Love Aint Always Pretty

Kalopsia

- the delusion of things being more beautiful than they really are

Origin: Greek

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SAVANNAH'S POV

I was sitting down inside a coffee shop, rewriting my 500-word essay for this Friday. I have been here for almost an hour now and I'm still not halfway through. My neck is already hurting and my wrist is starting to hurt as well. I take a sip from my frappe and it's already four in the afternoon.

"Savannah. Good to see you here."

I pulled my head up and it was Alec. He walks closer to my table. I haven't seen or talked to him after that night when I eavesdropped his conversation with Nick. I have tried to ignore him too cos I'm ashamed of myself. He knows the thing I have with Nick.

"Can I share a table?" He asked.

I just stared at him and he says, "Don't worry I'm alone."

I nod.

Alec pulls out the chair across me and sat down with a smile. "How are you?"

"Fine. Thanks." I answered.

He takes a sip from his coffee and neither of us tried to talk anymore. I continued writing on my essay.

"About that night Savannah." He says.

I slightly pulled my head up to him.

"I know you've heard everything and I feel bad about it." He says.

I bite my lip.

"I don't know why Nick is treating you this way. You clearly don't deserve this kind of... Brokenness and ugliness." He added.

I exhale and put my pen back down. I stare at him and he looked totally sorry about what he said that night though he didn't really say anything bad against me.

"I'm just too embarrassed now that you know I'm only screwing Nick and he's doing the same thing." I say softly.

"Don't be embarrassed. Most college students are stuck on being just friends with benefits. The only difference is, you're in love. I know you love him Savannah. That night when I saw those tears on your face, I know you wanted more from what Nick is giving you but--"

"But he can't give me what I need." I continue his sentence for him.

I looked away and hear Alec exhaling heavily. "I wouldn't ask those things if I knew you were there."

I smirked and said, "I wouldn't know his answers if you knew I was there."

"But are you okay with this set up with Nick? You know you're going to hurt yourself if you keep on doing this."

I exhale heavily, as if I'm having a hard time to breathe.

"I want to continue with whatever I have with Nick.... Even though it's hurting me."

I look back at Alec while he looks at me. He pity me. I could see from his eyes. He knows too well that Nick won't love me. He knows him too well and that look on his eyes is breaking me.

"Why do you want this?" He asked.

"I'm a fool for him, Alec." I say.

His brows are creasing.

will end someday and before it'll end I just want to

down on the table. "If you give him more time I know he'll

"I think that's never

why do you still want to go on with this kind of thing

hoping he could change. He could change for

I say Nick's heart is already sealed long

bent my head down and wiped it away before

I am hoping that he will.

and I was hugging him cos it's what I need. I need to tell someone other than Nick about this thing that's going on

it's too late cos you're an amazing woman

of tissue. I wiped my tears and he's still looking at me. It's nice to hear at coming from Nick's best friend, he knows it's Nick's loss. I

take Nick less seriously? Keep it strictly physical." He

"I'm trying."

guy....who likes you."

sigh. "No guy likes

Aries talks about when you're

"What?"

"Shit. Don't

"Aries is

when you saved him from getting beaten up, all he

"He's not?" I asked.

but after that night when you first came at the frat party,

I paused.

fun of him. Aries is a known playboy but every time a girl comes around,

side you're on right

He laughs. "No one's."

I exhale.

to other men cos of

I smiled at myself.

my best friend but you deserve to be loved the way you should be. You're a beautiful woman, Savannah. A lot of men could be after you and you just don't

right, I shouldn't

"Thanks Alec." I say.

"And don't worry, your secret with Nick is

I smiled.

•••••

from the bed. I placed a pillow behind my head as I rest against the wall. I'm still

I look like a slutty if I'm entertaining other men while I'm screwing

knock came by the door.

voice called

sigh. It's not

was a mail? I reached for the knob and opened the door. A tall man with a baseball cap turned

"Hi angel." He says.

I smiled back. "Hey."

"Alec said you were a bit sad today so I thought I could buy you your favorite ice

there's foods in

some rolls. I hope you

Come in Aries."

marched my way closer to him. He starts pulling out the foods and everything looks deliciously cute. Aries started opening the

at this." He says while

worry you're not

chopsticks but he ends up dropping his foods back on his paper plate. I'd end up laughing at

is really good." I

from my favorite

to be my favorite too." I smile. "Pass up the ice cream please."

is here to company me, I've been kind of a loner lately since Tracy has

always doesn't tell

the way, I didn't know your name