Love Aint Always Pretty

Quatervois

- a crossroad; a critical decision or turning point in one's life.

Origin: French

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NICK'S POV

SEVEN YEARS AGO

I ran to them and tried to hold Catherine as she groans for pain. I shot her. I'm crying hard and there were more blood. So much blood. Catherine's blood stained her dress as it runs down on my hands.

"Call for help! Call for help!" I yelled at Hans.

Hans stands away and quickly pulled out his phone. I'm shaking. I'm shaking as I hold Catherine on my arms. She smiles weakly as she squints her eyes cos of the pain.

"Catherine.... I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry." I repeated the same exact words.

"Shhh... It's not your fault Nick. Don't... Arghh.. Don't blame yourself." Catherine says while grunting.

She wipes my tears. "It's not your fault love."

I shake my head in disagreement.

"I'm sorry." I cried.

"My dad won't let me tell you this... But Nick... Y-you're a father now." She holds my shaking hand then placed it on top of her bump.

"This is your baby." She says.

She smiles while tears were crawling out from her eyes. "Our baby."

My head bent down and more tears were coming out from my eyes. I hate myself. I hate myself for what I did.

"If I don't survive..." Catherine says with such shakiness in her voice.

"Don't say that." I begged.

She smiled weakly. "Please... Please save him Nick. Save our baby. Save him for me Nick." She says while crying.

"Promise me you will." She takes a grip on my hand.

I nod and kissed her forehead as I hold her close to my chest.

I shot Catherine.

I shot Catherine.

I put our baby in critical condition.

"Live for me. Live for me and our baby Catherine. I need you. I need both of you. Please live for me. For us. Please. I'm begging you please stay." I kiss her hand.

She smiles and nods. "I will."

As soon as help came, I went with Hans in the ambulance and both of us neither talked to each other. When we arrived at the hospital, I was still holding Catherine's hand while she fell unconscious. I would always kiss her hand and my tears just won't stop from falling. I'm so scared of what I have done. I don't want to lose her. I don't want to lose out baby.

"Catherine please be okay. Catherine. Catherine you promised me." I cried.

My hands were still shaking while I hold her hands close to my lips. My lips are trembling too. I kissed her knuckles as my tears were streaming down my face. My tears are just unstoppable. Catherine was unconscious now. She went unconscious during the drive. My heart is racing. Fear is gathering inside my body. I'm scared. I'm so scared of losing her. Hans was also crying but he hasn't talked to me during the entire drive to the hospital.

"Sir I'm sorry but you can't come through this door. Sir please step back." The nurse said to me as he pushed me away.

I ran my fingers through my hair and pulled my hair back. I'm so mad at myself. I shot her. I almost put her to death. Oh god please save Catherine and save my son. Please save our son. Suddenly, I see Alec from the corner of my eyes who ran towards me and Hans.

Where's Catherine?" Alec asked me as he placed his

I couldn't answer.

she?" Alec asked

He fucking shot Catherine!" Hans yelled

grabbed my collar and pushed me hard against the wall. I let him do what he was doing to me. I groaned as he started hitting me but Alec pulled him away from me while some female patients screamed when they saw it. Nurses and some other

off dude!" Alec pushed

pay for this Nick! Once Catherine's father will know about this, you're fucked! If something bad will happen to Catherine, I swear to god you're going to fucking jail!" Hans

just stay away from here for a second. Cmon." Alec pulls

take me somewhere else cos people were looking at me. My clothes are stained with Catherine's dried blood and my hands are stained too.

did you do?! Nick! God damn it Nick look at me!" Alec moved me to

eyes moved to

the fuck Nick?! Did you really

to

of your mind? Didn't

it cos he's filthy rich! He paid the witness to shut up. He paid the police station and the detective to close the case!! How am I not gonna do anything

put Catherine in critical condition! What

fell down on my knees, "Catherine said that was my baby, Alec." I cried for more as I covered my face

"W-what?"

pulled my head to Alec. "That baby inside her is mine Alec!

squat down right in front

and I fell into Alec's arms. He rubbed my spine and I just

to do if... if

so scared Alec. I'm

and looked at me. "Everything's

••••

and as soon as I got back, I saw Catherine's family -- her parents

will Catie be okay?" Jenna asked as tears fall

will be ok. Your sister won't leave us." Mrs.

where I was standing. "You have the guts

was sitting down and I slowly walked towards them. They looked at

so sorry." I say

and I almost

that's enough!" Jenna

what you did? Do they know you paid for everyone to keep the case close? Did

"You bastard!"

feels heavier until he pulls his surgical mask down. Hans was holding Jenna close to him while Mr. & Mrs. Forster were holding onto each other's arm. I'm standing

Mrs. Forster asked with a little

terribly sorry."

No.

No!

that!"

my god." Mrs. Forster falls onto her

tried everything we could to revive her but... She's dead

My baby

my chest when the doctor said that. I killed her. I killed Catherine. I killed the one I

my vision. I shake my head in disbelief. Their cries are even making me more feel my deep pain. My mind is numb but racing in circles. This isn't making any sense of what was happening. This isn't real. This couldn't be real. This isn't happening to us. I need

Mrs. Forster cries

screams as she

the baby?" Hans

head back up. My baby

child?" Hans

seriously has the guts to claim

doctor and I don't know if I was ready for what he was

make it as well." The doctor answered.

drifts further and further into the abyss of complete sorrow. Catherine. My baby. My son. We were suppose to

I'm so sorry." I

you. The police might be coming here Cmon. Let's go.

head sideways. "I killed her Alec. I killed both of