Love Aint Always Pretty

Unprepared

- not properly ready mentally or physically for some experience or action

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I glanced at dad, "We still haven't talked about it." I said coldly.

"Well, the sooner the better." Dad says.

I take a long sip from my drink and just thought about Nick. Everyone talked about the wedding and I was just sitting on my chair. I smiled whenever they would ask me something and I would talk when Damon would say me something to me. It's as if I was a robot and all of them are controlling me.

When dinner was over, Ingrid decided to sleep at my apartment together with Cameron while my parents were at their hotel room. As I fix my pjs and entered the room, I found Cameron fixing the bedsheets with Ingrid. She jumps on my bed and Cameron whines about not getting it done yet. I walked to the bed and joined them.

"Are you okay?" Cameron asked me.

I moved my head to him, "Why wouldn't I be?"

"Oh come on Annie. We know you still love Nick." Ingrid says.

I smiled ruefully. "Ingrid you talk too much. Why don't you go to sleep? Mom and dad are going to pick you up early tomorrow."

Ingrid pouts and Cameron sets her to bed as he fix her blanket. "Go to sleep Ingrid." Cameron says.

He stands. "Savannah, can I talk to you?"

I nod.

Both of us headed out of the room quietly, leaving Ingrid on top of the bed. Cameron stands before me and looks at me in the eye. He didn't say anything yet and just looked at me. I cross my arms against my breast.

"Why are you looking at me like that Ron?" I asked him.

"Are you sure you're really marrying Damon?" He asked me back.

I stared at the floor while my tears were already gathering in my eyes. I take a deep breath in and tried to hide my tears by bending my head down.

"Of course." I say.

"Do you love him?"

I took a deep breath in and exhaled heavily through my mouth. I stare at Cameron who was examining my face. I looked away as I feel my tears about to fall down. I'm too emotional right now and there's a big part of me that's hurt because of my decision on marrying Damon. When I think about how soon my dad wants it to happen, I feel even sadder. I know I don't have any choice but to marry Damon.

"Come here." He says.

I pull my head up to him.

"Come here Savannah." He tells me.

I walk closer to him as he opens his arms wide and hugged me close. I cried on his shoulder and he rubs my back.

"Ron..." I cried.

"I know how you feel. If I only knew what dad did. I should've stopped him. I'm sorry sis." He holds me close.

I shake my head.

"I didn't know. I'm so sorry." He says.

"Why are you sorry for?" I asked.

"Cos I know how much you love Nick and I know you don't want to get married to Damon yet."

Cameron pushes my hair off my face and wipes the tears that were on my cheeks. "If you don't want to get married to Damon, then don't."

"Ron, he's such a nice man and I couldn't afford to break his heart. I can't say no. I was planning to break up with him when we were in Bahamas but suddenly he proposed to me." I say.

He sighs.

him? Marriage is something serious to handle with, Savannah. You'll be spending your life with Damon."

Ron and I really

hate Nick so much but I also know how much he loves you. Dad intervening between the two of you

briefly. "Just know that no matter what decisions you make, I always have your

hugged him tight. "Thank

you're getting married?" Cameron

my

need to know about

he reaches for my hand.

I nod.

wearing my wedding ring. Of course I should wear it, Im an engaged woman and I'm not wearing it to show off to Nick that I'm married cos I'm sure as hell that he's not here. I

my way to my own office and started doing the things that I've left on my desk but even though I try to get myself busy, I can't find words to put into my writing because I'm still bothered about reality and what I chose in life for my future. My future with Damon. I'd be having kids with him and I'd be living at one house with him, I have to force myself that I love him so much and that I'm happy about my marriage with

myself together and sat straight. I see Dakota standing right in front of my doorway. She walks in without saying anything and closed the

morning Mrs. Wilde." I say, damn that

haven't met you personally that's why I came here myself."

didn't really have to come here Mrs.

you took a leave in a short

that. I was having

care of it for

I gulped.

that reminds me of." She snaps. "My husband seems to be

"Of me?" I repeated.

your leave. My husband doesn't really do that." She sits

for Mr. Wilde about it

the thing he did for you. Which is why I'm

took a deep breath in. "We were colleagues. We went to the same university

"Oh. Is that so? How

faked a smile at

anymore and this isn't a university. This is work. Nick Wilde is your boss and he pays you. I hope you put that in

I nod.

like you asking favors from my husband."

"Mrs. Wilde I didn't--"

my husband." She cuts me off, emphasizing on

I inhaled heavily and breathe our as I get to calm myself down. This

your husband, you got it all wrong." I pulled my

"I'm engaged." I added.

face shows embarrassment after what she did. She smiles

your husband is rich and very good looking, a lot of women would chase." She adds. "Even some engaged women still flirts to other taken

I love my fiancé Mrs. Wilde. I would even love to invite you and

nice of

desk. I sat back down on my chair and tried to calm down. I don't know what she knows about me and Nick but it was obvious enough that she

it will only add more complications to my thoughts. I continued working anyways to get my mind off what she said. Damn I'm mad at that woman. If she isn't my boss, I would've pulled her hair with my bare hands in this

fixed the things on my desk before I went out of the room. I didn't really talked to a lot of people in

stood on the farthest portion of the elevator behind everyone that were inside. I stare at my feet and I felt everyone coming out of the elevator as it dings

of the large front doors, and found two cars parked right outside. Damon steps out of his car and waves at me, at the same time that Nick steps out of his white Maybach. Damon's car was behind Nick's and as I look at them, I know I wanted to step inside Nick's car. I started walking down the staircase, coming near Damon's ride. Nick stares at me eagerly but I try so hard not to look at him. I move closer to Damon as he opens his arms for me.

to be

I sigh inwardly.

handsome." I

for me but before I take a step inside his

his collar for him as she p vividly complimented Nick. Honestly I don't know why they still need to fake it in front of everyone when they're just married in papers. Even though I know it's a contract marriage, I will can't help

and speeds away. I didn't dare to look back at them because I didn't want to. I held my hands tight on top of my lap and drove us to the nearest restaurant. The dinner went well as always and nothing important to talk about it. It

my shoulder

ruefully. "Nothing. Im just

my temple. "Oh baby don't

only calls me

drove me to my apartment. When we got to my place, we lounge on the couch and just watched some movies on tv. I was wearing my loose white baggy shirt over my underwear and I didn't really had to care about what I looked like