Love Aint Always Pretty

Unprepared

- not properly ready mentally or physically for some experience or action

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I glanced at dad, "We still haven't talked about it." I said coldly.

"Well, the sooner the better." Dad says.

I take a long sip from my drink and just thought about Nick. Everyone talked about the wedding and I was just sitting on my chair. I smiled whenever they would ask me something and I would talk when Damon would say me something to me. It's as if I was a robot and all of them are controlling me.

When dinner was over, Ingrid decided to sleep at my apartment together with Cameron while my parents were at their hotel room. As I fix my pjs and entered the room, I found Cameron fixing the bedsheets with Ingrid. She jumps on my bed and Cameron whines about not getting it done yet. I walked to the bed and joined them.

"Are you okay?" Cameron asked me.

I moved my head to him, "Why wouldn't I be?"

"Oh come on Annie. We know you still love Nick." Ingrid says.

I smiled ruefully. "Ingrid you talk too much. Why don't you go to sleep? Mom and dad are going to pick you up early tomorrow."

Ingrid pouts and Cameron sets her to bed as he fix her blanket. "Go to sleep Ingrid." Cameron says.

He stands. "Savannah, can I talk to you?"

I nod.

Both of us headed out of the room quietly, leaving Ingrid on top of the bed. Cameron stands before me and looks at me in the eye. He didn't say anything yet and just looked at me. I cross my arms against my breast.

"Why are you looking at me like that Ron?" I asked him.

"Are you sure you're really marrying Damon?" He asked me back.

I stared at the floor while my tears were already gathering in my eyes. I take a deep breath in and tried to hide my tears by bending my head down.

"Of course." I say.

"Do you love him?"

I took a deep breath in and exhaled heavily through my mouth. I stare at Cameron who was examining my face. I looked away as I feel my tears about to fall down. I'm too emotional right now and there's a big part of me that's hurt because of my decision on marrying Damon. When I think about how soon my dad wants it to happen, I feel even sadder. I know I don't have any choice but to marry Damon.

"Come here." He says.

I pull my head up to him.

"Come here Savannah." He tells me.

I walk closer to him as he opens his arms wide and hugged me close. I cried on his shoulder and he rubs my back.

"Ron..." I cried.

"I know how you feel. If I only knew what dad did. I should've stopped him. I'm sorry sis." He holds me close.

I shake my head.

"I didn't know. I'm so sorry." He says.

"Why are you sorry for?" I asked.

"Cos I know how much you love Nick and I know you don't want to get married to Damon yet."

Cameron pushes my hair off my face and wipes the tears that were on my cheeks. "If you don't want to get married to Damon, then don't."

"Ron, he's such a nice man and I couldn't afford to break his heart. I can't say no. I was planning to break up with him when we were in Bahamas but suddenly he proposed to me." I say.

He sighs.

really sure you're marrying him? Marriage is something serious to handle with, Savannah. You'll be spending your life with Damon." He tells

know what I'm doing Ron and I really

also know how much he loves you. Dad intervening between the two of

kissed my forehead briefly. "Just know that no matter what decisions you make,

smiled and hugged him tight. "Thank you so much

you're getting married?" Cameron pulls himself

my

need to know about

my hand. "Why don't we go to sleep

I nod.

following morning, I arrived at work wearing my wedding ring. Of course I should wear it, Im an engaged woman and I'm not wearing it to show off to Nick that I'm married

for my future. My future with Damon. I'd be having kids with him and I'd be living at one house with him, I have to force myself that I love him so much and that I'm happy about my marriage with him but for how long can I take to

my chair far from my desk. I massaged my temples when suddenly my door opened. I quickly got myself together and sat straight. I see Dakota standing right in front of my doorway. She walks in without saying anything and closed the door gently. I stood on

morning Mrs. Wilde." I say, damn that was

haven't met you personally that's why I came here myself." She

have to come here Mrs. Wilde."

an eyebrow. "I see you took a leave in a

"Yes. Im terribly sorry about that.

okay. My husband took care of it for you."

I gulped.

snaps.

"Of me?" I repeated.

me that Nick talked to her personally about your leave. My husband doesn't really do that." She sits down on the chair right in front

I'm very thankful for Mr. Wilde

"Well Nick has never done the thing he did for you. Which is why I'm wondering what is or was

"We were colleagues. We went to the same university together, Mrs.

shoot up. "Oh. Is that so? How lovely."

a smile at

university. This is work. Nick Wilde is your boss and he pays you. I hope you put that in mind, Savannah."

I nod.

asking favors

"Mrs. Wilde I didn't--"

me off, emphasizing on the word my. Yeah yeah

breathe our as I get to calm myself down. This

something between me and your husband, you got it all

"I'm engaged." I added.

after what she

husband is rich and very good looking, a lot of women would chase." She adds. "Even some engaged women still flirts

ball behind my back. "Well, I love my fiancé Mrs. Wilde. I would even love to invite you and your husband to my wedding

smiles. "That would be very nice of

don't know what she

thoughts. I continued working anyways to get my mind off what she said. Damn I'm mad at

finished everything I had to finish before I leave and I was proud of myself that I finished it in time. I grabbed my bag and fixed the things on my desk before I went out of the room. I didn't really talked

stare at my feet and I felt everyone coming out of the elevator as it dings on open. I pulled my head up and found myself on the lobby. I walked out and received a text message from Damon. He's here to pick

I look at them, I know I wanted to step inside Nick's car. I started walking down the staircase, coming near Damon's ride. Nick stares at me eagerly but I try so hard not to look at him. I move closer to Damon as he opens his arms for me. He holds me close and I hug him back. Damon kissed my cheek briefly

you, soon to be Mrs. Patricks." Damon says to

I sigh inwardly.

I tell

passenger door for me but before I take a step inside his car,

as she p vividly complimented Nick. Honestly I don't know why they still need to fake it in front of everyone when they're just married in papers. Even though I know it's a contract marriage, I will can't help not to feel

speeds away. I didn't dare to look back at them because I didn't want to. I held my hands tight on top of my lap and drove us to the nearest restaurant. The dinner went well as always and nothing important to talk about it. It was just something we always do after every work and it

He grips my shoulder as we

"Nothing. Im just really tired

kissed my temple. "Oh baby don't stress yourself too

only calls

tv. I was wearing my loose white baggy shirt over my underwear and I didn't really had to care about what I looked like in front of Damon because