Love Aint Always Pretty

Kalopsia

- the delusion of things being more beautiful than they really are

Origin: Greek

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SAVANNAH'S POV

I was sitting down inside a coffee shop, rewriting my 500-word essay for this Friday. I have been here for almost an hour now and I'm still not halfway through. My neck is already hurting and my wrist is starting to hurt as well. I take a sip from my frappe and it's already four in the afternoon.

"Savannah. Good to see you here."

I pulled my head up and it was Alec. He walks closer to my table. I haven't seen or talked to him after that night when I eavesdropped his conversation with Nick. I have tried to ignore him too cos I'm ashamed of myself. He knows the thing I have with Nick.

"Can I share a table?" He asked.

I just stared at him and he says, "Don't worry I'm alone."

I nod.

Alec pulls out the chair across me and sat down with a smile. "How are you?"

"Fine. Thanks." I answered.

He takes a sip from his coffee and neither of us tried to talk anymore. I continued writing on my essay.

"About that night Savannah." He says.

I slightly pulled my head up to him.

"I know you've heard everything and I feel bad about it." He says.

I bite my lip.

"I don't know why Nick is treating you this way. You clearly don't deserve this kind of... Brokenness and ugliness." He added.

I exhale and put my pen back down. I stare at him and he looked totally sorry about what he said that night though he didn't really say anything bad against me.

"I'm just too embarrassed now that you know I'm only screwing Nick and he's doing the same thing." I say softly.

"Don't be embarrassed. Most college students are stuck on being just friends with benefits. The only difference is, you're in love. I know you love him Savannah. That night when I saw those tears on your face, I know you wanted more from what Nick is giving you but--"

"But he can't give me what I need." I continue his sentence for him.

I looked away and hear Alec exhaling heavily. "I wouldn't ask those things if I knew you were there."

I smirked and said, "I wouldn't know his answers if you knew I was there."

"But are you okay with this set up with Nick? You know you're going to hurt yourself if you keep on doing this."

I exhale heavily, as if I'm having a hard time to breathe.

"I want to continue with whatever I have with Nick.... Even though it's hurting me."

I look back at Alec while he looks at me. He pity me. I could see from his eyes. He knows too well that Nick won't love me. He knows him too well and that look on his eyes is breaking me.

"Why do you want this?" He asked.

"I'm a fool for him, Alec." I say.

His brows are creasing.

Nick and I'll try to keep up with this though it hurts. This will end someday and before it'll end I just want to

him more time I know he'll

laugh humorlessly. "I think that's never

do you still want to go on with this kind of thing Savannah when you know it's never

he could change. He could change

trust me when I say Nick's heart is already sealed long ago. It's already as hard as a rock

bent my head down

I am hoping that he will. That he could." My voice is

He holds me close and I was hugging him cos it's what I need. I need to tell someone other than Nick about this

realize it before it's too late cos you're an amazing woman Savannah. It'll

at coming from Nick's best friend, he knows it's Nick's loss. I hope I'm a

you take Nick less seriously? Keep it

"I'm trying."

with another guy....who likes you." He

"No guy likes

laughs. "Are you kidding me? All Aries talks about when

"What?"

Don't

softly. "Aries is

I think you have this affect on him cos since that night when you saved him from getting beaten up, all he ever asked me about was you. He's not even seeing

"He's not?" I asked.

that night when you first came

I paused.

make fun of him. Aries is a known playboy but every

side you're on right

He laughs. "No one's."

I exhale.

say is, don't make yourself too unavailable to other men

I smiled at myself.

should be. You're a beautiful woman, Savannah.

myself too closed around Nick. Alec is right, I shouldn't be taking this thing I have with Nick seriously. I need to meet other men,

"Thanks Alec." I say.

nods. "And don't worry, your secret

I smiled.

•••••

drawer and pulled myself up from the bed. I placed a pillow behind my head as I rest against the wall. I'm still thinking about what Alec told me. Those words still runs over my head. I know I should do it.

if I'm entertaining other men while I'm screwing

knock came by the

A voice

sigh. It's not

delivery? Perhaps it was a mail? I reached for the knob and opened the door. A tall man with a

"Hi angel." He says.

I smiled back. "Hey."

showed me. "Alec said you were a bit sad today so I thought I

chuckled. "I hope there's foods in there. I'm famished."

rolls. I

love it. Come in Aries." I

the bed. I closed the door and marched my way closer to him. He starts pulling out the foods and everything

suck at this." He says

smiled. "Don't worry

to hold the chopsticks but he ends up dropping his foods back on his paper plate.

good. This is really good."

my favorite Japanese

going to be my favorite too." I smile. "Pass up the ice cream please."

it's still ice cream. It's still tasty. I'm glad Aries is here to company me, I've been kind of a loner lately since Tracy has been busy with her researching and I've had to do other stuff related to

always doesn't tell me

way, I didn't know your