Love Aint Always Pretty

Unprepared

- not properly ready mentally or physically for some experience or action

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I glanced at dad, "We still haven't talked about it." I said coldly.

"Well, the sooner the better." Dad says.

I take a long sip from my drink and just thought about Nick. Everyone talked about the wedding and I was just sitting on my chair. I smiled whenever they would ask me something and I would talk when Damon would say me something to me. It's as if I was a robot and all of them are controlling me.

When dinner was over, Ingrid decided to sleep at my apartment together with Cameron while my parents were at their hotel room. As I fix my pjs and entered the room, I found Cameron fixing the bedsheets with Ingrid. She jumps on my bed and Cameron whines about not getting it done yet. I walked to the bed and joined them.

"Are you okay?" Cameron asked me.

I moved my head to him, "Why wouldn't I be?"

"Oh come on Annie. We know you still love Nick." Ingrid says.

I smiled ruefully. "Ingrid you talk too much. Why don't you go to sleep? Mom and dad are going to pick you up early tomorrow."

Ingrid pouts and Cameron sets her to bed as he fix her blanket. "Go to sleep Ingrid." Cameron says.

He stands. "Savannah, can I talk to you?"

I nod.

Both of us headed out of the room quietly, leaving Ingrid on top of the bed. Cameron stands before me and looks at me in the eye. He didn't say anything yet and just looked at me. I cross my arms against my breast.

"Why are you looking at me like that Ron?" I asked him.

"Are you sure you're really marrying Damon?" He asked me back.

I stared at the floor while my tears were already gathering in my eyes. I take a deep breath in and tried to hide my tears by bending my head down.

"Of course." I say.

"Do you love him?"

I took a deep breath in and exhaled heavily through my mouth. I stare at Cameron who was examining my face. I looked away as I feel my tears about to fall down. I'm too emotional right now and there's a big part of me that's hurt because of my decision on marrying Damon. When I think about how soon my dad wants it to happen, I feel even sadder. I know I don't have any choice but to marry Damon.

"Come here." He says.

I pull my head up to him.

"Come here Savannah." He tells me.

I walk closer to him as he opens his arms wide and hugged me close. I cried on his shoulder and he rubs my back.

"Ron..." I cried.

"I know how you feel. If I only knew what dad did. I should've stopped him. I'm sorry sis." He holds me close.

I shake my head.

"I didn't know. I'm so sorry." He says.

"Why are you sorry for?" I asked.

"Cos I know how much you love Nick and I know you don't want to get married to Damon yet."

Cameron pushes my hair off my face and wipes the tears that were on my cheeks. "If you don't want to get married to Damon, then don't."

"Ron, he's such a nice man and I couldn't afford to break his heart. I can't say no. I was planning to break up with him when we were in Bahamas but suddenly he proposed to me." I say.

He sighs.

something serious to handle with, Savannah. You'll be spending your life with

doing Ron and I really appreciate this thing that you're

ruefully. "I know I hate Nick so much but I also know how much he

my forehead briefly. "Just know that no matter what decisions you make,

hugged him tight. "Thank

know you're getting married?" Cameron

my

he doesn't need to

my hand. "Why don't we go to sleep

I nod.

I'm married cos I'm sure as hell that

I've left on my desk but even though I try to get myself busy, I can't find words to put into my writing because I'm still bothered about reality and what I chose in life for my future. My future with Damon. I'd be having kids with him and I'd

I quickly got myself together and sat straight. I see Dakota standing right in front of my doorway. She walks in without

Wilde." I say, damn that

that's why I came here myself."

really have to come here Mrs. Wilde." I

you took a leave

slightly. "Yes. Im terribly sorry about that.

My husband took care of it for you."

I gulped.

snaps. "My husband seems

"Of me?" I repeated.

your leave. My husband doesn't really do that." She sits down on the

guess I'm very thankful for Mr. Wilde about

grins. "Well Nick has never done the thing he did for you. Which is why I'm wondering what is or was your

were colleagues. We went to the same university together,

shoot up. "Oh. Is that so? How

obviously faked a smile

a university. This is work. Nick Wilde is your boss and he pays

I nod.

asking favors from my husband." She

"Mrs. Wilde I didn't--"

me off, emphasizing on the word my. Yeah yeah

as I get to calm myself down. This woman is irritating the fuck out

Wilde if you're worried about something between me and your husband, you got it all wrong." I pulled my hand

"I'm engaged." I added.

face shows embarrassment after what she did. She smiles

to make sure that some women stays away from my man. You know what they say when your husband is rich and very good looking, a lot of women would chase." She adds.

my fist into a ball behind my back. "Well, I love my fiancé Mrs. Wilde. I would even love to invite you and your husband to

nice

of my desk. I sat back down on my chair and tried to calm down. I don't know what she knows about me and Nick but it was obvious enough that she wants me to

complications to my thoughts. I continued working anyways to get my mind off what she said. Damn I'm mad at

was proud of myself that I finished it in time. I grabbed my bag and fixed the things on my desk before I

filled with the other employees. I stood on the farthest portion of the elevator behind everyone that were inside. I stare at my feet and I felt everyone coming out of the elevator as it dings on open. I pulled my head up and found myself on the lobby. I walked out and received a text message from Damon. He's here

know I wanted to step inside Nick's car. I started walking down the staircase, coming near Damon's ride. Nick stares at me eagerly but I try so hard not to look at him. I move

be Mrs. Patricks." Damon says

I sigh inwardly.

I

me but before I take a step

know why they still need to fake it in front of everyone when they're

speeds away. I didn't dare to look back at them because I didn't want to. I held my hands tight on top of my lap and drove us to the nearest restaurant. The dinner went well as always and nothing important to talk

quiet." He grips my shoulder as we walk to his

smiled ruefully. "Nothing. Im just really tired

kissed my temple. "Oh baby don't stress yourself too

Nick only

When we got to my place, we lounge on the couch and just watched some movies on tv. I was wearing my loose white baggy shirt over