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Don’t shift, don’t shift, don’t shift. I think manically Ella needs you.

Listening to Ella recount her childhood always makes me furious, but this time is

worse than all the others. I’ve suspected that Ella suffered terrible traumas for some

time now, but before this night l’d been able to pacify my outrage with the hope that

I’m wrong.

No longer.

As Ella speaks, I wonder how she could ever imagine herself weak. I can’t even stand

to listen to her story, but she actually lived it. She sacrificed herself for her sister, and

she survived things I can only imagine

“When the matron realized it was me, she smiled so cruelly that my stomach turnedshe was only too glad to take, me instead of Cora.” Ella continues, shuddering with

the memory. Her unease gives my wolf the push he needed to put aside his own rage

and comfort her. I finally manage a weak purr, and Ella presses her nose to my chest,

breathing in my scent.

“She took me to her own room and put me in her bed, and then she got in with me

and.. started touching me in ways I didn’t like or understand.

She made me touch her too, and she never stopped talking She told me how pretty I

was over and over, and kept asking me if I liked it. I said no, but she just insisted that

this was a special, secret game I was lucky to play. She said everything I was feeling

might be confusing, but it was good and right and natural. She said it took practice,

but that we’d have plenty of time.. Afterwards she took me back to the dorm with a

reminder not to share our secret. Cora asked me what happened but I didn’t know

how to explain.”

“The next day I went to the doctor in residence, and I told him what the matron had

done. I’d never liked him much, but in my heart I knew what had happened was

wrong, and I didn’t know who else to tell. I thought that since it was about my body,

the doctor was the one who could help. There was no such thing as sex ed at the

orphanage and no one else ever talked to us about our bodies. At first I was relieved

to tell someone. The doctor seemed very concerned, and agreed that it sounded

strange.”

that he needed

coming in starts and stops now, and her shaking is getting

steaming around us, so I know she isn’t

yet. “He took off my clothes and put me on the exam table. and then I’ll

way he said, ‘now it’s very important that you be

if you move too much

down Ella s cheeks as she quotes the doctor, and it takes

contain my wolf. “Then he said, T know little girls can

still, so I have these nifty straps

and strapped me down. and then he asked me exactly what

and when I explained he would

didn’t answer, if I cried or objected, he would only do it rougher

demand I tell him”

figured out what he was

I didn’t speak he would start

on my body. They

him how to

looks up at me

eyes are overflowing, but she offers me a bitter

“It’s okay, big

determinedy forges on. “I was

why they did those things, but I

it to happen again,

like Cora

no. No, no, no tell me she didn’t!I have a horrible sick feeling in my

in time and whisk

could hurt her.

would have meant other children would be hurt, which

Ella did. My brave, brilliant little

be abused… even if it meant

stopped hiding at night. I gave myself

I couldn’t be ruined more than I already was, and

destroyed.” Ella shares, confirming my fears

explaining her logic. “The matron came almost every night…

every few weeks. I hated

was sort of gentle, and she

to inflict pain, she seemed determined to make me like

different. He was a true sadist; he loved my fear,

face in my neck as

me, and that’s when Cora and I ran away.

but most were

matron. Luckily they didn’t know about the doctor, and I

to

so tightly on Ella I’m afraid I must be hurting

doesn’t complain.

muscles have

tears in my own eyes, and I can

she

the doctor?” I

hiss.

Ella replies. “Cora and I could only live

away through the first winter, but eventually the police found us squatting

building and returned us to the orphanage. When we got back they