Love Aint Always Pretty

Quatervois

- a crossroad; a critical decision or turning point in one's life.

Origin: French

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NICK'S POV

SEVEN YEARS AGO

I ran to them and tried to hold Catherine as she groans for pain. I shot her. I'm crying hard and there were more blood. So much blood. Catherine's blood stained her dress as it runs down on my hands.

"Call for help! Call for help!" I yelled at Hans.

Hans stands away and quickly pulled out his phone. I'm shaking. I'm shaking as I hold Catherine on my arms. She smiles weakly as she squints her eyes cos of the pain.

"Catherine.... I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry." I repeated the same exact words.

"Shhh... It's not your fault Nick. Don't... Arghh.. Don't blame yourself." Catherine says while grunting.

She wipes my tears. "It's not your fault love."

I shake my head in disagreement.

"I'm sorry." I cried.

"My dad won't let me tell you this... But Nick... Y-you're a father now." She holds my shaking hand then placed it on top of her bump.

"This is your baby." She says.

She smiles while tears were crawling out from her eyes. "Our baby."

My head bent down and more tears were coming out from my eyes. I hate myself. I hate myself for what I did.

"If I don't survive..." Catherine says with such shakiness in her voice.

"Don't say that." I begged.

She smiled weakly. "Please... Please save him Nick. Save our baby. Save him for me Nick." She says while crying.

"Promise me you will." She takes a grip on my hand.

I nod and kissed her forehead as I hold her close to my chest.

I shot Catherine.

I shot Catherine.

I put our baby in critical condition.

"Live for me. Live for me and our baby Catherine. I need you. I need both of you. Please live for me. For us. Please. I'm begging you please stay." I kiss her hand.

She smiles and nods. "I will."

As soon as help came, I went with Hans in the ambulance and both of us neither talked to each other. When we arrived at the hospital, I was still holding Catherine's hand while she fell unconscious. I would always kiss her hand and my tears just won't stop from falling. I'm so scared of what I have done. I don't want to lose her. I don't want to lose out baby.

"Catherine please be okay. Catherine. Catherine you promised me." I cried.

My hands were still shaking while I hold her hands close to my lips. My lips are trembling too. I kissed her knuckles as my tears were streaming down my face. My tears are just unstoppable. Catherine was unconscious now. She went unconscious during the drive. My heart is racing. Fear is gathering inside my body. I'm scared. I'm so scared of losing her. Hans was also crying but he hasn't talked to me during the entire drive to the hospital.

"Sir I'm sorry but you can't come through this door. Sir please step back." The nurse said to me as he pushed me away.

I ran my fingers through my hair and pulled my hair back. I'm so mad at myself. I shot her. I almost put her to death. Oh god please save Catherine and save my son. Please save our son. Suddenly, I see Alec from the corner of my eyes who ran towards me and Hans.

you texted me. Where's Catherine?" Alec

I couldn't answer.

she?" Alec

fucking shot her!! He fucking shot Catherine!" Hans yelled

doing to me. I groaned as he started hitting me but Alec pulled him away from me while some female patients screamed when they saw it. Nurses and some other

off dude!"

Catherine's father will know about this, you're fucked! If something bad

Let's just stay away from here for a second.

I let Alec take me somewhere else cos people were looking at me. My clothes are stained with

do?! Nick! God damn it Nick look at

moved

Nick?! Did you

wasn't suppose to be her."

you really wanted to kill Hans?! Are you out of your mind? Didn't you even think you'll end up in

rich! He paid the witness to shut up. He paid the police station and the detective to close the case!!

You put Catherine in

my baby, Alec." I cried for more as I covered my face

"W-what?"

my head to Alec. "That baby inside

in front me. "It's your

into Alec's arms. He rubbed my spine and I just cried. I didn't care how weak I looked in front of everybody's eyes but I just can't take what

to do without Catherine, man. I just don't know what to do if... if she's... Oh god."

scared Alec. I'm so

away and looked at me. "Everything's

••••

soon as I got back, I saw Catherine's

asked as tears

She will. She will be ok. Your sister won't leave us." Mrs. Forster says while she kissed

where I was standing. "You have the

from where he was sitting down and I slowly walked towards them. They looked at me with anger.

sorry." I

Mr. Forster's fist landed on my face and I almost fell on the floor. Alec catches me but then Mr. Forster grabbed

that's enough!" Jenna

you paid for everyone to keep the case close? Did you even say you were

"You bastard!"

again. Mr. Forster quickly pulled himself away from me and pushed me away. The doctor stepped out of the room and my heart just feels heavier until he pulls his surgical mask down. Hans was holding Jenna close to him while Mr. & Mrs. Forster were holding onto each other's arm. I'm standing here, right away from them while Alec stands

daughter?" Mrs. Forster asked with a little

terribly sorry." The doctor

No.

No!

that!"

Mrs. Forster falls

but... She's dead on arrival. We

my god Catherine. My baby girl. My

said that. I killed her. I killed Catherine. I killed the one I love. I killed her. I'm a killer. She died because of me. I lost

my shoulder as my tears blurs my vision. I shake my head in disbelief. Their cries are even making me more feel my deep pain. My mind is numb but racing in circles. This isn't making any sense of what was happening. This isn't real. This couldn't be real. This isn't happening to us. I need to

daughter." Mrs.

as she cries on Hans'

about the baby?" Hans

pulled my head back up.

child?" Hans

seriously has the guts to claim its

know if I

didn't make it as well." The doctor answered.

sorrow. Catherine. My baby. My son. We were suppose to be a family. We were

so sorry."

police might be coming here

killed her Alec. I killed both of them. They died cos