Love Aint Always Pretty

Quatervois

- a crossroad; a critical decision or turning point in one's life.

Origin: French

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NICK'S POV

SEVEN YEARS AGO

I ran to them and tried to hold Catherine as she groans for pain. I shot her. I'm crying hard and there were more blood. So much blood. Catherine's blood stained her dress as it runs down on my hands.

"Call for help! Call for help!" I yelled at Hans.

Hans stands away and quickly pulled out his phone. I'm shaking. I'm shaking as I hold Catherine on my arms. She smiles weakly as she squints her eyes cos of the pain.

"Catherine.... I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry." I repeated the same exact words.

"Shhh... It's not your fault Nick. Don't... Arghh.. Don't blame yourself." Catherine says while grunting.

She wipes my tears. "It's not your fault love."

I shake my head in disagreement.

"I'm sorry." I cried.

"My dad won't let me tell you this... But Nick... Y-you're a father now." She holds my shaking hand then placed it on top of her bump.

"This is your baby." She says.

She smiles while tears were crawling out from her eyes. "Our baby."

My head bent down and more tears were coming out from my eyes. I hate myself. I hate myself for what I did.

"If I don't survive..." Catherine says with such shakiness in her voice.

"Don't say that." I begged.

She smiled weakly. "Please... Please save him Nick. Save our baby. Save him for me Nick." She says while crying.

"Promise me you will." She takes a grip on my hand.

I nod and kissed her forehead as I hold her close to my chest.

I shot Catherine.

I shot Catherine.

I put our baby in critical condition.

"Live for me. Live for me and our baby Catherine. I need you. I need both of you. Please live for me. For us. Please. I'm begging you please stay." I kiss her hand.

She smiles and nods. "I will."

As soon as help came, I went with Hans in the ambulance and both of us neither talked to each other. When we arrived at the hospital, I was still holding Catherine's hand while she fell unconscious. I would always kiss her hand and my tears just won't stop from falling. I'm so scared of what I have done. I don't want to lose her. I don't want to lose out baby.

"Catherine please be okay. Catherine. Catherine you promised me." I cried.

My hands were still shaking while I hold her hands close to my lips. My lips are trembling too. I kissed her knuckles as my tears were streaming down my face. My tears are just unstoppable. Catherine was unconscious now. She went unconscious during the drive. My heart is racing. Fear is gathering inside my body. I'm scared. I'm so scared of losing her. Hans was also crying but he hasn't talked to me during the entire drive to the hospital.

"Sir I'm sorry but you can't come through this door. Sir please step back." The nurse said to me as he pushed me away.

I ran my fingers through my hair and pulled my hair back. I'm so mad at myself. I shot her. I almost put her to death. Oh god please save Catherine and save my son. Please save our son. Suddenly, I see Alec from the corner of my eyes who ran towards me and Hans.

here as soon as you texted me. Where's Catherine?" Alec asked me as he placed his

I couldn't answer.

is she?" Alec

her!! He fucking shot Catherine!" Hans yelled and ran towards

hitting me but Alec pulled him away from me while some female patients screamed when they saw it. Nurses and some other hospital staff ran towards us and started trying to stop the commotion cos Hans was raging his anger out at

dude!"

Once Catherine's father will know about this, you're fucked! If something bad will happen to Catherine, I swear to god you're going

Nick. Let's just stay away from here for a second. Cmon." Alec pulls

take me somewhere else cos people were looking at me. My clothes are stained with Catherine's dried blood and

do?! Nick! God damn it Nick look at me!" Alec moved

eyes moved to

fuck Nick?! Did you really shot

wasn't suppose to be

to kill Hans?! Are you out of your mind? Didn't you

killed my mom but he got away with it cos he's filthy rich! He paid the witness to shut up. He paid the police station and the detective to close the case!! How am I not gonna do anything

you shot? You put Catherine in critical

knees, "Catherine said that was my baby, Alec." I cried

"W-what?"

pulled my head to Alec. "That baby inside her is

right in front me. "It's your

me and I fell into Alec's arms. He rubbed my spine and

do without Catherine, man. I just don't know what to do if... if she's... Oh god."

scared Alec.

at me. "Everything's gonna be okay. Catherine's a

••••

to where I left Hans and as soon as I got back, I saw Catherine's family -- her parents and Jenna.

will Catie be okay?" Jenna asked as tears fall

won't leave

moved his head to where I was standing. "You have the guts to

stands from where he was sitting down and I slowly walked towards them. They looked at me with anger. So much anger. Even Jenna looks mad

so sorry."

I almost fell on the floor. Alec catches me

enough!"

your family know what you did? Do they know you paid for everyone to keep the case close? Did

"You bastard!"

about to hit me again. Mr. Forster quickly pulled himself away from me and pushed me away. The doctor stepped out of the room and my heart just feels heavier until he pulls his surgical mask down. Hans was holding Jenna close to him while Mr. & Mrs. Forster were holding onto each other's arm. I'm standing here, right away

Forster asked

terribly sorry." The

No.

No!

that!" Mr. Forster

my god." Mrs. Forster falls onto her husband's

tried everything we could to revive her but... She's dead on arrival. We are truly sorry." The

Catherine. My baby girl. My Catherine."

world shattered into thousands of pieces and it tore my heart out from my chest when the doctor said that. I killed her. I killed Catherine.

my tears blurs my vision. I shake my head in disbelief. Their cries are even making me more feel my deep pain. My mind is numb but racing in circles. This isn't making any sense of what was happening.

Mrs.

as she cries on

the baby?" Hans

pulled my head back up. My baby

my child?" Hans

seriously has the guts to claim its

doctor and I don't know if I was ready for what

The doctor answered.

My baby. My son. We were suppose to

so sorry."

Before they'll do something to you. The police might be

head sideways. "I killed her Alec. I killed both of them. They died cos of