Love Aint Always Pretty

Quatervois

- a crossroad; a critical decision or turning point in one's life.

Origin: French

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NICK'S POV

SEVEN YEARS AGO

I ran to them and tried to hold Catherine as she groans for pain. I shot her. I'm crying hard and there were more blood. So much blood. Catherine's blood stained her dress as it runs down on my hands.

"Call for help! Call for help!" I yelled at Hans.

Hans stands away and quickly pulled out his phone. I'm shaking. I'm shaking as I hold Catherine on my arms. She smiles weakly as she squints her eyes cos of the pain.

"Catherine.... I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry." I repeated the same exact words.

"Shhh... It's not your fault Nick. Don't... Arghh.. Don't blame yourself." Catherine says while grunting.

She wipes my tears. "It's not your fault love."

I shake my head in disagreement.

"I'm sorry." I cried.

"My dad won't let me tell you this... But Nick... Y-you're a father now." She holds my shaking hand then placed it on top of her bump.

"This is your baby." She says.

She smiles while tears were crawling out from her eyes. "Our baby."

My head bent down and more tears were coming out from my eyes. I hate myself. I hate myself for what I did.

"If I don't survive..." Catherine says with such shakiness in her voice.

"Don't say that." I begged.

She smiled weakly. "Please... Please save him Nick. Save our baby. Save him for me Nick." She says while crying.

"Promise me you will." She takes a grip on my hand.

I nod and kissed her forehead as I hold her close to my chest.

I shot Catherine.

I shot Catherine.

I put our baby in critical condition.

"Live for me. Live for me and our baby Catherine. I need you. I need both of you. Please live for me. For us. Please. I'm begging you please stay." I kiss her hand.

She smiles and nods. "I will."

As soon as help came, I went with Hans in the ambulance and both of us neither talked to each other. When we arrived at the hospital, I was still holding Catherine's hand while she fell unconscious. I would always kiss her hand and my tears just won't stop from falling. I'm so scared of what I have done. I don't want to lose her. I don't want to lose out baby.

"Catherine please be okay. Catherine. Catherine you promised me." I cried.

My hands were still shaking while I hold her hands close to my lips. My lips are trembling too. I kissed her knuckles as my tears were streaming down my face. My tears are just unstoppable. Catherine was unconscious now. She went unconscious during the drive. My heart is racing. Fear is gathering inside my body. I'm scared. I'm so scared of losing her. Hans was also crying but he hasn't talked to me during the entire drive to the hospital.

"Sir I'm sorry but you can't come through this door. Sir please step back." The nurse said to me as he pushed me away.

I ran my fingers through my hair and pulled my hair back. I'm so mad at myself. I shot her. I almost put her to death. Oh god please save Catherine and save my son. Please save our son. Suddenly, I see Alec from the corner of my eyes who ran towards me and Hans.

Catherine?"

I couldn't answer.

she?" Alec

He fucking shot Catherine!" Hans yelled and

me. I groaned as he started hitting me but Alec pulled him away from me while some female patients screamed when they saw it. Nurses and some other hospital staff ran towards us and started trying to stop the commotion cos Hans was raging his anger out at me. He

dude!" Alec

fucked! If something bad will happen to Catherine, I

from here

happen to Catherine, I would blame myself too. I let Alec take me somewhere else cos people were looking at me. My clothes are stained with Catherine's dried blood and my hands are stained too. I'm crying too hard and my heart is hurting too

do?! Nick! God damn it Nick look at me!"

moved to

the fuck Nick?! Did you really shot Catherine?"

wasn't suppose to be her."

of your mind? Didn't you

He paid the witness to shut up. He paid the

who you shot? You put Catherine in critical

down on my knees, "Catherine said that was my baby, Alec." I cried for more as I covered my face with my

"W-what?"

my head to Alec. "That baby inside

squat down right in front me.

me and I fell into Alec's arms. He rubbed my spine

Catherine, man. I just don't know what to do if... if she's... Oh god." I muffled weakly as my voice

Alec. I'm

pulled himself away and looked at me. "Everything's gonna be okay. Catherine's

••••

soon as I got back, I saw Catherine's family -- her parents and

be okay?" Jenna asked as

will. She will be ok. Your sister won't leave us." Mrs. Forster says while she kissed

saw me and moved his head to where I

down and I slowly walked towards them. They looked

sorry."

Forster's fist landed on my face and I almost fell on the floor. Alec catches me but then Mr.

that's enough!"

Do they know you paid for everyone to keep the case close? Did you even say you were sorry for

"You bastard!"

feels heavier until he pulls his surgical mask down.

daughter?" Mrs. Forster asked with a

sorry." The doctor

No.

No!

say that!" Mr. Forster

Mrs. Forster

everything we could to revive her but... She's dead on arrival. We are truly sorry." The

My baby girl. My Catherine." Mrs. Forster

into thousands of pieces and it tore my heart out from my chest when the doctor said that. I killed her. I killed Catherine. I killed the one I love. I killed her.

shake my head in disbelief. Their cries are even making me more feel my deep pain. My mind is numb but racing in circles. This isn't making any sense of what was happening. This isn't real. This couldn't be real. This

daughter." Mrs. Forster cries

as she cries on Hans'

about the baby?" Hans

my head back up.

my child?"

seriously has the guts to claim

at the doctor and I don't know if I was ready for what he was

it as well." The doctor answered. "We

relief as my mind drifts further and further into the abyss of complete sorrow. Catherine. My baby. My son. We were suppose to be a family. We were suppose to be happy. We were suppose to be

I'm so sorry." I

something to you. The police might be coming here Cmon. Let's go. Cmon." Alec tells

Alec. I killed both of them.