Surrogate For Alpha Dom

Sinclair

Don’t shift, don’t shift, don’t shift. I think manically Ella needs you.

Listening to Ella recount her childhood always makes me furious, but this time is

worse than all the others. I’ve suspected that Ella suffered terrible traumas for some

time now, but before this night l’d been able to pacify my outrage with the hope that

I’m wrong.

No longer.

As Ella speaks, I wonder how she could ever imagine herself weak. I can’t even stand

to listen to her story, but she actually lived it. She sacrificed herself for her sister, and

she survived things I can only imagine

“When the matron realized it was me, she smiled so cruelly that my stomach turnedshe was only too glad to take, me instead of Cora.” Ella continues, shuddering with

the memory. Her unease gives my wolf the push he needed to put aside his own rage

and comfort her. I finally manage a weak purr, and Ella presses her nose to my chest,

breathing in my scent.

“She took me to her own room and put me in her bed, and then she got in with me

and.. started touching me in ways I didn’t like or understand.

She made me touch her too, and she never stopped talking She told me how pretty I

was over and over, and kept asking me if I liked it. I said no, but she just insisted that

this was a special, secret game I was lucky to play. She said everything I was feeling

might be confusing, but it was good and right and natural. She said it took practice,

but that we’d have plenty of time.. Afterwards she took me back to the dorm with a

reminder not to share our secret. Cora asked me what happened but I didn’t know

how to explain.”

“The next day I went to the doctor in residence, and I told him what the matron had

done. I’d never liked him much, but in my heart I knew what had happened was

wrong, and I didn’t know who else to tell. I thought that since it was about my body,

the doctor was the one who could help. There was no such thing as sex ed at the

orphanage and no one else ever talked to us about our bodies. At first I was relieved

to tell someone. The doctor seemed very concerned, and agreed that it sounded

strange.”

me that he needed to examine

stops now, and her shaking is

steaming around us, so I know she isn’t

clothes and put me

it’s very important that you be still, Ella. This is a

exam than you’re used to, and if you move too much I

stream down Ella s cheeks as she quotes the doctor, and it takes

contain my wolf. “Then he said, T know

still, so I have these nifty straps to help you.

strapped me down. and then he asked

when I explained he would

I didn’t answer, if I cried or

demand I tell him”

so I figured out what he was about, and I

if I didn’t speak he would

my

answered. I told him how to hurt me.” Ella is

at

but she offers me a bitter

big bad wolf,

whine, and Ella determinedy forges on. “I was

they did those things, but I

never wanted it to happen again, but I was already

like Cora who weren’t

didn’t!I have a horrible sick feeling

back in time and whisk Ella away from

could hurt her.

would have meant other children would be hurt, which is how

My brave, brilliant little

abused… even if it

stopped hiding at night. I gave myself up so the others wouldn’t be

couldn’t be ruined more than I already was,

shares, confirming my

“The matron came almost every

check ups every

was sort of gentle, and she never tied me down

to inflict pain, she seemed determined to make

was different. He was a true sadist; he loved my fear, loved my pain.

face in my neck as she concludes her

twelve he r*ped me, and that’s when Cora and I

other girls to run with us, but most

they didn’t know about the doctor, and I

to never confide

so tightly on Ella I’m afraid I must be hurting

doesn’t complain.

crying, but her muscles have unwound now

own eyes, and I can

everything she

the doctor?” I finally ask, my voice a

hiss.

“Cora and I could only live

stay away through the first winter, but eventually the police found us

returned us to the orphanage. When we got back they