Love Aint Always Pretty
Chapter 78: 78 The Heart Wants What It Wants
The Heart Wants What It Wants
- She's saying that there's a lot of reasons she should finally leave him, and her mind knows it's not right, but she can't get her heart to stop wanting him. It's a mind over matter dilemma.
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"Yes." I answer firmly.
My heart breaks into pieces as I answer him. My lips are saying words that I don't want to say in front of the man I love. As I answer him, I could feel his pain living inside his eyes. I was surprised that Dakota didn't tell Nick about it. I guess she didn't tell him about how she walked inside my office and humiliated me in front of her.
"When?" He asked.
"It's on the invitation card."
"No." He snapped.
He exhales heavily and walks in little circles while massaging his temples.
"I meant when did you plan this? Tell me, when was it? Savannah you knew how I felt about you and I told you the whole truth." He adds.
"Nick." I snapped, almost sounding like a yell. I took a deep breath in. "I can't. I just can't do this anymore."
I curl my fist behind my back. Don't cry. Don't show him your tears Savannah. You're stronger now. You're a strong woman. I scold myself.
"I can't wait for you anymore. I told you that." I added.
I try to bite my tongue for five seconds to avoid myself from crying before saying the next words to him.
"I'm tired of waiting for you. I'm tired of waiting for nothing from you, all the fucking time and yet you always fail me. This is so redundant and I'm so so tired with all of it. I'm so tired of getting tired! I may love you still, but please." I say weakly.
"Let me go." My voice shakes.
He didn't answer for a while and I just went silent.
"How can I let you go when you're all I have that I took advantage of?" He says to me.
I exhale. "You had me all along but you lost me not only once Nick. You always lose me."
"And now that I found someone for me, I'm not letting you break my personal space again. I'm happy with Damon. I came here to invite you and Mrs. Wilde personally on my wedding day." I add.
He didn't say anything.
"I would be happy to see you there Nick." I continued.
"Then what was that night for?" He asked as I see him hid in his years.
"We made love Savannah." He adds.
I shake my head. "We just fucked, Nick. It was just a one night stand and I don't want to remember it ever again. It was a mistake. I was drunk and I'm sorry."
"You don't have to be sorry for such a wonderful night." He tells me.
Don't give in Savannah.
"I came here for that and now that you have it, I'd be happy seeing you both there." I say.
"Have a good day Mr. President." I marched my way to the door and left.
I exhaled heavily through my mouth and started leaving the door. I marched my way inside my office and my tears streamed down my face after holding it for so long. Goodness Savannah! Why do you still cry over Nick for god's sake? Why do you still get affected by him when it's been years?
•••••
Two weeks before my wedding, the wedding gown just arrived from Milan and I was staring at myself in front of the mirror. I loved it with all the sparkling crystals on it, even though I didn't really design it for myself. It was more of Damon's mom's ideas with a little help from my mom.
It sort of looked like, everyone was so excited and ecstatic about the wedding but not me. Everyone was so happy seeing their own gowns arriving. Everyone was looking forward for it aside from me. Everyone was busy for that day to come. Everyone went wedding gift shopping for us. Everyone was totally prepared. Everyone but not me.
I stare at myself longer at the huge mirror and imagined myself walking down the aisle for Nick as it slowly starts to fade away cos reality comes in. It's been weeks since the last time I saw him and it was on that day when I gave him the invitation card. After that, he didn't visit the office anymore even though Dakota wasn't around yet.
He's hurt, probably, but he has never been hurt the way I did.
"You look beautiful on this gown." I tell myself as I smile.
I exhale heavily. "Beautiful."
I stare at myself.
pulled
go and you're
my college friends in NYU. I invited a few
also having his stag's party but it was on a
enjoy
sucks so bad that Savannah is getting
smiled at them as I settled myself on the couch. I had no idea what was going to happen but I'm sure as hell there's going to male strippers here tonight. All the other women were giddy but I
to all and she was
Don't get wild." Erica
I sigh. Nick
the night that we
and
for the luckiest woman on earth, to be married to the most amazing man
started stripping off their policeman outfit, imagine Magic Mike, that's how these men
me and pulled me up from the couch. They danced and grind against me but I just stood there laughing at myself and the other women
down. I was in the mood to party tonight but when I remember that I'll be married days from now, it kills me every time. I have been literally trying to force myself that I am emotionally ready to get married to Damon,
and loud music and so much grinding on top of my lap. I was laughing and touching the male strippers' bodies. I was enjoying it for a few minutes. I didn't really mind at all, they're paid to do it and we can touch freely. Rhey were
wanted to be alone so I started walking around the hallways of the hotel all by myself until I found the hotel's bar lounge. I walked my way inside and found a lady singing with the pianist right before
ma'm?" The
upstairs in the
party
"Mine."
getting married. Congrats
taking a long drink
lucky to have such a
I tell
singer as she sings soulfully the song Un-break My Heart while I feel every lyric of it sing to me. I need to embrace reality and be happy of
bring
take these
arms to
are so
nights when I held you
I'd
turned my head to my side, I found Nick sitting right next
of whiskey please."
came." The bartender smiles at
he
Un-break my heart
love me
hurt
you walked out
walked out of
Un-cry this tears
cried so
my fiancé."
started handing Nick
vodka please." I say right
straight ahead. I didn't want to look at Nick again, I'd just probably just end up crying right in front of
party's done?"
Just went out
peripheral view, I see him taking a drink from his
are you here?" I
be here. I was hoping
to
a
bachelorette party Nick. For women only." I
I could be
that he smiles too. I glance at him and
that
the joy to my
here
and kiss this
beautiful tonight."
tears building up behind my eyes.
sighs. "What
couldn't explain how much pain you caused me, but damn..." I
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