Love Aint Always Pretty

Unprepared

- not properly ready mentally or physically for some experience or action

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I glanced at dad, "We still haven't talked about it." I said coldly.

"Well, the sooner the better." Dad says.

I take a long sip from my drink and just thought about Nick. Everyone talked about the wedding and I was just sitting on my chair. I smiled whenever they would ask me something and I would talk when Damon would say me something to me. It's as if I was a robot and all of them are controlling me.

When dinner was over, Ingrid decided to sleep at my apartment together with Cameron while my parents were at their hotel room. As I fix my pjs and entered the room, I found Cameron fixing the bedsheets with Ingrid. She jumps on my bed and Cameron whines about not getting it done yet. I walked to the bed and joined them.

"Are you okay?" Cameron asked me.

I moved my head to him, "Why wouldn't I be?"

"Oh come on Annie. We know you still love Nick." Ingrid says.

I smiled ruefully. "Ingrid you talk too much. Why don't you go to sleep? Mom and dad are going to pick you up early tomorrow."

Ingrid pouts and Cameron sets her to bed as he fix her blanket. "Go to sleep Ingrid." Cameron says.

He stands. "Savannah, can I talk to you?"

I nod.

Both of us headed out of the room quietly, leaving Ingrid on top of the bed. Cameron stands before me and looks at me in the eye. He didn't say anything yet and just looked at me. I cross my arms against my breast.

"Why are you looking at me like that Ron?" I asked him.

"Are you sure you're really marrying Damon?" He asked me back.

I stared at the floor while my tears were already gathering in my eyes. I take a deep breath in and tried to hide my tears by bending my head down.

"Of course." I say.

"Do you love him?"

I took a deep breath in and exhaled heavily through my mouth. I stare at Cameron who was examining my face. I looked away as I feel my tears about to fall down. I'm too emotional right now and there's a big part of me that's hurt because of my decision on marrying Damon. When I think about how soon my dad wants it to happen, I feel even sadder. I know I don't have any choice but to marry Damon.

"Come here." He says.

I pull my head up to him.

"Come here Savannah." He tells me.

I walk closer to him as he opens his arms wide and hugged me close. I cried on his shoulder and he rubs my back.

"Ron..." I cried.

"I know how you feel. If I only knew what dad did. I should've stopped him. I'm sorry sis." He holds me close.

I shake my head.

"I didn't know. I'm so sorry." He says.

"Why are you sorry for?" I asked.

"Cos I know how much you love Nick and I know you don't want to get married to Damon yet."

Cameron pushes my hair off my face and wipes the tears that were on my cheeks. "If you don't want to get married to Damon, then don't."

"Ron, he's such a nice man and I couldn't afford to break his heart. I can't say no. I was planning to break up with him when we were in Bahamas but suddenly he proposed to me." I say.

He sighs.

you really sure you're marrying him? Marriage is something serious to handle with, Savannah. You'll be spending your life with Damon."

I really

also know how much he loves you.

"Just know that no matter what

hugged him tight. "Thank you so

you're getting

my head

doesn't need to know about it." I say

reaches for my hand. "Why don't we go to sleep

I nod.

engaged woman and I'm not wearing it to show off to Nick that I'm married cos I'm sure as hell that he's not here. I heard his wife is back so I have to try my hardest not to think that

my way to my own office and started doing the things that I've left on my desk but even though I try to get myself busy, I can't find words to put into my writing because I'm still bothered about reality and what I chose in life for my future. My future with Damon. I'd be having kids with him and I'd be living at one house with him, I have to force myself that I love him so much and that I'm happy about my marriage with him but for how long can I

massaged my temples when suddenly my door opened. I quickly got myself together and sat straight. I see Dakota standing right in front of my doorway. She walks in without saying anything and

Wilde." I say, damn

half smiles. "Hello. I haven't met you personally that's

come here

see you took a leave in

"Yes. Im terribly sorry about that. I was having

husband took care of it for you." She says

I gulped.

of." She snaps.

"Of me?" I repeated.

doesn't really do that." She sits down on the chair right in front of my desk as she crosses

I'm very thankful for Mr. Wilde about

he did for you. Which is why I'm wondering what is

in. "We were colleagues. We went to the same university together, Mrs.

"Oh. Is that so? How

faked a smile

This is work. Nick Wilde is your boss and he pays you. I

I nod.

don't like you asking favors from

"Mrs. Wilde I didn't--"

off, emphasizing on the word my. Yeah yeah he's yours on

I get to calm myself down. This

you got it all wrong." I pulled my

"I'm engaged." I added.

shows embarrassment after what she did. She smiles

say when your husband is rich and very good looking, a lot of women would

heavily as curl my fist into a ball behind my back. "Well, I love my fiancé Mrs. Wilde. I would even love to invite you and your husband to my wedding

smiles. "That would be very nice of

down on my chair and tried to calm down. I don't know what she knows about me and Nick but it was obvious enough that she wants me to stay away from her

said to me and what we talked about because it will only add more complications to my thoughts. I continued working anyways to get my mind off what she

eight hours of work, I was finally done and I could finally leave. I've finished everything I had to finish before I leave and I was proud of myself that I finished it in time. I grabbed my bag and fixed the things on my desk before

stare at my feet and I felt everyone coming

wanted to step inside Nick's car. I started walking down the staircase, coming near Damon's ride. Nick stares at me eagerly but I try so hard not to look at him. I move closer to

be Mrs. Patricks."

I sigh inwardly.

I tell

me but before

they still need to fake it in front

us to the nearest restaurant. The dinner went well as always and nothing important to talk about it. It was just something we always do after every work and it gets pretty boring

He grips my shoulder as we walk

just really tired at

"Oh baby don't stress yourself

only calls me

passenger door for me and drove me to my apartment. When we got to my place, we lounge on the couch and just watched some movies on tv. I was wearing my loose