Love Aint Always Pretty

Quatervois

- a crossroad; a critical decision or turning point in one's life.

Origin: French

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NICK'S POV

SEVEN YEARS AGO

I ran to them and tried to hold Catherine as she groans for pain. I shot her. I'm crying hard and there were more blood. So much blood. Catherine's blood stained her dress as it runs down on my hands.

"Call for help! Call for help!" I yelled at Hans.

Hans stands away and quickly pulled out his phone. I'm shaking. I'm shaking as I hold Catherine on my arms. She smiles weakly as she squints her eyes cos of the pain.

"Catherine.... I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry." I repeated the same exact words.

"Shhh... It's not your fault Nick. Don't... Arghh.. Don't blame yourself." Catherine says while grunting.

She wipes my tears. "It's not your fault love."

I shake my head in disagreement.

"I'm sorry." I cried.

"My dad won't let me tell you this... But Nick... Y-you're a father now." She holds my shaking hand then placed it on top of her bump.

"This is your baby." She says.

She smiles while tears were crawling out from her eyes. "Our baby."

My head bent down and more tears were coming out from my eyes. I hate myself. I hate myself for what I did.

"If I don't survive..." Catherine says with such shakiness in her voice.

"Don't say that." I begged.

She smiled weakly. "Please... Please save him Nick. Save our baby. Save him for me Nick." She says while crying.

"Promise me you will." She takes a grip on my hand.

I nod and kissed her forehead as I hold her close to my chest.

I shot Catherine.

I shot Catherine.

I put our baby in critical condition.

"Live for me. Live for me and our baby Catherine. I need you. I need both of you. Please live for me. For us. Please. I'm begging you please stay." I kiss her hand.

She smiles and nods. "I will."

As soon as help came, I went with Hans in the ambulance and both of us neither talked to each other. When we arrived at the hospital, I was still holding Catherine's hand while she fell unconscious. I would always kiss her hand and my tears just won't stop from falling. I'm so scared of what I have done. I don't want to lose her. I don't want to lose out baby.

"Catherine please be okay. Catherine. Catherine you promised me." I cried.

My hands were still shaking while I hold her hands close to my lips. My lips are trembling too. I kissed her knuckles as my tears were streaming down my face. My tears are just unstoppable. Catherine was unconscious now. She went unconscious during the drive. My heart is racing. Fear is gathering inside my body. I'm scared. I'm so scared of losing her. Hans was also crying but he hasn't talked to me during the entire drive to the hospital.

"Sir I'm sorry but you can't come through this door. Sir please step back." The nurse said to me as he pushed me away.

I ran my fingers through my hair and pulled my hair back. I'm so mad at myself. I shot her. I almost put her to death. Oh god please save Catherine and save my son. Please save our son. Suddenly, I see Alec from the corner of my eyes who ran towards me and Hans.

I came here as soon as you texted me. Where's Catherine?" Alec asked me as

I couldn't answer.

is she?" Alec

He fucking shot Catherine!" Hans yelled and ran towards

they saw it. Nurses

off dude!" Alec pushed

Catherine's father will know about this, you're fucked! If something bad will happen to Catherine, I swear to god you're going to fucking jail!"

from here for a second. Cmon." Alec

too. I let Alec take me somewhere else cos people were looking at me. My clothes are stained with Catherine's

what the fuck did you do?! Nick! God damn it Nick look at me!"

moved to

Did you

It wasn't suppose to be

mind? Didn't you even think you'll end up in jail if you'll do it?!" Alec

killed my mother, Alec!! He killed my mom but he got away with it cos he's filthy rich! He paid the witness to shut up. He paid the police station and the detective to close the case!! How

Catherine in critical condition! What if it

down on my knees, "Catherine said that was my baby, Alec." I cried for more as I covered my

"W-what?"

head to Alec. "That baby

down right in front

hugged me and I fell into Alec's arms. He rubbed my spine and I just cried. I didn't care how weak I looked in front of everybody's

know what to do if... if she's... Oh god." I muffled weakly as my

so scared Alec.

and looked at me. "Everything's gonna be okay. Catherine's a strong

••••

got back, I saw Catherine's family -- her parents and Jenna. They're all crying

Jenna asked as tears fall

sister won't leave us." Mrs.

and moved his head to where I was standing. "You have the guts to

down and I slowly walked towards them. They looked

so sorry."

and I almost fell

enough!"

paid for everyone to keep the case close? Did you even

"You bastard!"

pulled himself away from me and pushed me away. The doctor stepped out of the room and my heart just feels heavier until he pulls his surgical mask down. Hans was holding Jenna close to him while Mr. & Mrs. Forster were holding onto each other's arm. I'm standing here,

daughter?" Mrs. Forster asked with a

terribly sorry." The

No.

No!

that!" Mr.

Mrs. Forster falls onto her husband's

we could to revive her but... She's dead on arrival. We are

Catherine. My baby girl. My Catherine." Mrs. Forster

from my chest when the doctor said that. I killed her. I killed Catherine. I killed the one I love.

pain. My mind is numb but racing in circles. This isn't making any sense of what was happening. This isn't

Mrs. Forster cries

screams as she cries

the

pulled my head back

child?"

guts

and I don't know if I was ready for what he

as well." The doctor

more. I feel no wisp of relief as my mind drifts further and further into the abyss of complete sorrow. Catherine. My baby. My son. We were suppose to be a family. We

I'm so sorry."

you. The police might be coming here Cmon. Let's go. Cmon." Alec

sideways. "I killed her Alec. I killed both of them. They died cos