Love Aint Always Pretty

Unprepared

- not properly ready mentally or physically for some experience or action

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I glanced at dad, "We still haven't talked about it." I said coldly.

"Well, the sooner the better." Dad says.

I take a long sip from my drink and just thought about Nick. Everyone talked about the wedding and I was just sitting on my chair. I smiled whenever they would ask me something and I would talk when Damon would say me something to me. It's as if I was a robot and all of them are controlling me.

When dinner was over, Ingrid decided to sleep at my apartment together with Cameron while my parents were at their hotel room. As I fix my pjs and entered the room, I found Cameron fixing the bedsheets with Ingrid. She jumps on my bed and Cameron whines about not getting it done yet. I walked to the bed and joined them.

"Are you okay?" Cameron asked me.

I moved my head to him, "Why wouldn't I be?"

"Oh come on Annie. We know you still love Nick." Ingrid says.

I smiled ruefully. "Ingrid you talk too much. Why don't you go to sleep? Mom and dad are going to pick you up early tomorrow."

Ingrid pouts and Cameron sets her to bed as he fix her blanket. "Go to sleep Ingrid." Cameron says.

He stands. "Savannah, can I talk to you?"

I nod.

Both of us headed out of the room quietly, leaving Ingrid on top of the bed. Cameron stands before me and looks at me in the eye. He didn't say anything yet and just looked at me. I cross my arms against my breast.

"Why are you looking at me like that Ron?" I asked him.

"Are you sure you're really marrying Damon?" He asked me back.

I stared at the floor while my tears were already gathering in my eyes. I take a deep breath in and tried to hide my tears by bending my head down.

"Of course." I say.

"Do you love him?"

I took a deep breath in and exhaled heavily through my mouth. I stare at Cameron who was examining my face. I looked away as I feel my tears about to fall down. I'm too emotional right now and there's a big part of me that's hurt because of my decision on marrying Damon. When I think about how soon my dad wants it to happen, I feel even sadder. I know I don't have any choice but to marry Damon.

"Come here." He says.

I pull my head up to him.

"Come here Savannah." He tells me.

I walk closer to him as he opens his arms wide and hugged me close. I cried on his shoulder and he rubs my back.

"Ron..." I cried.

"I know how you feel. If I only knew what dad did. I should've stopped him. I'm sorry sis." He holds me close.

I shake my head.

"I didn't know. I'm so sorry." He says.

"Why are you sorry for?" I asked.

"Cos I know how much you love Nick and I know you don't want to get married to Damon yet."

Cameron pushes my hair off my face and wipes the tears that were on my cheeks. "If you don't want to get married to Damon, then don't."

"Ron, he's such a nice man and I couldn't afford to break his heart. I can't say no. I was planning to break up with him when we were in Bahamas but suddenly he proposed to me." I say.

He sighs.

something serious to handle with, Savannah. You'll be spending your life with Damon."

know what I'm doing Ron and I really appreciate

smiles ruefully. "I know I hate Nick so much but I also know how much he loves you. Dad intervening between

briefly. "Just know that no matter what decisions you make, I always have

hugged him tight. "Thank

Nick know you're getting married?" Cameron pulls

shake my head

to know

he reaches for my hand. "Why don't we go to

I nod.

my wedding ring. Of course I should wear it, Im an engaged woman and I'm not wearing it to show off to Nick that I'm married cos I'm sure as hell that he's not here. I heard his

can't find words to put into my writing because I'm still bothered about reality and what I chose in life for my future. My future with Damon. I'd be having kids with him and I'd be living at one house with him, I have to force myself that I love him so

temples when suddenly my door opened. I quickly got myself together and sat straight. I see Dakota standing right in front of my doorway. She walks in without saying anything and closed the door gently. I

I

met you personally that's why I came here

really have to come

arched an eyebrow. "I see you took a leave

sorry about that. I was having some issues at home. Sorry for

took care of it for

I gulped.

of." She snaps. "My

"Of me?" I repeated.

to her personally about your leave. My husband doesn't really do that." She sits down on the chair right in front of my desk as

guess I'm very thankful for Mr. Wilde about

the thing he did for you. Which is why I'm wondering what is or

colleagues. We went

up. "Oh. Is that so?

a

work. Nick Wilde is your boss and he pays you. I

I nod.

don't like you asking favors from my husband."

"Mrs. Wilde I didn't--"

emphasizing on the word my. Yeah yeah he's

something wrong. I inhaled heavily and breathe our as I get to calm myself down. This

you're worried about something between me and your husband, you got it all wrong." I pulled

"I'm engaged." I added.

after what she

know what they say when your husband is rich and very good looking, a lot of women would chase." She adds. "Even some engaged

behind my back. "Well, I love my

very nice of you.

to calm down. I don't know what she knows about me and Nick but it was obvious enough that she wants me to stay away from her husband. I wonder

add more complications to my thoughts. I continued working anyways to get my mind off what she said. Damn I'm mad at that woman. If she isn't my boss, I would've pulled her hair with my bare hands

my bag and fixed the things on my desk before I went out of the room. I didn't really talked to a lot of people in the office today cos they were all curious about how Nick didn't go mad about my short notice

I stare at my feet and I felt everyone coming out of the elevator as it dings on open. I pulled my head up and found myself on the lobby. I walked out

step inside Nick's car. I started walking down the staircase, coming near Damon's ride. Nick stares at me eagerly but I try so hard not to look at him. I move closer to Damon as he opens his arms for me. He holds me close and I hug

to you, soon to be Mrs. Patricks." Damon says to

I sigh inwardly.

handsome." I tell

the passenger door for me but before I take a step inside

still need to fake it in front of everyone when they're just married in papers. Even though I know it's a contract marriage, I will can't help not

us to the nearest restaurant. The dinner went well as always and nothing important to talk

quiet." He grips my shoulder as we walk to

Im just really

my temple. "Oh baby don't

Nick only

to my apartment. When we got to my place, we lounge on the couch and just watched some movies on tv. I was wearing my loose white baggy shirt over my underwear and I didn't really had to care about what I looked like in