Love Aint Always Pretty

Quatervois

- a crossroad; a critical decision or turning point in one's life.

Origin: French

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NICK'S POV

SEVEN YEARS AGO

I ran to them and tried to hold Catherine as she groans for pain. I shot her. I'm crying hard and there were more blood. So much blood. Catherine's blood stained her dress as it runs down on my hands.

"Call for help! Call for help!" I yelled at Hans.

Hans stands away and quickly pulled out his phone. I'm shaking. I'm shaking as I hold Catherine on my arms. She smiles weakly as she squints her eyes cos of the pain.

"Catherine.... I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry." I repeated the same exact words.

"Shhh... It's not your fault Nick. Don't... Arghh.. Don't blame yourself." Catherine says while grunting.

She wipes my tears. "It's not your fault love."

I shake my head in disagreement.

"I'm sorry." I cried.

"My dad won't let me tell you this... But Nick... Y-you're a father now." She holds my shaking hand then placed it on top of her bump.

"This is your baby." She says.

She smiles while tears were crawling out from her eyes. "Our baby."

My head bent down and more tears were coming out from my eyes. I hate myself. I hate myself for what I did.

"If I don't survive..." Catherine says with such shakiness in her voice.

"Don't say that." I begged.

She smiled weakly. "Please... Please save him Nick. Save our baby. Save him for me Nick." She says while crying.

"Promise me you will." She takes a grip on my hand.

I nod and kissed her forehead as I hold her close to my chest.

I shot Catherine.

I shot Catherine.

I put our baby in critical condition.

"Live for me. Live for me and our baby Catherine. I need you. I need both of you. Please live for me. For us. Please. I'm begging you please stay." I kiss her hand.

She smiles and nods. "I will."

As soon as help came, I went with Hans in the ambulance and both of us neither talked to each other. When we arrived at the hospital, I was still holding Catherine's hand while she fell unconscious. I would always kiss her hand and my tears just won't stop from falling. I'm so scared of what I have done. I don't want to lose her. I don't want to lose out baby.

"Catherine please be okay. Catherine. Catherine you promised me." I cried.

My hands were still shaking while I hold her hands close to my lips. My lips are trembling too. I kissed her knuckles as my tears were streaming down my face. My tears are just unstoppable. Catherine was unconscious now. She went unconscious during the drive. My heart is racing. Fear is gathering inside my body. I'm scared. I'm so scared of losing her. Hans was also crying but he hasn't talked to me during the entire drive to the hospital.

"Sir I'm sorry but you can't come through this door. Sir please step back." The nurse said to me as he pushed me away.

I ran my fingers through my hair and pulled my hair back. I'm so mad at myself. I shot her. I almost put her to death. Oh god please save Catherine and save my son. Please save our son. Suddenly, I see Alec from the corner of my eyes who ran towards me and Hans.

texted me. Where's Catherine?" Alec asked

I couldn't answer.

she?" Alec

shot Catherine!" Hans yelled and ran towards

I let him do what he was doing to me. I groaned as he started hitting me but Alec pulled him away from me while some female patients screamed when they saw it. Nurses and some other hospital staff ran towards us and started

dude!" Alec pushed

pay for this Nick! Once Catherine's father will know about this, you're fucked! If something bad will happen to Catherine, I swear to god you're going to fucking

Nick. Let's just stay away from here

somewhere else cos people were looking at me. My clothes are stained with Catherine's dried blood and my hands are stained too. I'm crying too hard and my

the fuck did you do?! Nick! God damn it Nick look at

eyes moved to

Did you really shot Catherine?" Alec

It wasn't suppose to

mean to say you really wanted to kill Hans?! Are you out of your mind? Didn't you even think you'll end up

my mother, Alec!! He killed my mom but he got away with it cos he's filthy rich! He paid the witness to shut up. He paid the police station and the detective to close the case!! How am I

You put Catherine in critical condition!

baby, Alec." I cried for more

"W-what?"

to Alec. "That baby inside her

squat down right in front me. "It's

I fell into Alec's arms. He rubbed my spine

man. I just don't know what to do if... if she's... Oh god." I muffled weakly as my voice

so scared Alec. I'm

and looked at me.

••••

Hans and as soon as I got back, I saw

be okay?" Jenna asked as tears

Your sister won't leave us." Mrs. Forster says while she kissed Jenna's

where I was standing. "You have the guts to stay

and I slowly walked towards them. They looked

so sorry." I say

a second, Mr. Forster's fist landed on my face and I almost fell

that's enough!"

Do they know you paid for everyone to keep the case close? Did you even say you

"You bastard!"

out of the room and my heart just feels heavier until he pulls his surgical mask down. Hans was holding Jenna close to him while Mr. & Mrs. Forster were holding onto each other's arm. I'm standing here, right away

my daughter?" Mrs. Forster

terribly sorry."

No.

No!

that!" Mr. Forster

my god." Mrs. Forster falls

we could to revive her but... She's dead on arrival. We are truly sorry." The doctor lowers his

Catherine. My baby girl.

shattered into thousands of pieces and it tore my heart out from my chest when the doctor said that. I killed her.

as my tears blurs my vision. I shake my head in disbelief. Their cries are even making me more feel my deep pain. My mind is numb but racing in circles. This isn't making any sense of what was happening. This isn't

daughter." Mrs. Forster cries

screams as she

the

back up. My baby

child?"

seriously has the guts to

if I was ready for

as well." The doctor answered.

for more. I feel no wisp of relief as my mind drifts further and further into the abyss of complete sorrow. Catherine. My baby. My son. We were suppose to be a family. We were suppose to be happy. We were suppose to

so sorry."

go. Before they'll do something to you. The police might be coming here Cmon. Let's go. Cmon."

I killed both of them. They