Mated With Five Boys

"An eye for an eye only ends up making the whole world blind."- Mahatma Gandhi 

I stretched my arms, a yawn escaping my mouth.

I rubbed my eyes tiredly and looked over at the clock, it was 6 o'clock in the morning.

I woke up thirty minutes before my alarm for school usually goes off.

That's a first.

I slipped the warm blankets off my body and immediately felt naked even though I was still wearing the same clothes that I wore yesterday.

I looked down at myself confused, I usually wore pajamas to bed.

I brushed my thoughts away and got out of bed and walked over to the closet, well, let me rephrase that, I tried to walk to my closet.

I took three steps and tripped over a body sleeping on my floor.

What the heck? "Watch where the hell you're going; Axel mumbled tiredly.

"Axel? You better have a damn good reason why you're sleeping on my floor.’ I couldn't help the anger that filled my voice, I still wasn't over everything he said to me.

"Like I could leave you alone in here after what happened."

He said just as angry, sitting up in his pallet on the ground.

Instantly remembering what happened my head snapped to the window that the unidentified man climbed out of last night.

My heart raced all over again, it could have gone so much worse than it did.

So many questioned filled my brain like who was that person? What were they looking for? Or worse, how long have they been sneaking into my room? "You slept there all night?"

I asked, my anger fading.

"Yeah."

He grunted, not looking at me.

"You didn't need to do that; I told him truthfully.

"I know.’ He stated.

I was taken back, I stared at Axel with my eyebrows furrowed.

No matter how hard I tried I couldn't figure him out.

It was moments like this where I think there is more to Axel, I think maybe he can't be all bad.

"You kept screaming in your sleep, I couldn't leave you like that."

He spoke, finally looking at me.

I looked down at my socks embarrassed, I knew my nightmares were coming back but I didn't know they were that bad.

In totally honestly, I don't remember anything that happened past standing in the hallway with Axel.

I faintly remember Axel calling Rylan upstairs and them two bickering at each other but I don't remember going to bed or even what nightmare I had.

"And I figured you wouldn't be comfortable with me sleeping with you so I slept here."

He stated, getting standing up.

Well, he was right about one thing, I definitely wouldn't have been okay with that.

"Thank you."

I looked up at him.

We both stood there staring at each other for a good twenty seconds before I forced myself to look away from him.

Axel's eyes always had a way to make me feel lost looking into therm, they were so intense and alluring.

I could feel my face go pale when I watch Axel pick up his blankets and my journal fell from the tangle of covers.

I instantly searched the bookcase and sure enough, my journal was missing.

"How much of this did you read!"

I seethed, grabbing the book off the floor.

My body started shaking violently, I wasn't sure if I should feel scared or angry.

"Enough."

His eyes narrowed at me.

"Then you read the first page where it says DO NOT READ!"

I hissed, quickly deciding to go with anger.

Axel didn't say anything he just watched me.

"Are you trying to make me hate you!"

I asked, feeling heat run up my neck.

"God, what is your problem? What kind of mind games are you trying to play?"

I shouted, my stomach twisting.

"You know what? Here!"

I threw my journal at him.

"Mia."

Axel's voice was low.

stop you! Get your shits and

I barked at him.

feel like throwing

"Go ahead, read it!"

My voice cracked.

find the part where Larry's oldest son would drag me outside and tie me to the big spruce tree in the backyard like a dog with the chain so tight around my neck I could barely breathe particularly

running down my cheek but

how about when I was thirteen and a man chased me with a broken beer bottle out of a

I hiccup uncontrollably.

I got a cool scar

to show off my 3

growled at

"WHAT?"

I growled back.

you possibly have

My voice shook.

to my knees and bawl my eyes

wouldn't let him have

sorry.’ He

enough for a sob to break my defenses and penetrate

slid my back against the wall, bring my knees to my

the tears that

with my

I shouted.

not sorry! You never learned

I cried out.

of my throat and no matter how hard I tried

begged my voice barely

"DON'T TOUCH ME!"

I felt Axel place a

deer caught in the headlights

got harder so did my breathing, my lungs were squirming

harder as I started to see black

I

desperation clear

"Leave."

him, or I think I was looking at Axel, I was seeing two

"No."

a look at

"Leave me alone Axel!"

I yelled at him.

"No."

His voice was strong.

yell, cry, hell you can even kick and

His voice turning softer.

"Why do you care?"

I snapped at him.

"I don't know!"

He snapped back.

studied Axel's face trying to

stop messing with my

I hollered.

I was messing

He shouted.

do you want with

I asked, mentally exhausted.

"To protect you."

watching

"From what exactly?"

I met his eyes.

His eyes bore into

people in your journal, from me”

better, I would have been certain that Axel could hear my heart hammering

I didn't know what

are things

He sighed deeply.

me,

at me with vulnerability

is pretty easy, I'm used to it, I've been

how am I

pleading for him to understand

to look at myself in the mirror after knowing what those people did to me? How I let all those people take advantage of me? He nodded his head and I watch as his eyes fell to

do whatever you

head snapped

"Anything?"I asked.

"Anything."He agreed.

about it for a while and then finally

my life history I want to know yours; I told him, it

brown eyes going

"Then get out."

desperation creep into

"I can't!"

threw his

"Why the hell not!"

through

you've somehow wormed your

He yelled at me.

this infuriating need

his teeth, narrowing

now my turn to narrow my

reading people, I could tell when they were lying or telling the truth but looking at Axel I had not the

when I'm away

hands balled