Love Aint Always Pretty

Kalopsia

- the delusion of things being more beautiful than they really are

Origin: Greek

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SAVANNAH'S POV

I was sitting down inside a coffee shop, rewriting my 500-word essay for this Friday. I have been here for almost an hour now and I'm still not halfway through. My neck is already hurting and my wrist is starting to hurt as well. I take a sip from my frappe and it's already four in the afternoon.

"Savannah. Good to see you here."

I pulled my head up and it was Alec. He walks closer to my table. I haven't seen or talked to him after that night when I eavesdropped his conversation with Nick. I have tried to ignore him too cos I'm ashamed of myself. He knows the thing I have with Nick.

"Can I share a table?" He asked.

I just stared at him and he says, "Don't worry I'm alone."

I nod.

Alec pulls out the chair across me and sat down with a smile. "How are you?"

"Fine. Thanks." I answered.

He takes a sip from his coffee and neither of us tried to talk anymore. I continued writing on my essay.

"About that night Savannah." He says.

I slightly pulled my head up to him.

"I know you've heard everything and I feel bad about it." He says.

I bite my lip.

"I don't know why Nick is treating you this way. You clearly don't deserve this kind of... Brokenness and ugliness." He added.

I exhale and put my pen back down. I stare at him and he looked totally sorry about what he said that night though he didn't really say anything bad against me.

"I'm just too embarrassed now that you know I'm only screwing Nick and he's doing the same thing." I say softly.

"Don't be embarrassed. Most college students are stuck on being just friends with benefits. The only difference is, you're in love. I know you love him Savannah. That night when I saw those tears on your face, I know you wanted more from what Nick is giving you but--"

"But he can't give me what I need." I continue his sentence for him.

I looked away and hear Alec exhaling heavily. "I wouldn't ask those things if I knew you were there."

I smirked and said, "I wouldn't know his answers if you knew I was there."

"But are you okay with this set up with Nick? You know you're going to hurt yourself if you keep on doing this."

I exhale heavily, as if I'm having a hard time to breathe.

"I want to continue with whatever I have with Nick.... Even though it's hurting me."

I look back at Alec while he looks at me. He pity me. I could see from his eyes. He knows too well that Nick won't love me. He knows him too well and that look on his eyes is breaking me.

"Why do you want this?" He asked.

"I'm a fool for him, Alec." I say.

His brows are creasing.

This will end someday and before it'll end I

table. "If you give him more time I know he'll realize that he

"I think that's never gonna

kind of thing Savannah when you know it's

hoping he could change. He could change for

dear friend to me and trust me when I say Nick's heart is already

bent my head down

know. I know he couldn't love again but still here I am hoping

need. I need to tell someone other than

late cos you're an amazing woman Savannah. It'll be Nick's loss." He says to

to hear at coming from Nick's best friend, he knows it's Nick's loss. I hope I'm a loss to him cos the way

less seriously? Keep it strictly

"I'm trying."

with another guy....who likes

"No guy

kidding me? All Aries talks about when you're

"What?"

Don't

softly. "Aries is

that night when you saved him from getting beaten up, all he ever asked me about was you. He's

"He's not?" I asked.

usually see him with different women every night before but after that night when you first came at the

I paused.

even tried to make fun of him. Aries is a known playboy but every time a

smirked. "I don't really know who's side you're on right now. Are

He laughs. "No one's."

I exhale.

is, don't make yourself too unavailable to other men cos of what you have with Nick." He tells

I smiled at myself.

be loved the way you should be. You're a beautiful woman, Savannah. A lot of men could be after you and you just don't know it cos you're too

I know he is right. I'm setting myself too closed around Nick. Alec is right, I shouldn't be taking this thing I have with Nick

"Thanks Alec." I say.

"And don't worry, your secret with Nick is safe with

I smiled.

•••••

left here. I put down my paper to my side table drawer and pulled myself up from the bed. I placed a pillow behind my head as I rest against the wall. I'm still thinking about what Alec told me. Those words still runs over my

I'm entertaining other men while I'm screwing Nick?" I

came by

voice

It's not

myself off the bed and headed to the door. I didn't order anything but why is there a delivery? Perhaps it was a mail? I reached for the knob and opened the door. A tall man with a baseball cap turned backwards was

"Hi angel." He says.

I smiled back. "Hey."

paper bag and showed me. "Alec said you were a bit sad today so I thought I could buy

there's foods in there. I'm famished." I

teriyaki and some rolls. I hope you like

it. Come

marched my way closer to him. He starts pulling out the foods and everything looks deliciously cute. Aries started opening the

this." He says while holding

"Don't worry you're not

ends up dropping his foods back on his paper plate. I'd end up laughing at him and

is really good."

my favorite

too." I smile. "Pass up the ice cream

ice cream. It's still tasty. I'm glad Aries is here to company me, I've been kind of a loner lately since Tracy has been busy with her researching and I've had to do other

tell

way, I didn't know your name was Harrison."