Love Aint Always Pretty

Quatervois

- a crossroad; a critical decision or turning point in one's life.

Origin: French

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NICK'S POV

SEVEN YEARS AGO

I ran to them and tried to hold Catherine as she groans for pain. I shot her. I'm crying hard and there were more blood. So much blood. Catherine's blood stained her dress as it runs down on my hands.

"Call for help! Call for help!" I yelled at Hans.

Hans stands away and quickly pulled out his phone. I'm shaking. I'm shaking as I hold Catherine on my arms. She smiles weakly as she squints her eyes cos of the pain.

"Catherine.... I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry." I repeated the same exact words.

"Shhh... It's not your fault Nick. Don't... Arghh.. Don't blame yourself." Catherine says while grunting.

She wipes my tears. "It's not your fault love."

I shake my head in disagreement.

"I'm sorry." I cried.

"My dad won't let me tell you this... But Nick... Y-you're a father now." She holds my shaking hand then placed it on top of her bump.

"This is your baby." She says.

She smiles while tears were crawling out from her eyes. "Our baby."

My head bent down and more tears were coming out from my eyes. I hate myself. I hate myself for what I did.

"If I don't survive..." Catherine says with such shakiness in her voice.

"Don't say that." I begged.

She smiled weakly. "Please... Please save him Nick. Save our baby. Save him for me Nick." She says while crying.

"Promise me you will." She takes a grip on my hand.

I nod and kissed her forehead as I hold her close to my chest.

I shot Catherine.

I shot Catherine.

I put our baby in critical condition.

"Live for me. Live for me and our baby Catherine. I need you. I need both of you. Please live for me. For us. Please. I'm begging you please stay." I kiss her hand.

She smiles and nods. "I will."

As soon as help came, I went with Hans in the ambulance and both of us neither talked to each other. When we arrived at the hospital, I was still holding Catherine's hand while she fell unconscious. I would always kiss her hand and my tears just won't stop from falling. I'm so scared of what I have done. I don't want to lose her. I don't want to lose out baby.

"Catherine please be okay. Catherine. Catherine you promised me." I cried.

My hands were still shaking while I hold her hands close to my lips. My lips are trembling too. I kissed her knuckles as my tears were streaming down my face. My tears are just unstoppable. Catherine was unconscious now. She went unconscious during the drive. My heart is racing. Fear is gathering inside my body. I'm scared. I'm so scared of losing her. Hans was also crying but he hasn't talked to me during the entire drive to the hospital.

"Sir I'm sorry but you can't come through this door. Sir please step back." The nurse said to me as he pushed me away.

I ran my fingers through my hair and pulled my hair back. I'm so mad at myself. I shot her. I almost put her to death. Oh god please save Catherine and save my son. Please save our son. Suddenly, I see Alec from the corner of my eyes who ran towards me and Hans.

texted me. Where's Catherine?" Alec asked me as he placed his hand

I couldn't answer.

she?" Alec

shot Catherine!" Hans yelled and ran towards

doing to me. I groaned as he started hitting me but Alec pulled him away from me while some female patients screamed when they saw it. Nurses and some other hospital staff ran towards us and started

off dude!" Alec pushed

something bad will happen to Catherine, I

go Nick. Let's just stay away from here

me somewhere else cos people were looking at me. My clothes are stained with Catherine's dried blood and my hands are

damn it Nick look at me!" Alec moved me to and

moved to

Did you really shot

It wasn't suppose to

you out of your mind? Didn't you

killed my mom but he got away with it cos he's filthy rich! He paid the witness to shut up. He paid the police station and the detective to close the case!! How am I not gonna do anything

shot? You put Catherine in critical condition! What if it

Alec." I cried for more

"W-what?"

pulled my head to Alec. "That baby inside her is

right in front me. "It's your

tears kept falling and falling. He quickly hugged me and I fell into Alec's arms. He rubbed my spine and I just cried. I didn't care how weak I looked in front of everybody's eyes but I just can't take what I've

don't know what to do if... if she's... Oh god." I muffled weakly as my

scared Alec.

himself away and looked at me. "Everything's gonna be

••••

I left Hans and as soon as I got back, I saw Catherine's family -- her parents and Jenna. They're all crying and

Jenna asked

won't leave us." Mrs.

head to where I was standing. "You have

I slowly walked towards them. They

so sorry." I

I almost fell on the floor. Alec catches

enough!" Jenna

know you paid for everyone to keep the case close? Did you even

"You bastard!"

me again. Mr. Forster quickly pulled himself away from me and pushed me away. The doctor stepped out of the room and my heart just feels heavier until he pulls his surgical mask down. Hans was holding Jenna close to him while Mr. & Mrs. Forster were holding onto each other's arm.

my daughter?" Mrs. Forster asked

terribly sorry." The

No.

No!

that!" Mr. Forster

Mrs. Forster falls

we could to revive her but... She's dead on

my god Catherine. My baby girl. My Catherine." Mrs.

heart out from my chest when the doctor said that. I killed her. I killed Catherine. I killed

tears blurs my vision. I shake my head in disbelief. Their cries are even making me more feel my deep pain. My mind is numb but racing in circles. This isn't making any sense of what was happening. This

daughter." Mrs. Forster cries

she

about the

head back up.

my child?" Hans

seriously has the guts to

know if

as well." The doctor answered. "We

more. I feel no wisp of relief as my mind drifts further and further into the abyss of complete sorrow. Catherine. My baby. My son. We were suppose to

I'm so sorry."

they'll do something to you. The police might be coming here Cmon. Let's go. Cmon." Alec

Alec. I