Love Aint Always Pretty

Chapter 78: 78 The Heart Wants What It Wants

The Heart Wants What It Wants

- She's saying that there's a lot of reasons she should finally leave him, and her mind knows it's not right, but she can't get her heart to stop wanting him. It's a mind over matter dilemma.

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"Yes." I answer firmly.

My heart breaks into pieces as I answer him. My lips are saying words that I don't want to say in front of the man I love. As I answer him, I could feel his pain living inside his eyes. I was surprised that Dakota didn't tell Nick about it. I guess she didn't tell him about how she walked inside my office and humiliated me in front of her.

"When?" He asked.

"It's on the invitation card."

"No." He snapped.

He exhales heavily and walks in little circles while massaging his temples.

"I meant when did you plan this? Tell me, when was it? Savannah you knew how I felt about you and I told you the whole truth." He adds.

"Nick." I snapped, almost sounding like a yell. I took a deep breath in. "I can't. I just can't do this anymore."

I curl my fist behind my back. Don't cry. Don't show him your tears Savannah. You're stronger now. You're a strong woman. I scold myself.

"I can't wait for you anymore. I told you that." I added.

I try to bite my tongue for five seconds to avoid myself from crying before saying the next words to him.

"I'm tired of waiting for you. I'm tired of waiting for nothing from you, all the fucking time and yet you always fail me. This is so redundant and I'm so so tired with all of it. I'm so tired of getting tired! I may love you still, but please." I say weakly.

"Let me go." My voice shakes.

He didn't answer for a while and I just went silent.

"How can I let you go when you're all I have that I took advantage of?" He says to me.

I exhale. "You had me all along but you lost me not only once Nick. You always lose me."

"And now that I found someone for me, I'm not letting you break my personal space again. I'm happy with Damon. I came here to invite you and Mrs. Wilde personally on my wedding day." I add.

He didn't say anything.

"I would be happy to see you there Nick." I continued.

"Then what was that night for?" He asked as I see him hid in his years.

"We made love Savannah." He adds.

I shake my head. "We just fucked, Nick. It was just a one night stand and I don't want to remember it ever again. It was a mistake. I was drunk and I'm sorry."

"You don't have to be sorry for such a wonderful night." He tells me.

Don't give in Savannah.

"I came here for that and now that you have it, I'd be happy seeing you both there." I say.

"Have a good day Mr. President." I marched my way to the door and left.

I exhaled heavily through my mouth and started leaving the door. I marched my way inside my office and my tears streamed down my face after holding it for so long. Goodness Savannah! Why do you still cry over Nick for god's sake? Why do you still get affected by him when it's been years?

•••••

Two weeks before my wedding, the wedding gown just arrived from Milan and I was staring at myself in front of the mirror. I loved it with all the sparkling crystals on it, even though I didn't really design it for myself. It was more of Damon's mom's ideas with a little help from my mom.

It sort of looked like, everyone was so excited and ecstatic about the wedding but not me. Everyone was so happy seeing their own gowns arriving. Everyone was looking forward for it aside from me. Everyone was busy for that day to come. Everyone went wedding gift shopping for us. Everyone was totally prepared. Everyone but not me.

I stare at myself longer at the huge mirror and imagined myself walking down the aisle for Nick as it slowly starts to fade away cos reality comes in. It's been weeks since the last time I saw him and it was on that day when I gave him the invitation card. After that, he didn't visit the office anymore even though Dakota wasn't around yet.

He's hurt, probably, but he has never been hurt the way I did.

"You look beautiful on this gown." I tell myself as I smile.

I exhale heavily. "Beautiful."

I stare at myself.

pulled my head

go and you're already Mrs.

going to have our bachelorette party that was initiated by my college friends in NYU. I invited a few from my high school friends as well but Tracy said she couldn't come tonight since she's busy for work, instead she promised to

was going to happen. Damon was also having his stag's party but it was on a different venue. I didn't really cared about him screwing other women tonight because

so gonna enjoy

Savannah is getting married

happen but I'm sure as hell there's going to male strippers here tonight. All the other women were giddy but I just sat here with a glass

says to all and she was answered with

Don't get wild." Erica

I sigh. Nick

the night

shrieked and cheered

the most amazing man I know. To Savannah and Damon." Helen makes a toast and all of us

stripping off their policeman outfit, imagine Magic Mike, that's how these

just stood there laughing at myself and the other women who were obviously going crazy about these

down. I was in the mood to party tonight but when I remember that I'll be married days from now, it kills me every time. I have been literally trying to force myself that I am

I didn't really mind at all, they're paid to do it and we can touch freely. Rhey were all hot anyways and

found the hotel's bar lounge. I walked my way inside and found a lady singing with the

alone ma'm?" The waiter

having a bachelorette party upstairs in the hotel room and

party was

"Mine."

"You're getting

smiled ruefully before taking a long drink

have such a lovely woman, ma'm." He

I tell

sings soulfully the song Un-break My Heart while I feel every lyric of it sing to me.

and bring

and take

need your arms

nights are

those nights when

I'd find

I turned my head to my side, I found Nick sitting right next to me. He smiles at me and my heart accelerated so fast. He appears so causally as if we didn't

of whiskey please." He tells the

came." The bartender smiles at

wish he was my

Un-break my heart

you love

this hurt

you walked out that

walked out of my

Un-cry this tears

cried so many

not my fiancé."

and started handing Nick his own

I say

a quick drink from it and just looked straight ahead. I didn't want to look at Nick

bachelorette party's done?" He asked

out to get

him taking a drink from his

you here?" I

sighs. "Tracy told me you'd be here.

travels his head to

take a longer

Nick. For women only." I

was thinking maybe I could be the one stripping for

smiles too. I glance at him and he was already looking

that sad

joy to my

here with these

and kiss

tonight." He

tears building up behind my eyes. I smile. "You know what's funny Nick?"

"What is

much pain you caused me, but damn..." I look at

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