Love Aint Always Pretty

Quatervois

- a crossroad; a critical decision or turning point in one's life.

Origin: French

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NICK'S POV

SEVEN YEARS AGO

I ran to them and tried to hold Catherine as she groans for pain. I shot her. I'm crying hard and there were more blood. So much blood. Catherine's blood stained her dress as it runs down on my hands.

"Call for help! Call for help!" I yelled at Hans.

Hans stands away and quickly pulled out his phone. I'm shaking. I'm shaking as I hold Catherine on my arms. She smiles weakly as she squints her eyes cos of the pain.

"Catherine.... I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry." I repeated the same exact words.

"Shhh... It's not your fault Nick. Don't... Arghh.. Don't blame yourself." Catherine says while grunting.

She wipes my tears. "It's not your fault love."

I shake my head in disagreement.

"I'm sorry." I cried.

"My dad won't let me tell you this... But Nick... Y-you're a father now." She holds my shaking hand then placed it on top of her bump.

"This is your baby." She says.

She smiles while tears were crawling out from her eyes. "Our baby."

My head bent down and more tears were coming out from my eyes. I hate myself. I hate myself for what I did.

"If I don't survive..." Catherine says with such shakiness in her voice.

"Don't say that." I begged.

She smiled weakly. "Please... Please save him Nick. Save our baby. Save him for me Nick." She says while crying.

"Promise me you will." She takes a grip on my hand.

I nod and kissed her forehead as I hold her close to my chest.

I shot Catherine.

I shot Catherine.

I put our baby in critical condition.

"Live for me. Live for me and our baby Catherine. I need you. I need both of you. Please live for me. For us. Please. I'm begging you please stay." I kiss her hand.

She smiles and nods. "I will."

As soon as help came, I went with Hans in the ambulance and both of us neither talked to each other. When we arrived at the hospital, I was still holding Catherine's hand while she fell unconscious. I would always kiss her hand and my tears just won't stop from falling. I'm so scared of what I have done. I don't want to lose her. I don't want to lose out baby.

"Catherine please be okay. Catherine. Catherine you promised me." I cried.

My hands were still shaking while I hold her hands close to my lips. My lips are trembling too. I kissed her knuckles as my tears were streaming down my face. My tears are just unstoppable. Catherine was unconscious now. She went unconscious during the drive. My heart is racing. Fear is gathering inside my body. I'm scared. I'm so scared of losing her. Hans was also crying but he hasn't talked to me during the entire drive to the hospital.

"Sir I'm sorry but you can't come through this door. Sir please step back." The nurse said to me as he pushed me away.

I ran my fingers through my hair and pulled my hair back. I'm so mad at myself. I shot her. I almost put her to death. Oh god please save Catherine and save my son. Please save our son. Suddenly, I see Alec from the corner of my eyes who ran towards me and Hans.

I came here as soon as you texted me. Where's Catherine?" Alec

I couldn't answer.

is she?" Alec asked

fucking shot

started hitting me but Alec pulled him away from me while some female patients screamed when they saw it. Nurses and some other hospital staff ran towards us and started trying to stop the commotion cos Hans was raging his anger out at me. He tried to throw himself

dude!" Alec

know about this, you're fucked! If something bad will happen to Catherine, I swear to god you're going to fucking jail!" Hans

away from here for

couldn't find anything to say cos if something will happen to Catherine, I would blame myself too. I let Alec take me somewhere else cos people were looking at me. My clothes are stained with Catherine's dried blood and my

do?! Nick! God damn it Nick look at me!" Alec moved me to and

eyes moved

Nick?! Did you really

wasn't suppose to be her."

god Nick! You mean to say you really wanted to kill Hans?! Are you out of your mind? Didn't you even think you'll end up in jail

filthy rich! He paid the witness to shut

who you shot? You put Catherine in critical condition! What

baby, Alec." I cried for more as

"W-what?"

head to Alec. "That baby inside her is mine Alec! It's

down right in front me. "It's

my tears kept falling and falling. He quickly hugged me and I fell into Alec's arms. He rubbed my spine and

just don't know what to do if... if

scared Alec.

pulled himself away and looked at me. "Everything's

••••

as soon as I got back, I saw Catherine's

be okay?" Jenna asked as tears fall

will be ok. Your sister won't leave us." Mrs. Forster says

his head to where I was standing. "You

sitting down and I slowly walked towards them. They looked at me with anger. So much anger. Even Jenna looks mad

so sorry."

Mr. Forster's fist landed on my face and I almost fell on the floor. Alec catches me but then

that's enough!" Jenna

family know what you did? Do they know you paid for everyone to keep the

"You bastard!"

hit me again. Mr. Forster quickly pulled himself away from me and pushed me away. The doctor stepped out of the room and my heart just feels heavier until he pulls his

my daughter?" Mrs. Forster asked with

sorry."

No.

No!

that!" Mr. Forster

god." Mrs. Forster falls onto her

revive her but... She's dead on arrival. We are truly sorry." The doctor

my god Catherine. My baby girl. My Catherine." Mrs. Forster

into thousands of pieces and it tore my heart out from my chest when the doctor said that. I killed her. I killed Catherine. I killed the one I love. I killed her. I'm

me more feel my deep pain. My mind is numb but racing in circles. This isn't making

daughter." Mrs. Forster

as she cries on

about the

head back up. My baby

child?"

guts

stared at the doctor and I don't know if I was ready for what he was gonna

as well." The doctor answered.

My baby. My son. We were suppose to be a family. We were suppose to be happy. We were

I'm so

police might

her Alec. I killed both