The Dark Side Of Fate

Chapter 217

55 Battles of the heart and mind (Book 2)

~Susan~

Love could be messed up sometimes, and in my case, most of the time. That was my story when Maurice Volkov threatened my life, and my uncle had to move me to the south. I did not hear anything that day, but the paranoid man believed I did, and for that, I was asked to leave the north or die.

Writing the letter to Sylvester was hard, and I shed many tears. Tears that had never stopped falling ever since.

I knew he would be heartbroken, but my heart was bound to break more because I knew the truth. While he would hate me, I would have no one but myself to hate for being in the wrong place at the wrong time. That was twelve years ago now, and my heart was still aching.

I never moved on from Sylvester. I couldn’t. I used to dream that we would return to the north one day, and I would see him. I will tell him the truth, and he will forgive me. Unfortunately for me, things did not turn out the way that I wanted. It hurt.

I was happy for Sylvester.

Tamia was a perfect fit for him and his personality, but where did that leave me? I was stuck in limbo. I could not move forward, and neither could I move backwards.

Devin brought light and life into my life, and I had fucked it up. I was afraid that fate would fuck us up, and he had argued otherwise, citing Marcel and Theodore’s love life as an example, but what if we were the exception?

Devin thought I still wanted Sylvester, but that wasn’t true.

He just reminded me of what I could have had. I also did not miss that he was now fated to Tamia. The moon had blessed them abundantly.

I sat in my new room and wept bitterly.

I should have said yes when Devin asked me to marry him. I should have thrown caution to the wind and said yes but instead; I said I would think about it.

I did not mean to hurt him with my words, but I had seen marriages crushed by fate. However rare the fated bond was, it somehow managed to fuck something up if it came. I was worried that we might get into it and something like that would happen to us.

I needed to be brazen and sure.

I needed to be determined for it to work out, so I said I would think about it. It wasn’t because of Sylvester. It was to prepare for the unknown.

One thing Devin was yet to understand about me is that I suffered from depression. It was a well-kept secret, but it ran in my family. Hence our erratic behaviour. I tried to keep it under control by distancing myself from people and doing things that made me happy, but it was there.

My secrets and reluctance to open up had cost me dearly.

I loved Devin so much. My wolf Cleo and I could not give him up. I had done everything. I had learned to cook and throw out all my baggage just so it would work.

I was determined, but it crushed my soul when he said he would place me in the friend zone.

all the family I had now. My uncle and cousin had

matter how evil they were, they were my family, and we loved

them with Devin because

of them? I had

lost him, Sue,” I

not even go back to

who had come to see him seemed into him, and nothing stopped

and less

did not know

to be a burden. I did not

up on Devin like that. He

leave his room last night, and this morning, when I mistakenly brought up his proposal, he

should just leave,” I told my wolf, and

always leave. We have never tried to fight for anything. We always let people boss us around, lie to us, manipulate us and hinder us from achieving our true potential. So what Devin is mad, we will just have to prove to

Sylvester and wish him well, but I couldn’t do the same with Devin. We should leave,” I said, and my wolf was silent because she understood

deal with it instead of running away as usual,”

there. Plaster a smile and act like she doesn’t get to you. That girl called us Miss Sullivan for a purpose. We have to make her shove it, Sue. Do

reduce the swelling around my eyes and

room, and there was no

had gone out with Devin, I decided to clean

my food and cleaned the

doing?” I asked her, and she looked

wasn’t around, I knew she would throw away

she wanted him, and I had foolishly created an avenue

it look like?” she asked me with a very

I mean all.” She said, and I did not want to believe that Devin

of the pack and Alpha Devin. Since you left, someone had to step in,” she said

has moved on.” She said, and

did not say anything to

the room I was sleeping in and changed

came out, I saw her exiting

your breath, Susan. I will do right by him,”

walked away, and I decided to

see me. I might have lost Devin,

in the woods in wolf form. Sometimes I would remember my uncle and Glenda. I would brush the

to the

dreaded it. I did not know what I would see,

the living room attending to some files, and I could smell Alice in