Love Aint Always Pretty

Unprepared

- not properly ready mentally or physically for some experience or action

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I glanced at dad, "We still haven't talked about it." I said coldly.

"Well, the sooner the better." Dad says.

I take a long sip from my drink and just thought about Nick. Everyone talked about the wedding and I was just sitting on my chair. I smiled whenever they would ask me something and I would talk when Damon would say me something to me. It's as if I was a robot and all of them are controlling me.

When dinner was over, Ingrid decided to sleep at my apartment together with Cameron while my parents were at their hotel room. As I fix my pjs and entered the room, I found Cameron fixing the bedsheets with Ingrid. She jumps on my bed and Cameron whines about not getting it done yet. I walked to the bed and joined them.

"Are you okay?" Cameron asked me.

I moved my head to him, "Why wouldn't I be?"

"Oh come on Annie. We know you still love Nick." Ingrid says.

I smiled ruefully. "Ingrid you talk too much. Why don't you go to sleep? Mom and dad are going to pick you up early tomorrow."

Ingrid pouts and Cameron sets her to bed as he fix her blanket. "Go to sleep Ingrid." Cameron says.

He stands. "Savannah, can I talk to you?"

I nod.

Both of us headed out of the room quietly, leaving Ingrid on top of the bed. Cameron stands before me and looks at me in the eye. He didn't say anything yet and just looked at me. I cross my arms against my breast.

"Why are you looking at me like that Ron?" I asked him.

"Are you sure you're really marrying Damon?" He asked me back.

I stared at the floor while my tears were already gathering in my eyes. I take a deep breath in and tried to hide my tears by bending my head down.

"Of course." I say.

"Do you love him?"

I took a deep breath in and exhaled heavily through my mouth. I stare at Cameron who was examining my face. I looked away as I feel my tears about to fall down. I'm too emotional right now and there's a big part of me that's hurt because of my decision on marrying Damon. When I think about how soon my dad wants it to happen, I feel even sadder. I know I don't have any choice but to marry Damon.

"Come here." He says.

I pull my head up to him.

"Come here Savannah." He tells me.

I walk closer to him as he opens his arms wide and hugged me close. I cried on his shoulder and he rubs my back.

"Ron..." I cried.

"I know how you feel. If I only knew what dad did. I should've stopped him. I'm sorry sis." He holds me close.

I shake my head.

"I didn't know. I'm so sorry." He says.

"Why are you sorry for?" I asked.

"Cos I know how much you love Nick and I know you don't want to get married to Damon yet."

Cameron pushes my hair off my face and wipes the tears that were on my cheeks. "If you don't want to get married to Damon, then don't."

"Ron, he's such a nice man and I couldn't afford to break his heart. I can't say no. I was planning to break up with him when we were in Bahamas but suddenly he proposed to me." I say.

He sighs.

sure you're marrying him? Marriage is something serious to handle with, Savannah. You'll be spending your life with

I really appreciate this thing

how

what

him tight. "Thank

getting married?" Cameron pulls

shake my

to know about

as he reaches for my hand. "Why don't we

I nod.

to Nick that I'm married cos I'm sure as hell that he's not here. I heard

things that I've left on my desk but even though I try to get myself busy, I can't find words to put into my writing because I'm still bothered about reality and what I chose in life for my future. My future with Damon. I'd be having kids with him and I'd be living at one house with

I quickly got myself together and sat straight. I see Dakota standing right in front of my doorway. She walks in without saying anything and closed the door gently. I

I say, damn that

smiles. "Hello. I haven't met you personally that's why I came here myself."

have to come here Mrs. Wilde."

you took a leave in a

slightly. "Yes. Im terribly sorry about that. I

took care of

I gulped.

She snaps. "My husband seems to be very protective

"Of me?" I repeated.

personally about your leave. My husband doesn't really do that." She sits down on the chair

thankful for Mr. Wilde about it then." I

"Well Nick has never done the thing he did for you. Which is why I'm

a deep breath in. "We were colleagues. We went to the same

"Oh. Is that so? How

faked a

and this isn't a university. This is work. Nick Wilde is

I nod.

asking favors from my

"Mrs. Wilde I didn't--"

She cuts me off, emphasizing on the word my. Yeah yeah he's

me eagerly as if I did something wrong. I inhaled heavily and breathe our as I get to calm myself down. This woman is irritating

and your husband, you got it all wrong." I pulled my hand and showed her my

"I'm engaged." I added.

what she did.

my man. You know what they say when your husband is rich and very good looking, a lot of women would chase." She

exhaled heavily as curl my fist into a ball behind my back. "Well, I love my fiancé Mrs. Wilde. I would even love to

be very nice of you. Now get

my chair and tried to calm down. I don't know what she knows about me and Nick but it was

to my thoughts. I continued working anyways to get my mind off what she said. Damn I'm mad at that woman. If she isn't my boss, I would've pulled her hair with my bare hands

finish before I leave and I was proud of myself that I finished it in time. I grabbed my bag and fixed the things on my desk before I went out of the room. I didn't really talked to a lot of people in

behind everyone that were inside. I stare at my feet and I felt everyone coming out of the elevator as it dings on open. I pulled my head up and found myself on the lobby. I walked out and

car and waves at me, at the same time that Nick steps out of his white Maybach. Damon's car was behind Nick's and as I look at them, I know I wanted to step inside Nick's car. I started walking down the staircase, coming near Damon's ride. Nick stares at me eagerly but I try so hard not to look at him. I move closer to Damon as he opens his arms for me. He holds me close and I hug him back. Damon kissed my cheek briefly and I smile at

to be Mrs. Patricks."

I sigh inwardly.

handsome." I tell

door for me but before I take a step inside his car, I

she p vividly complimented Nick. Honestly I don't know why they still need to fake it in front of everyone when they're

my hands tight on top of my lap and drove us to the nearest restaurant. The dinner went well as always and nothing important to talk about it. It was just something we always do after every work and it gets pretty boring

grips my shoulder

Im just

baby don't

only calls

and just watched some movies on tv. I was wearing my loose white baggy shirt over my underwear and I didn't really had to care about what I looked like in front of Damon because he never really cares about it