Surrogate For Alpha Dom

Sinclair

Don’t shift, don’t shift, don’t shift. I think manically Ella needs you.

Listening to Ella recount her childhood always makes me furious, but this time is

worse than all the others. I’ve suspected that Ella suffered terrible traumas for some

time now, but before this night l’d been able to pacify my outrage with the hope that

I’m wrong.

No longer.

As Ella speaks, I wonder how she could ever imagine herself weak. I can’t even stand

to listen to her story, but she actually lived it. She sacrificed herself for her sister, and

she survived things I can only imagine

“When the matron realized it was me, she smiled so cruelly that my stomach turnedshe was only too glad to take, me instead of Cora.” Ella continues, shuddering with

the memory. Her unease gives my wolf the push he needed to put aside his own rage

and comfort her. I finally manage a weak purr, and Ella presses her nose to my chest,

breathing in my scent.

“She took me to her own room and put me in her bed, and then she got in with me

and.. started touching me in ways I didn’t like or understand.

She made me touch her too, and she never stopped talking She told me how pretty I

was over and over, and kept asking me if I liked it. I said no, but she just insisted that

this was a special, secret game I was lucky to play. She said everything I was feeling

might be confusing, but it was good and right and natural. She said it took practice,

but that we’d have plenty of time.. Afterwards she took me back to the dorm with a

reminder not to share our secret. Cora asked me what happened but I didn’t know

how to explain.”

“The next day I went to the doctor in residence, and I told him what the matron had

done. I’d never liked him much, but in my heart I knew what had happened was

wrong, and I didn’t know who else to tell. I thought that since it was about my body,

the doctor was the one who could help. There was no such thing as sex ed at the

orphanage and no one else ever talked to us about our bodies. At first I was relieved

to tell someone. The doctor seemed very concerned, and agreed that it sounded

strange.”

that

stops now, and her shaking

steaming around us, so I know she

took off my clothes and put me on the

important that you be

you’re used to, and if you move too much I could

cheeks as she quotes the

he said, T know

straps

table and strapped me down. and then he asked

and when I explained he would

if I didn’t answer, if I cried or objected, he would only do

demand I tell him”

the first minute or so I figured out what he was about, and I didn’t want

but if I didn’t speak he would

my

I told him how to hurt me.” Ella is interrupted

and she looks up at me for the first

she offers me a bitter smile and reaches

jaw. “It’s okay, big bad wolf,

whine, and Ella determinedy

things, but I

happen again, but I was already broken,

like Cora who weren’t

didn’t!I have a horrible sick feeling in my stomach,

and whisk Ella

could hurt her.

only would have meant other children would be hurt, which

know what Ella did. My brave, brilliant little mate would

child be abused… even if it

I stopped hiding at night. I gave myself up

be ruined more than I

shares, confirming my fears but also

despair by explaining her logic. “The matron came almost every night… and

would call me in for check ups every few weeks. I hated those

sort of gentle, and she never tied me down or

pain, she seemed determined to make me like

was different. He was a true sadist; he loved my fear, loved

over time.” Ella hides her face in my neck as

he r*ped me, and that’s when Cora and I ran

with us, but most were more afraid of living

the matron. Luckily they didn’t know about

behind to never confide in

are clamped so tightly on Ella I’m afraid I must be hurting her,

doesn’t complain.

crying, but her muscles have unwound now that her story

tears in my own eyes, and I can only

she

they still there? The matron and the doctor?” I finally ask, my voice a

hiss.

could only live

away through the first winter, but eventually the police found us squatting

building and returned us to the orphanage. When we got