Love Aint Always Pretty

Unprepared

- not properly ready mentally or physically for some experience or action

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I glanced at dad, "We still haven't talked about it." I said coldly.

"Well, the sooner the better." Dad says.

I take a long sip from my drink and just thought about Nick. Everyone talked about the wedding and I was just sitting on my chair. I smiled whenever they would ask me something and I would talk when Damon would say me something to me. It's as if I was a robot and all of them are controlling me.

When dinner was over, Ingrid decided to sleep at my apartment together with Cameron while my parents were at their hotel room. As I fix my pjs and entered the room, I found Cameron fixing the bedsheets with Ingrid. She jumps on my bed and Cameron whines about not getting it done yet. I walked to the bed and joined them.

"Are you okay?" Cameron asked me.

I moved my head to him, "Why wouldn't I be?"

"Oh come on Annie. We know you still love Nick." Ingrid says.

I smiled ruefully. "Ingrid you talk too much. Why don't you go to sleep? Mom and dad are going to pick you up early tomorrow."

Ingrid pouts and Cameron sets her to bed as he fix her blanket. "Go to sleep Ingrid." Cameron says.

He stands. "Savannah, can I talk to you?"

I nod.

Both of us headed out of the room quietly, leaving Ingrid on top of the bed. Cameron stands before me and looks at me in the eye. He didn't say anything yet and just looked at me. I cross my arms against my breast.

"Why are you looking at me like that Ron?" I asked him.

"Are you sure you're really marrying Damon?" He asked me back.

I stared at the floor while my tears were already gathering in my eyes. I take a deep breath in and tried to hide my tears by bending my head down.

"Of course." I say.

"Do you love him?"

I took a deep breath in and exhaled heavily through my mouth. I stare at Cameron who was examining my face. I looked away as I feel my tears about to fall down. I'm too emotional right now and there's a big part of me that's hurt because of my decision on marrying Damon. When I think about how soon my dad wants it to happen, I feel even sadder. I know I don't have any choice but to marry Damon.

"Come here." He says.

I pull my head up to him.

"Come here Savannah." He tells me.

I walk closer to him as he opens his arms wide and hugged me close. I cried on his shoulder and he rubs my back.

"Ron..." I cried.

"I know how you feel. If I only knew what dad did. I should've stopped him. I'm sorry sis." He holds me close.

I shake my head.

"I didn't know. I'm so sorry." He says.

"Why are you sorry for?" I asked.

"Cos I know how much you love Nick and I know you don't want to get married to Damon yet."

Cameron pushes my hair off my face and wipes the tears that were on my cheeks. "If you don't want to get married to Damon, then don't."

"Ron, he's such a nice man and I couldn't afford to break his heart. I can't say no. I was planning to break up with him when we were in Bahamas but suddenly he proposed to me." I say.

He sighs.

is something serious to handle with, Savannah. You'll be spending your life with Damon." He tells

really appreciate this thing that

but I also know how much he loves you. Dad

what decisions

him tight. "Thank

you're getting married?" Cameron pulls

shake my head

doesn't need to know about it." I

as he reaches for my hand. "Why don't we go to

I nod.

an engaged woman and I'm not wearing it to show off to Nick that I'm married cos I'm sure as hell that he's not here. I heard his wife is back so I

own office and started doing the things that I've left on my desk but even though I try to get myself busy, I can't find words to put into my writing because I'm still bothered about reality and what I chose in life for my future. My future with Damon. I'd be having kids with him and I'd be living at one house with him, I have to force

my door opened. I quickly got myself together and sat straight. I see Dakota standing right in front of my doorway. She walks in without saying anything and closed the door gently.

Wilde." I

I haven't met you personally that's why I came here myself." She examines my

to come here Mrs.

you took a leave in

Im terribly sorry about that. I was having some issues at

of it for

I gulped.

She snaps. "My husband

"Of me?" I repeated.

talked to her personally about your leave. My husband doesn't really do that." She sits down on the chair right in front of my

thankful for Mr. Wilde

done the thing he did for you. Which is why I'm wondering what

"We were colleagues. We went

up. "Oh. Is that so? How lovely."

faked a smile at

is work. Nick Wilde is your boss and he pays you. I

I nod.

like you asking favors from my husband."

"Mrs. Wilde I didn't--"

off, emphasizing on the word my. Yeah yeah he's yours

something wrong. I inhaled heavily and breathe our as I get to calm myself down. This woman is irritating the fuck out of me.

you got

"I'm engaged." I added.

embarrassment after what she did. She smiles to

husband is

as curl my fist into a ball behind my back. "Well, I love my fiancé Mrs. Wilde. I would even love to invite you and

"That would be very nice of you. Now

my office. I quickly crumpled the piece of paper that was on top of my desk. I sat back down on my chair and tried to calm down. I don't know what she knows about me and

and what we talked about because it will only add more complications to my thoughts. I continued working anyways to get my mind off what she said. Damn I'm mad at that woman. If she isn't my boss, I would've pulled her hair with

hours of work, I was finally done and I could finally leave. I've finished everything I had to finish before I leave and I was proud of myself that I finished it in time. I grabbed my bag and fixed the things on my desk before I went out of the room. I didn't really talked to a lot of

stare at my feet and I felt everyone coming out of the elevator as it dings on open. I pulled

car. I started walking down the staircase, coming near Damon's ride. Nick stares at me eagerly but I try so hard not to look at him. I move closer to Damon as he opens his arms for me. He holds me close and I hug him back. Damon kissed my cheek briefly and I smile

soon to be Mrs.

I sigh inwardly.

handsome." I

passenger door for me but before I take a

kissed his cheek briefly and fixed his collar for him as she p vividly complimented Nick. Honestly I don't know why they still need to fake it in front

didn't dare to look back at them because I didn't want to. I held my hands tight on top of my lap and drove us to the nearest restaurant. The dinner

quiet." He grips my shoulder as

"Nothing. Im just really tired

temple. "Oh baby don't stress yourself

only calls me

my place, we lounge on the couch and just watched some movies on tv. I was wearing my loose white baggy shirt over my underwear and I didn't really had to care about what I looked like in front of Damon because