Love Aint Always Pretty

Kalopsia

- the delusion of things being more beautiful than they really are

Origin: Greek

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SAVANNAH'S POV

I was sitting down inside a coffee shop, rewriting my 500-word essay for this Friday. I have been here for almost an hour now and I'm still not halfway through. My neck is already hurting and my wrist is starting to hurt as well. I take a sip from my frappe and it's already four in the afternoon.

"Savannah. Good to see you here."

I pulled my head up and it was Alec. He walks closer to my table. I haven't seen or talked to him after that night when I eavesdropped his conversation with Nick. I have tried to ignore him too cos I'm ashamed of myself. He knows the thing I have with Nick.

"Can I share a table?" He asked.

I just stared at him and he says, "Don't worry I'm alone."

I nod.

Alec pulls out the chair across me and sat down with a smile. "How are you?"

"Fine. Thanks." I answered.

He takes a sip from his coffee and neither of us tried to talk anymore. I continued writing on my essay.

"About that night Savannah." He says.

I slightly pulled my head up to him.

"I know you've heard everything and I feel bad about it." He says.

I bite my lip.

"I don't know why Nick is treating you this way. You clearly don't deserve this kind of... Brokenness and ugliness." He added.

I exhale and put my pen back down. I stare at him and he looked totally sorry about what he said that night though he didn't really say anything bad against me.

"I'm just too embarrassed now that you know I'm only screwing Nick and he's doing the same thing." I say softly.

"Don't be embarrassed. Most college students are stuck on being just friends with benefits. The only difference is, you're in love. I know you love him Savannah. That night when I saw those tears on your face, I know you wanted more from what Nick is giving you but--"

"But he can't give me what I need." I continue his sentence for him.

I looked away and hear Alec exhaling heavily. "I wouldn't ask those things if I knew you were there."

I smirked and said, "I wouldn't know his answers if you knew I was there."

"But are you okay with this set up with Nick? You know you're going to hurt yourself if you keep on doing this."

I exhale heavily, as if I'm having a hard time to breathe.

"I want to continue with whatever I have with Nick.... Even though it's hurting me."

I look back at Alec while he looks at me. He pity me. I could see from his eyes. He knows too well that Nick won't love me. He knows him too well and that look on his eyes is breaking me.

"Why do you want this?" He asked.

"I'm a fool for him, Alec." I say.

His brows are creasing.

try to keep up with this though it hurts. This will end someday and before it'll end I just want to

you give him more time I know he'll

humorlessly. "I think

to go on with this kind of thing Savannah when you know it's never gonna happen? You're inflicting

he could change. He

to me and trust me when I say Nick's heart is already sealed long ago. It's already as hard as a rock now." He

head down and wiped it away before it could fall down on my

love again but still here I am hoping that he will. That he could."

and I was hugging him cos it's what I need. I need to tell someone

you're an amazing woman

he handed me a ply of tissue. I wiped my tears and he's still looking at me. It's nice to hear at coming from Nick's best friend, he knows it's Nick's

don't you take Nick less seriously?

"I'm trying."

guy....who likes

sigh. "No guy

Aries

"What?"

"Shit. Don't tell him I

laugh softly. "Aries is a playboy,

have this affect on him cos since that night when you saved him from getting beaten up, all he ever asked me about was you. He's not even seeing

"He's not?" I asked.

anymore. I usually see him with different women every night before but after that night when you first came at the frat party,

I paused.

him. Aries is a known playboy but every time a girl comes around, he turns them down."

really know who's side you're on right now. Are you taking Nick's side or

He laughs. "No one's."

I exhale.

unavailable to other men cos of what you have with Nick." He

I smiled at myself.

friend but you deserve to be loved the way you should be. You're a beautiful woman, Savannah. A lot of

he is right. I'm setting myself too closed around Nick. Alec is right, I shouldn't be taking this thing I

"Thanks Alec." I say.

don't worry, your secret with

I smiled.

•••••

as always and I'm always the one left here. I put down my paper to my side table drawer and pulled myself up from the bed. I placed a

look like a slutty if I'm entertaining other men while I'm screwing Nick?"

came by

A voice

It's not

but why is there a delivery? Perhaps it was a mail? I reached for the knob and opened the door. A tall man with a baseball cap turned backwards was smiling

"Hi angel." He says.

I smiled back. "Hey."

me. "Alec said you were a bit sad today

"I hope there's foods

rolls.

love it. Come

walks inside and headed to the bed. I closed the door and marched my way closer to him. He starts pulling out the foods and

He says while

smiled. "Don't worry you're

his foods back on his paper plate. I'd end up

is good. This is really

my favorite Japanese

to be my favorite too." I smile. "Pass up the ice cream

It was sort of melted a little bit but melted or not it's still ice cream. It's still tasty. I'm glad Aries is here to company me, I've been kind of a loner lately since Tracy has been

always doesn't tell me

know your