves you then comes back when they only miss you to make sure you're still there

New Year's Day was the last time I saw him and I don't know where in hell he is after that. He said he won't leave me. He said

you're thinking about him

him even though I hated him

to me. He quickly wrapped

•••••

the first day so I think it was a perfect night to set up and beautify my place. The apartment was a perfect one for me cos it was already fully furnished and everything I need was already here plus it

widened when he met my gaze. It was Damon. The guy sitting down next to me was my neighbor next door. He

"Hey." He speaks.

I smiled. "Hey."

class, right? I'm sure about it."

I snapped. "Kurt-- I mean Professor

to see someone I know in here. I didn't want to be alone. I'm Damon