Love Aint Always Pretty

Velleitie

- a wish or powerful desire for something that nonetheless is not or cannot be followed by actions meant to pursue it

Origin: Latin

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SAVANNAH'S POV

The following days in England, I was living a harmonious life at home because Damon won't be around all the time. I would still go out to shop but I could feel some people following me secretly wherever I go and I know they're Damon's people. Aries would send me some gifts too and I won't let Damon know about it because he will go nuts again. He's very hard to handle when he's intense and it's very unusual of him to be this strict and so jealousy.

We were even invited to this birthday celebration of Mr. Mikel Edwards. He's one of Damon's closest family friend. I'm not really in the mood to go there tomorrow because I don't know the people who'll be attending. I don't wanna see fake people pretending to other fake people but Damon keeps on forcing me to go. We even fought about it last night too so I had no choice.

While I was in the middle of my sleep one night, a loud bang woke me up all of a sudden. I thought someone got into the house and started stealing things from here or maybe someone got in and tried to kill the maids. I quickly sat on my bed and turned on the light from my lampshade then saw a sight of Damon standing by the doorway. I don't like what I'm seeing of how he is standing right before me.

He turns on the light of the entire room and he looked drunk as hell. He's really wasted as hell and I don't know what's his reason this time that he's drunk but I wouldn't want to know because the last time he was drunk, the reason was his jealousy over Aries. I asked myself what have I done this time because the way he looks at me, kills me.

"Do you know what time it is?" I asked.

Give a pregnant woman some sleep. I whined on my thoughts.

He nods. "Three in the morning."

"Right and you just got home." I say.

He grins. "You're worried."

I gulped.

"Shouldn't I?" I arched an eyebrow.

He didn't say anything anymore and just stared at the floor. I don't know if he's looking at the floor at his feet.

"You look lovely." He slurred as he pulled his head up to me.

I took a deep breath in. "Damon, get to bed and have your sleep."

"YOU." He emphasized loudly and points his finger at me. "You... you are my wife. Mine. My own. My property."

Damon starts walking closer to me and every inch he gets closer, my heart just wants to step back. I quickly slipped myself out from the bed to stay away from him but he grabs my arm so fast and pulled me to him. He was dragging me closer to his body while I was trying to fight him back but it was no use.

"Where do you think you're going huh? Savannah?" He asked me.

"Damon please. It's late."

"Who cares if it's fucking late?"

I tried to pull myself away. "Other people will hear us!"

"This is my mansion! I can YELL as loud as I want to in the middle of the fucking night!!" He exclaims.

I tried to pull myself away again but I couldn't move a muscle. "Let me go Damon. You're hurting me."

He laughs. "Hurting you?"

He laughs louder.

"Savannah. I hurt you? When? When was the last time I hurt you? When did I ever hurt you? Don't be selfish bitch."

My brows creasing.

This isn't Damon. I hate it so much when he becomes like this. This isn't the Damon that I used to know. He's scaring me right now and his tight grip on my arm is making me want to run out of the room and ask for help.

In a second he grabbed both of my cheeks with one hand. "You always forget that you're mine Savannah."

to speak against my pressed

are you saying please? Am I hurting you?" He says with red eyes. I'm scared.

"Y-yes..." I stuttered.

"I love you

this. I want to run away from him. I want to hide. I want to make

already eight months pregnant and I need to make sure I won't get any miscarriage. My baby needs to

He asked me like he's

closer to him so strongly that made me whimper in pain. "Do you hear me?!" He raises his

I nod frighteningly.

me..." He

my

The. Father. Of the baby?"

from my chest when he asked that unexpectedly and I don't want to answer him on this condition right now. He's so drunk and he will get mad at me. I couldn't dare on saying that it's Nick's baby because he will definitely hurt me. He will really

me ask you again

is

the mattress and he grabs both of my arms up above my head while

father?!" He yells at my

pressed my shaking lips

"Y-you..." I lied.

running down the corners of my eyes and I don't know

fucking liar!" He

not lying." I cried as

results you liar. The fucking results!"

is he doing behind my back aside from stalking me when

because he's too strong and I could not move him away from me. I'm scared that he will do something to my unborn baby once he'll know Nick is the father. He's going to hate it and he's going to hurt

"I'm infertile." He screeched.

somebody just slit my throat right now and kill me? I can't accept the fact that he can't

so much scared right now. His eyes makes me think that he wants to hit

can't fucking make a baby Savannah..." His grip

pregnant." He says under his breath. He bends his head down and

"Damon..." I whimpered.

and looked at me with teary eyes. I couldn't find anything to say to him just to console his broken

done. I know I've wanted to have a baby with Nick. It's been one of my dream to have a baby from him but as I look at it now, I pity Damon. I pity him yet I'm so frightened of

I called out his name again but softly

My throat feels dry.

Say anything."

laughs humorlessly. "You want me to

again and slapped me on the same cheek. I cried on top of the bed and he pulled me up as he takes a grip

Stop it!" I exclaimed

You little bitch!" He

dragged me around the entire room with his hand pulling my hair and threw my back against the wall. Our honeymoon picture that was hanging against the wall had fallen down on the ground. The glasses were shattered into pieces

pain slowly growing. "Argh...."

before me. He was walking around in circles with his hands holding onto his hair. His tie was loosened and the four buttons of his polo was open. He quickly pulled his head up and looked at me. As

the door. "Mr. Patricks? Mrs. Patricks? Is everything alright in there?" I could hear

asked me with cold eyes and his

Im sorry." I

covered my mouth. I shake my head and took

"Sorry." He repeats impassively.

He chuckles emotionlessly.

that fucking guy, or whoever it was, didn't you even think about me?!"

knocks from the

you?!" He yells

with both of his hands. He pinned me hard against the wall and kept choking me while my tears kept rolling down the corners of my eyes. I held onto his hands, trying to pull them away

I need to breathe...

But I can't.

is coming into my

I cried while struggling from his

on his arm. I feel my eyes reddening. I tried to claw his face but I couldn't reach it. He stares at me, like he's determined to kill me tonight. I cried for more. I tried to scream out for some help but I couldn't do it. I don't have any voice left to do

blur. But before I could lose my eyesight, a view of Damon choking me is the