Love Aint Always Pretty

Quatervois

- a crossroad; a critical decision or turning point in one's life.

Origin: French

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NICK'S POV

SEVEN YEARS AGO

I ran to them and tried to hold Catherine as she groans for pain. I shot her. I'm crying hard and there were more blood. So much blood. Catherine's blood stained her dress as it runs down on my hands.

"Call for help! Call for help!" I yelled at Hans.

Hans stands away and quickly pulled out his phone. I'm shaking. I'm shaking as I hold Catherine on my arms. She smiles weakly as she squints her eyes cos of the pain.

"Catherine.... I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry." I repeated the same exact words.

"Shhh... It's not your fault Nick. Don't... Arghh.. Don't blame yourself." Catherine says while grunting.

She wipes my tears. "It's not your fault love."

I shake my head in disagreement.

"I'm sorry." I cried.

"My dad won't let me tell you this... But Nick... Y-you're a father now." She holds my shaking hand then placed it on top of her bump.

"This is your baby." She says.

She smiles while tears were crawling out from her eyes. "Our baby."

My head bent down and more tears were coming out from my eyes. I hate myself. I hate myself for what I did.

"If I don't survive..." Catherine says with such shakiness in her voice.

"Don't say that." I begged.

She smiled weakly. "Please... Please save him Nick. Save our baby. Save him for me Nick." She says while crying.

"Promise me you will." She takes a grip on my hand.

I nod and kissed her forehead as I hold her close to my chest.

I shot Catherine.

I shot Catherine.

I put our baby in critical condition.

"Live for me. Live for me and our baby Catherine. I need you. I need both of you. Please live for me. For us. Please. I'm begging you please stay." I kiss her hand.

She smiles and nods. "I will."

As soon as help came, I went with Hans in the ambulance and both of us neither talked to each other. When we arrived at the hospital, I was still holding Catherine's hand while she fell unconscious. I would always kiss her hand and my tears just won't stop from falling. I'm so scared of what I have done. I don't want to lose her. I don't want to lose out baby.

"Catherine please be okay. Catherine. Catherine you promised me." I cried.

My hands were still shaking while I hold her hands close to my lips. My lips are trembling too. I kissed her knuckles as my tears were streaming down my face. My tears are just unstoppable. Catherine was unconscious now. She went unconscious during the drive. My heart is racing. Fear is gathering inside my body. I'm scared. I'm so scared of losing her. Hans was also crying but he hasn't talked to me during the entire drive to the hospital.

"Sir I'm sorry but you can't come through this door. Sir please step back." The nurse said to me as he pushed me away.

I ran my fingers through my hair and pulled my hair back. I'm so mad at myself. I shot her. I almost put her to death. Oh god please save Catherine and save my son. Please save our son. Suddenly, I see Alec from the corner of my eyes who ran towards me and Hans.

I came here as soon as you texted me. Where's Catherine?" Alec asked me as he

I couldn't answer.

is she?" Alec asked

fucking shot her!! He fucking shot Catherine!" Hans yelled and ran towards

my collar and pushed me hard against the wall. I let him do what he was doing to me. I groaned as he started hitting me but Alec pulled him away from me while some female patients screamed when they saw it. Nurses and some other hospital staff ran towards us and started trying to stop the commotion cos Hans was raging his anger

off dude!" Alec pushed

If something bad will happen to Catherine, I swear to god you're going to

away from here for

to say cos if something will happen to Catherine, I would blame myself too. I let Alec take me somewhere else cos people were

do?! Nick! God damn it Nick look

moved to

you really shot Catherine?"

suppose to

Are you out of your mind? Didn't you even think you'll end up in jail

mom but he got away with it cos he's filthy rich! He paid the witness to shut up. He paid the police station and the

who you shot? You put Catherine in critical condition! What if it

fell down on my knees, "Catherine said that was my baby, Alec." I cried for more as I

"W-what?"

to Alec. "That baby inside her is mine

in front me.

me and I fell into Alec's arms. He rubbed my spine and I just cried. I didn't

Catherine, man. I just don't know what to do if... if she's... Oh god." I muffled weakly as my voice was

scared Alec.

away and looked at me. "Everything's gonna be okay. Catherine's

••••

Hans and as soon as I got back, I saw Catherine's family -- her parents and Jenna. They're all crying

will Catie be okay?" Jenna asked as tears fall on

sister won't leave us." Mrs. Forster says while she kissed

to where I was

towards them. They looked at me with anger. So much anger. Even Jenna looks mad

so sorry."

and I almost fell on the floor. Alec catches me but then Mr. Forster grabbed my

enough!"

Do they know you paid for everyone to keep the case close? Did you even say you were sorry

"You bastard!"

door opening when he was about to hit me again. Mr. Forster quickly pulled himself away from me and pushed me away. The doctor stepped out of the room and my heart just feels heavier until he pulls his surgical

daughter?" Mrs. Forster asked with a

sorry." The doctor

No.

No!

say that!"

Mrs. Forster falls

we could to revive her but... She's dead on arrival. We are truly sorry." The doctor lowers his

My baby girl. My Catherine." Mrs.

out from my chest when the doctor said that. I killed her.

grabs my shoulder as my tears blurs my vision. I shake my head in disbelief. Their cries are even making me more feel my deep pain. My mind is numb but racing in

daughter." Mrs. Forster

Jenna screams as she cries

about the baby?" Hans

head back up.

child?" Hans

guts to claim its

if

The doctor answered. "We are

of complete sorrow. Catherine. My baby. My son. We were suppose to be a family. We were suppose to be happy. We were suppose to be together. He was suppose

I'm so

let's go. Before they'll do something to you. The police might be coming here Cmon. Let's go. Cmon." Alec

Alec. I killed both