Love Aint Always Pretty

Kalopsia

- the delusion of things being more beautiful than they really are

Origin: Greek

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SAVANNAH'S POV

I was sitting down inside a coffee shop, rewriting my 500-word essay for this Friday. I have been here for almost an hour now and I'm still not halfway through. My neck is already hurting and my wrist is starting to hurt as well. I take a sip from my frappe and it's already four in the afternoon.

"Savannah. Good to see you here."

I pulled my head up and it was Alec. He walks closer to my table. I haven't seen or talked to him after that night when I eavesdropped his conversation with Nick. I have tried to ignore him too cos I'm ashamed of myself. He knows the thing I have with Nick.

"Can I share a table?" He asked.

I just stared at him and he says, "Don't worry I'm alone."

I nod.

Alec pulls out the chair across me and sat down with a smile. "How are you?"

"Fine. Thanks." I answered.

He takes a sip from his coffee and neither of us tried to talk anymore. I continued writing on my essay.

"About that night Savannah." He says.

I slightly pulled my head up to him.

"I know you've heard everything and I feel bad about it." He says.

I bite my lip.

"I don't know why Nick is treating you this way. You clearly don't deserve this kind of... Brokenness and ugliness." He added.

I exhale and put my pen back down. I stare at him and he looked totally sorry about what he said that night though he didn't really say anything bad against me.

"I'm just too embarrassed now that you know I'm only screwing Nick and he's doing the same thing." I say softly.

"Don't be embarrassed. Most college students are stuck on being just friends with benefits. The only difference is, you're in love. I know you love him Savannah. That night when I saw those tears on your face, I know you wanted more from what Nick is giving you but--"

"But he can't give me what I need." I continue his sentence for him.

I looked away and hear Alec exhaling heavily. "I wouldn't ask those things if I knew you were there."

I smirked and said, "I wouldn't know his answers if you knew I was there."

"But are you okay with this set up with Nick? You know you're going to hurt yourself if you keep on doing this."

I exhale heavily, as if I'm having a hard time to breathe.

"I want to continue with whatever I have with Nick.... Even though it's hurting me."

I look back at Alec while he looks at me. He pity me. I could see from his eyes. He knows too well that Nick won't love me. He knows him too well and that look on his eyes is breaking me.

"Why do you want this?" He asked.

"I'm a fool for him, Alec." I say.

His brows are creasing.

I'll try to keep up with this though it hurts. This will end someday and before it'll

"If you give him more time I know

think that's never gonna

do you still want to go on with this kind of thing Savannah when you

hoping he could change. He could change for me."

dear friend to me and trust me when I say Nick's heart is already sealed long ago. It's already as hard as a

down and wiped it

still here I am hoping that he will. That he could."

down right next to me. He holds me close and I was hugging him cos it's what I need. I need to tell someone other than Nick about this thing that's going

late cos you're an amazing woman Savannah. It'll be Nick's loss." He says to

looking at me. It's nice to hear at coming from Nick's best friend, he knows it's Nick's loss. I hope I'm a loss to

don't you take Nick less seriously? Keep it

"I'm trying."

another guy....who likes you." He

sigh. "No guy

Aries talks about when you're

"What?"

eyes widened. "Shit. Don't tell

softly. "Aries is a

from getting beaten up, all he ever asked me about was you.

"He's not?" I asked.

night before but after that night when you first came at

I paused.

is a known playboy but every time a girl comes

smirked. "I don't really know who's side you're on right now. Are you taking

He laughs. "No one's."

I exhale.

to say is, don't make yourself too unavailable to other

I smiled at myself.

best friend but you deserve to be loved the way you should be. You're a beautiful woman, Savannah. A lot of men could

right, I shouldn't be taking this thing I have with Nick seriously. I need to meet other men,

"Thanks Alec." I say.

"And don't worry, your secret with Nick is safe with

I smiled.

•••••

to my side table drawer and pulled myself up from the bed. I placed a pillow

like a slutty if I'm entertaining other men while I'm screwing

by the

A voice

It's not

but why is there a delivery? Perhaps it was a mail? I

"Hi angel." He says.

I smiled back. "Hey."

up the paper bag and showed me. "Alec said you were a bit sad today so I thought I could buy you your favorite

there's foods in there. I'm famished."

and some rolls. I hope you like Japanese

it. Come

door and marched my way closer to him. He starts pulling out the foods and everything looks

this." He says

worry

foods back on his paper plate.

is really good."

from my

favorite too."

it's still ice cream. It's still tasty. I'm glad Aries is here to company me, I've been kind of a loner lately since Tracy has been busy with her researching and I've had to do other stuff related to school too. Nick is gone again. I don't know where he is. Haven't seen him

tell me where

I didn't know your name